Saturday, August 16, 2008

Believable Lies & Lost Truths

Edward and Bella are high school sweethearts. When Bella hears Esme saying things that make her question her right to be with Edward, will Bella make a foolish decision for both of them? Will tragedy bring them together or push them apart?

All characters and elements related to Twilight are owned by Stephanie Meyer and all songs used in this story are owned by the writers. No copyright infringement is intended. I am merely playing with the things in life that I love :)

Chapter 1-How Can Good News Hurt So Badly?

Chapter 2- Finally a Plan

Chapter 3- Graduation Party

Chapter 4- Here Come Goodbye

Chapter 5- Planes, Trains and Automobiles- no wait...not the Trains

Chapter 6- We're In This Car For How Many Miles?

Chapter7- Sweet Freedom or Pure Hell?

Chapter8- How Do I Deal?

Chapter 9 - I Need To Get Home

Chapter 10- Lots and Lots of Waiting

Chapter 11- Barely Holding On

Chapter 12- Finally an Answer, But Will I Like It?

Chapter 13- Trip to the ER

Chapter 13 Outtake- Edward's pov

Chapter 14- The Walls All Come Tumbling Down

Chapter 15- Who Knew The Safeway Was So Informative

Chapter 16- Let's Tell Them The Good News

Chapter 17-Plans, Plans, and more Plans

Chapter 18-Moving Out & Moving In

Chapter 19-Change of Plans

Chapter 20-Our New Home

Chapter 21-We Are Truly Thankful

Chapter 22-A Visit From Angela

Chapter 23-Christmas Shopping

Chapter 24-Revelations

Chapter 25-Talks with Everyone

Chapter 26-It's a Great Day for a White Wedding

Chapter 27-From This Day Forward

Chapter 28-Heaven

Chapter 29-In My Daughter's Eyes

Epilogue

Chapter 37 At Last

The bold, italicized paragraphs are flashbacks, I'm sure you knew this but just in case. Didn't want to assume, you know what that makes ya.

Playlist:At Last-Celine Dion or any of the other nine million people that have recorded this wonderful song, I'll Be(Acoustic Version)-Edwin McCain, Truly-Lionel Richie, I Melt-Rascal Flatts, I Do (Cherish You)- 98 degrees or I prefer Mark Wills


At last my love has come along, my lonely days are over, and life is like a song

Oh, yeah, yeah, at last,

The skies above are blue, my heart was wrapped up in clover, the night I looked at you

I found a dream that I could speak to, a dream that I could call my own

I found a thrill to press my cheek to, a thrill that I have never known

You smile, you smile, oh and then a spell was cast

And here we are in heaven, for you are mine at last

I found a dream that I could speak to, a dream that I could call my own

I found a thrill to press my cheek to, a thrill that I have never known

You smile, you smile, oh and then a spell was cast

And here we are in heaven, for you are mine at last

At Last

Celine Dion~ At Last

Chapter 37- At Last

Edward's POV

I watched Bella sleep, her face was so peaceful. My heart swelled just from watching her. She was so beautiful all the time but there was something about her in her sleep that made her seem almost angelic. I thought back to that day when I returned to Forks and saw her again. I knew shortly after I walked out onto the front porch of the house and saw her standing there that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. At that moment everything seemed to make sense to me, all the doubt was removed and I knew. I just knew what I wanted for my life, I wanted her.

My eyes glanced to her left hand that was resting on her lap, above the blanket she had wrapped around her. I hoped it was because she wanted to show off the wedding ring I had placed on her hand not six hours before. That she wanted to show it off as much as she could, even when she was sleeping.

I leaned back against the headrest and closed my eyes. Once again I relived the week we had just shared, in my mind.

The look on Bella's face when we landed in Australia was indescribable. I had Alice to thank for that little tidbit of information. Bella told Alice years ago about a list of places she wanted to go and Australia was at the top, followed by Fiji. So, naturally that was the location that I wanted to get married in. I wanted Bella to have her every wish granted.

I can't count the times that Emmett officially pronounced me a pussy for planning the wedding for Bella. I knew the day meant something to Bella but the details did not. Besides it was fun trying to make sure that I got everything right. Each time her eyes lit up, that would be my thank you, and make any shit that Emmett or anyone else gave me all worthwhile. Truthfully, the resort really handled most of the details. I simply gave them my preferences and they made it happen.

I couldn't wait for Bella to see the castle where our ceremony and reception would take place. It sat up on a hill overlooking what appeared to be half of Australia. The view was simply amazing; it could be seen from the small chapel where we would say our vows. We would have some pictures in the chapel and some on the grounds of the castle, and then we would move across the courtyard to the reception. It was a smaller room with beautiful green walls and an entire wall of windows that would allow us to gaze out over the view from this side of the castle. We would have a sit down dinner since I knew that Bella would be too nervous to eat before, and I wanted to make sure that she would get a good dinner. I picked all of her favorites to insure that she would be happy. Everything about this day was to make sure she was happy.

Okay so fine, maybe I was a big pussy but I couldn't help it, Bella had me gut hooked. And I loved every minute of it.

None of us had been to Australia before so we spent the week sightseeing and finalizing the wedding plans. I made sure Bella saw all the places that she wanted- Sydney Opera House, the aquarium at Darling Harbour, the zoo, The Blue Mountains, The Great Barrier Reef, Ayers Rock, The Twelve Apostles, and my favorite the cable car over the rainforest. Not to mention the shopping that Alice managed to cram into our time as well. I think she could find places to shop at the North Pole.

I kept Bella so busy that she had little time to focus on why we were there. I didn't want her stressed out. The three things she said she wanted to take care of were done and that meant her part of theweddingwas covered.

When Bella shifted in her seat I reached to pull the blanket back up over her body. Her smile grew as I brushed the back of my fingers across her cheeks. It thrilled me that I could bring her joy even in her sleep. I would never get tired of looking at her beautiful face. I don't think I will ever see a sight that will rival the look she had on her face as Carlisle walked her down the aisle.

I was dressed and pacing around the room. I was so worried about how Bella was feeling. My mom, and both Alice and Rosalie tried to reassure me that she was fine. She had a small case of the nerves but nothing out of the ordinary. Bella sent me a note early on in the day to tell me that she loved me and was happy that this day was finally here. I guess I was the one that needed to reign in my nerves; she seemed to have a handle on hers.

A small knock echoed in the room and Emmett rushed forward to answer it. Renee stood across the threshold of the room looking at me. Emmett and Jasper stepped out of the room and left us to talk in private.

"Edward, I know you probably already know this but I think Charlie would be so happy to know that you were marrying Bella. He always liked you." She dabbed a few stray tears before they had a chance to run down her cheeks. I reached for her hand to offer her some comfort.

"Thank you, Renee. That means the world to me. I was kinda fond of him myself. He was a great guy and he taught me a lot more than he ever knew. I'm real sorry that he isn't here today to walk Bella down the aisle, though. That is my one regret for today." I realized that I had tears collecting in my eyes as well. I cleared my throat as Renee nodded while she stared off into space. I knew that she was remembering a happier time that probably included her, Charlie and Bella together. I waited patiently for her to collect her thoughts and return back to me.

I pulled the envelope out of the breast pocket of my jacket. I wanted Bella to have the envelope from Charlie; it was up to her when she would read it. Renee sensed my movement and her eyes took on a sad expression when she saw the envelope. She obviously knew what it contained.

"Would you take this to Bella? I want her to have it now so she can read it whenever she wants. Just in case she wants to read it before she goes down the aisle, I wanted her to get it now." I was struck with a case of Bella's verbal diarrhea. The anxiety was coming to the surface. My throat suddenly closed in on itself at the thought of her reading it without me there. I didn't want her to feel any pain when I couldn't comfort her.

"Sure Edward, I would be glad to take it to her. You look handsome by the way." She patted my lapel down on my jacket, her hand coming to rest on my chest. I was touched by her motherly affection. I knew that Bella and Renee were working very hard to make sure that they rebuilt their relationship after all of the miscommunication between the two of them over the years. I hoped that it continued, after all I was a Momma's Boy. I had two great mothers and knew the benefit of having a great relationship with your mother; she was an invaluable person to have in your corner. "I know you two are going to be fine, but treat her good for me, okay?"

"You don't even have to ask, my only goal in life is to take care of her and make her happy every day. I promise." I took her hand and kissed the back of her knuckles. I appreciated that she gave me the best gift of my life, Bella.

A few minutes later Emmett and Jasper rejoined me. Emmett brought a message from Bella. She wanted me to know that she wanted to wait for me to read the letter. She hoped that I was okay with that. How well she knew me, I was more than okay to wait to read it with her.

The organist started playing and that was my cue to make my way to the front of the aisle. We had rehearsed yesterday evening, so that Bella and I both would know what to say and when to say it. As much as I wanted to write my own vows, I didn't feel it was fair to spring it on Bella like that. And to ask her would give away my secret about the wedding. So, I was just going to say the traditional wedding vows that millions of people before us had recited. What Bella didn't know was that I had a small surprise for her at the reception. Another tiny detail I had kept hidden up my sleeve.

Carlisle was beaming, looking like the proud father he was. I guess in so many ways he had been Bella's surrogate father as well. She had been friends with Alice and Rosalie for so long that she spent as much time at our house as she did at hers, and then, when Charlie died, Carlisle was the one she turned to for fatherly advice. So, it makes sense for him to feel as much pride at the fact that we were getting married as any other father would. In fact he was probably even more proud.

Thinking Charlie's name made me realize that Bella could have some regrets about this day. She could be missing him and the fact that he wasn't here to walk her down the aisle.

I started with her feet, and slowly allowed my gaze to sweep up her body taking in each part before moving on. Her slim hips were encased in the beautiful wedding gown she had chosen. It fit her like a glove, accentuating her sexiness with grace and class. I knew what was underneath that gown and it made me want her even more that she didn't flaunt it for the world to see. She kept it hidden and only allowed me to see and feel her.

My eyes moved slowly up to the exposed skin above her dress and I realized that she wore my mother's necklace. I brought it with me and asked Alice to show it to her. I wanted her to wear it but didn't want to put any pressure on her to do so. It seemed only fitting to have my real parents here with me, even if they were only represented in a piece of jewelry. The necklace was my father's wedding present to my mother and I loved the pictures of her wearing it. Her face seemed to light up from the inside, her joy evident on that day.

When I finally met Bella's eyes, her joy was just as evident. Her face was radiant, her eyes sparkled from the few tears that had gathered at the corners of her eyes. The regret that I was worried about was nowhere to be found. The only emotions that were present were love, joy, happiness, and anticipation. I was glad to see that she was as sure about this as I was. Once our eyes met, I couldn't pull them away from her for any amount of money in the world. She held my every thought and every breath was for her. She was truly my everything.

The ceremony seemed to go by in a blur, and for the life of me I can't remember anything we said or did. I could only focus on Bella. I know that I said the words that the minister asked me to repeat, and I know that Bella's voice was clear and definitive when she repeated the words when it was her turn. Before I knew it, the ceremony was over and I could kiss my bride. My bride. My wife. My heart swelled with so much emotion that I seriously worried that it would burst open.

I pulled Bella into my arms and looked deep in her eyes. A few small tears had escaped her eyes, joyful tears. I reached up with my thumb and brushed them away. "Do you have any idea how happy you have made me today?" My own voice betrayed me, it sounded thick and unused.

Bella didn't respond with words, she simply shook her head, as her smile widened.

"I can't even put it into words. Nothing will ever compete with today, never. This will always be at the top of my top ten best days ever. I love you." I slowly lowered my mouth to hers and kissed her lips gently. Her arms wrapped around my waist as I held her face between my hands. Our kiss was chaste and gentle but for the life of me I couldn't pull away from her lips. I wanted to stay right there with her forever.

When Bella pulled away from me I thought of a quote that I had read somewhere. "Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then in silence, I can only hope, my eyes will speak my heart." Her eyes misted again. "I don't know where or when I read that but it describes me at this moment in time. I love you, Mrs. Masen-Cullen." My joy escaped out in the form of a chuckle.

"I love you more, Mr. Masen-Cullen." When someone cleared their throat, I realized that we were still standing before our family and friends. We were still in the exact spot where we had been proclaimed husband and wife. We were sharing our moment without a care in the world or that anyone else was watching.

Bella stepped away and reached for her flowers from Alice, and the minister gave a nod. His clear voice proclaiming, "I now present to you Mr. and Mrs. Edward Masen-Cullen." Bella and I left the altar and made our way down the aisle.

I was jarred from my memories as the pilot came on the overhead speaker to announce that we were preparing for landing and to fasten our seat belts. I shook off the memories without any remorse. I knew these particular memories I would visit quite often during my lifetime. I would cherish them forever.

I gently shook Bella to rouse her enough so that I could fasten her seatbelt back around her. She opened her sleepy eyes briefly. I kissed her forehead and snapped the belt over her slim hips, lingering just long enough to touch her skin that peeked at me from the top of her pants. I couldn't wait to get Bella to our villa so that I could touch her in any way I wanted. She was absolutely bewitching to me and I could never get my fill of her.

We landed and I managed to get Bella off of the plane, and get our luggage. The resort had sent a car to pick us up since we were arriving so late in the evening. We both settled in the limo and prepared for our drive across the island. I began to hum the only song that my mind would pull out of its memory bank. The song I sang for her at the reception.

We took tons of pictures. However, I didn't mind, I wanted this day preserved for us to look back on in a tangible form. I wanted Bella to know how beautiful she was today. After the pictures, we did all of the normal reception things. We ate cake, we threw the garter and bouquet. Surprisingly, Jake and Nessie caught both of those; guess that was a no brainer that they would be the next couple to marry, especially since he had already proposed to her. We danced our first dance together, to At Last. The words of the song perfectly described us and even though it was used over and over again in weddings, we wanted it. Bella did the Father-Daughter dance with Carlisle. He held her close and talked to her throughout the whole song. It broke his heart to have to stand in for Charlie. Not that he didn't love her like his daughter, but he knew that her heart hurt that she didn't have her father with her today. I danced with Esme and Renee both, each offering me their advice for being a good husband. I laughed with both of them because they told me the exact same thing. 'Put the seat down and know when to say I'm wrong and I'm sorry.'

Then I heard the saxophone from the band begin to play. I pulled out of Esme's arms and went to take my place. This was my surprise to Bella. I took the guitar that the band leader held out for me and began to strum along with the saxophone. "Bella, I wanted to write my vows to you for today, I wanted to tell you in my words how much you meant to me. But in order to do that, I had to tell you and allow you the chance to write yours. That would have given away my secret so I went with the words that so many others before us have said." I glanced down, breaking our gaze. The emotion in her eyes was too intense and I would never be able to get through this if I didn't look away, even if it was for a second. When I looked back up to meet her gaze, the emotion had softened just enough to allow me to continue. "When we were younger Jasper learned to play the guitar and he practiced this particular song over and over and over again. At the time it was about to kill me, I wanted to break his guitar over his head and break his fingers so he couldn't play…ever again!" Everyone chuckled at this, especially Carlisle. He remembered my frustration at Jasper. But he reminded me how everyone was patient when I learned to play guitar or when I played the 'hoity toity shit' that Emmett didn't like on the piano. "But now, I'm thankful that he learned that song because at the same time we all learned to play it as well. I never knew that I would need to use it, but I think it fits us perfectly. So this, my beautiful Bella is for you. And thanks Jazz." He threw up a fist at me and I could see the 'I told you so' look from where I stood. I would certainly have a lot more apologizing for giving him such hell for this song.

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful

Stop me and steal my breath

Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky

Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together

Dress it up with the trappings of love

I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips

Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't look away from Bella. I wanted her to know that every single word was true and I was meant for her alone. All the other people that passed through out lives were just that, passing through. I felt so foolish for not jumping on the chance to show her my love back when we were kids.

I'll be your crying shoulder

I'll be love suicide

I'll be better when I'm older

I'll be the greatest man of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof

As we lie awake in my bed

You're my survival, you're my living proof

My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together

Dress it up with the trappings of love

I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips

Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I know the gallows of heartache part all too well. The pain that I felt while Bella was gone is still there; I keep it to remind myself to never for one second take her for granted. One small word or action could change everything for us.

I'll be your crying shoulder

I'll be love suicide

I'll be better when I'm older

I'll be the greatest man of your life

I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead

Tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing you said

I'll be your crying shoulder

I'll be love suicide

I'll be better when I'm older

I'll be the greatest man of your life

As the song ended Bella stood up and walked over to Jasper. He stood and took her in his arms, I could see he was whispering to her and she was nodding. She pulled back and gave him a kiss on his cheek. I put the guitar back in its holder and went to meet her. Bella's quick gait brought her to me before I could even make it across the small space for dancing. She threw herself up into my arms and began to sob.

"I love you so much Edward. More than you will ever know. I'm sorry we fought and were apart for that time. Promise me we will never do that again. I couldn't live without you." Her distress was killing me.

"Shhh, Bella, that wasn't the point of the song love. I wanted you to see my love not my hurt. We both made mistakes and I promise to do my best to never repeat that mistake. You have my word on that." The humor in my voice caused Bella to pull back and smack my chest.

"You better not ever repeat that mistake, if you value your life."

The kiss she gave me made my toes curl and I wanted to throw everyone else out. I needed some alone time with my wife, right the fuck now!

The driver pulled up at the resort and opened the door for us. I shook Bella gently to let her know we had arrived. When she opened those beautiful chocolate eyes they were bright and shiny and wide awake. That was a good thing because I didn't want to disturb her sleep but I couldn't restrain myself any longer.

"Hello, Sleeping Beauty. Did you have a good nap?"

"I did, I'm so sorry that I slept the whole flight and drive." She looked around and was taking in the lobby of the resort. Wonder and delight filled her eyes. "Edward, this is where we're staying?"

"Nope, this is the lobby. We are staying in a villa." Just then a porter came and took the cart with our bags and motioned for us to follow him. I took Bella's hand and took the opportunity to brush my finger over her wedding ring. I needed confirmation that this was real and not just a dream for me.

Once we were inside our villa and the bags were placed in our bedroom the porter showed us the buffet the staff had laid out for us on the table. "Sir, we knew that perhaps you would have missed dinner based on the timing of your flight so we sent over something to tide you and your lovely bride over until breakfast is served for you both. I hope you enjoy." He gave a bow and I followed him to the door to tip him.

When I turned back Bella was nowhere in sight. I made my way to the bedroom to find her. She had her back to me and was opening her suitcase. I walked up behind her and placed my arms around her waist. "What are you doing angel?" I murmured against the back of her neck.

"Pulling out all of the naughty things that Rose bought me to wear for you so I can take a shower and then we can do all the things that have been running through your mind all day. Don't think I didn't know every time a naughty thought crossed your mind. I could see it in your eyes."

Busted, she had caught me. I hoped she didn't catch every one of them because there were a lot of them, and they varied in degrees of their dirtiness. I wanted to make sure that every one of them was checked off of my list by the time this week was over.

"Come here, I want to kiss you, senseless first." She complied and was in my arms in less than a heartbeat.

I could feel her nipples through her shirt and bra, they were so hard. I knew that tonight should be slow and sweet but so help me I just wanted to fuck her hard, make her come so hard she saw stars. Just as the thought entered my mind I felt Bella bite down on my lower lip and pull it slightly with her teeth.

"I wanna feel you fuck me hard right now. Fuck the lingerie, we'll use it later." Bella panted against my lips as she reached her hand inside my pants, palming my already hard dick.

I could only groan in response. This is why I married this woman. Every time I think I have her figured out a new side comes out to play. This new side I definitely loved.

Bella dropped to her knees and pulled my pants open; before I could even blink she had me in her mouth. All the way in her mouth, I felt the back of her throat. Have I said how much I loved this woman? The sensation of hitting the back of her throat was indescribable; she certainly knew what she was doing. I would have to make sure that I arranged this position again and often. I placed my hands on each side of her head and tilted her face slightly upwards so I could watch her beautiful eyes as she sucked my cock. The visual was indescribable. It was as much of a turn on as the actual action itself. To watch Bella's face, knowing that she was so ready for me. I could close my eyes and picture her sweet body laid out in front of me and her glorious pussy ready for me to slide right into.

"Baby, wait. This is hardly fair for me. You get to have all the fun and I just have to stand here. Get up on that bed and let me taste you." Bella gave me a slight frown as she pulled slowly off of me. I expected some resistance from her as she climbed up on the bed. She moved herself around a little trying to find the right spot to lie down, but she didn't utter a word as she settled herself. Once she found it she flopped down onto her back with her head hanging off the side of the bed. I groaned in anticipation. My whole goal was to attempt to slow my orgasm by focusing on her but Bella didn't seem interested at all in this plan of mine. The position she was in was sure to bring about one of my fastest orgasms in history. Because as much as I loved Bella's mouth wrapped around me, I loved it even more when she laid in this position that opened up her throat and allowed me to slip even further down in there. With her head hanging off of the bed I could fit my entire dick into her mouth without so much as a single gag from her. I think the little fucker twitched at the thought alone.

"Fine, have it your way, but I will get some of your sweet pussy at the same time." I stepped forward as Bella opened her mouth to take me back in. There was no way I was going to be able to slow anything down, so I simply pulled her panties off of her and dove right in. I was hopefully going to give her as much pleasure as I was getting.

Reaching my face further down Bella's body stretched my torso out and pulled me in closer to Bella's face. I should have been worried about her ability to take in oxygen and such. But all that would cross my mind was fucking her mouth. She encouraged me by sliding her nails up the back side of my thighs and palming my ass, pushing me further into her willing mouth. I set a steady pace and made sure not to hit her too deep.

Before I could really concentrate on how good she was feeling, Bella slid her hand around to cup my balls. It felt incredible and I knew there was no holding back. I had to come and I had to come now. I pushed up away from Bella's body, resting both of my hands on the bed beside her hips. Both of her hands now cupped my balls as I slid in as far as I felt comfortable into her willing mouth.

"Fuck, baby, that feels so good. I don't think I have ever been so far in. Do you like that?" I wanted to make her hum, anything to make her do that. That was the sensation that I wanted to feel as I came like a madman deep in her throat.

And sure enough as soon as the vibrations began building up in her throat I came hard and deep.

Bella slid out from underneath me and rose from her position. The breath and sensation was slowly returning to my body and now all I could think about was making her feel the same glorious feeling as often as she could tonight.

"C'mere." I pulled her into my arms, her back against my chest. "Did you like having my cock in your mouth?" I bit down on her shoulder as I asked. She tossed her head back and laid it against my shoulder, giving me better access to continue along the same path. I wrapped my arm around her torso to hold her close to me and slid my other hand down to touch her silky skin right at her hips bones. Eventually I would touch her where she wanted me to but first I needed her absolutely dying with desire for me. I traced along one side of her wet lips and back up the other side. "You don't like the teasing as much when it's you getting teased, do you?" Her sweet whimpers simply increased my need to prolong her gratification.

"Please." She moaned.

"Please, what?"

"Please touch me." She cried as I continued to get as close to her clit as I could without actually touching her.

"I am touching you, angel." I licked her neck and spoke across the path, enjoying the shiver it caused to run down Bella's back.

"Inside, touch me inside, please." Her pants were getting louder and she was sagging harder against me. I think if I had let her go she would have crashed right to the floor.

"Inside? You want me inside you?" Another lick on the other side, but this time I sucked at the skin where her neck and collar bones met. Her response was wordless, just a nod as she continued to pant heavily.

I quickly slid my two fingers into her and curled them forward. Bella's response was immediate, she began to mew at me and make the most erotic moans I had ever heard. That was saying a lot because Emmett had an extensive porn collection and no matter whether I wanted to enjoy it or not, he shared. I heard most of it through the barrier of our adjoining bedroom wall growing up. I was like Pavlov's dog, a girl moans and I wanted sex. None, however, compared to Bella's moan. Hands down the sexiest thing ever.

"You like the way that feels, baby?"

"God, yes. It feels so good." Bella's hand drifted down towards mine. My hand that rested on her breast bone pushed her hand further down. I removed my two fingers from her and she whimpered. Until she felt my hand entangle with hers and pull us both back down to slide back into her together.

"That's it baby, help me fuck you. You feel how good that is?" She nodded again, her head drifting forward, almost as if her head was too heavy for her to hold it up any longer.

Me fucking Bella with both of our fingers felt so good. I had to slow us down, to change things around or I was going to once again come before she did. I withdrew our still joined fingers and brought them up to my mouth to clean them off. Before I could get them all the way there, Bella lunged forward and licked them clean herself, sucking hard on my fingers. Now I had to taste her. First I wanted to kiss her and taste her on her own tongue and then I wanted to taste directly from the source again.

Bella must have understood my intentions as I leaned forward because she met my mouth and plunged her tongue directly against mine. Words did not describe the sensation of sucking Bella's own juices off of her tongue. I needed to feel her explode in my mouth that was my only goal for the moment.

I turned our bodies towards the head of the bed and pulled Bella into my lap as I lay down. My hands encouraged her to inch forward until she rested directly over my face, and I could gain access to the one spot in the world I would never tire of. Her hands made a loud slapping noise as she threw them up against the wall to hold herself upright.

When I felt her inner walls shudder, I slid two fingers back into her and began to pump in rhythm with the dance my tongue was carrying out against her delicate skin. "Fuck yes, let it go Bella."

My words encouraged her to move her hips along my face to a steady pace that suited her. I'm sure the fact that I was unshaven certainly helped with the friction. I must admit that since Bella confessed her love for my scruff, I rarely shaved.

A steady chant of 'yes, yes, yes' began to fall from her lips. Bella's orgasm surprised me. Instead of her normal loud declaration that she was going to come, her body simply began to shudder and she began to moan. I could feel the rush of her orgasm as it hit my mouth but that was really the only outward sign.

I licked and nuzzled until I felt her begin to pull away from the sensation. I knew it was time to once again change our focus. I pushed her legs out a little wider and slid out from under her. I left her leaning against the wall with her beautiful ass pushed out towards me. This was an opportunity that was too sweet to pass by. I turned and positioned myself directly behind her with my legs curled underneath me. This would provide a stable base for an already unstable Bella to sit down against. Without any hesitation, I pulled her down onto me and she immediately began to move over me. Glad to simply be her slave and exist for her pleasure alone. She set the pace and depth, I merely enjoyed her actions.

One of my favorite spots on Bella's body had to be her marvelous breasts. They were the perfect size for her body but yet large enough to fill up my massive hands. And her nipples, sweet, they were a lovely shade of light brown that allowed them to stand out in contrast to her pale skin. My only regret right now was that she was facing away from me and I couldn't suck on them. This had to be remedied right now.

Our positions shifted and Bella now faced me. Without any delay I took her sweet nipple into my mouth and gave it the attention it deserved, while I pinched the other between my thumb and fore finger. Bella's body relaxed and fell backwards to the bed, opening her up completely to me. I gently pushed my legs under her back to keep her from straining to far. With this new position I could watch myself enter her with each thrust. As hard as it was to imagine, I got a little harder watching our bodies join together. I was thankful that Bella brought me to such a quick orgasm earlier because now I could take my time and give her more pleasure.

I wanted to be deeper inside Bella, so I pulled myself up onto my knees. I positioned Bella closer to me and pulled her hips up to the height of mine. I slid back into her, pulling my hands around her upper thigh to hold her steady. Her body was already so pliable from her previous orgasms that I wasn't sure if she could hold this position or not. She began to moan and chant again at the deeper penetration that this particular position allowed. I could also drop the angle of my hips and press right against her G spot as I slid into her each time. I knew Bella well enough to know that the G spot was a certain way to make her explode around me.

I placed one hand on her pubic bone and dropped my thumb down to rub against her clit, doubling the sensations that she felt each time in entered her.

"Fuck yes, Edward. I'm so glad that I married you. Damn it…shit…right there…ugh!" I could feel the rush of moisture under my thumb when her walls closed down on me and pulled me into her warm body.

Bella's orgasm seemed to be non-stop, each wave would simply crash right into another wave and carry her along with it.

"Edward, please you have to come. I can't take much more; I will die from a pleasure overload. Oh, fuck here is comes again. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck…" I'm sure that Bella said more but the blinding wave of my own orgasm prevented me from hearing anything further. All I could do was to hang on to Bella to keep her from falling off of the bed and hope that my 'I'm coming' face looked good.

When the marathon orgasm was over for Bella and I, myself, was quite satisfied, I simply pulled the sheets up around us and we lay exactly where we fell over. I did take the time to wrap my arms around my new wife. The sex was hot and dirty but I wanted her to know that I loved her with all of my being, forever.

"That is not how I planned this night to go." I admitted with some guilt.

"Why not?" Bella asked as she tried to turn her body to face me.

"I just wanted to make love to you. We're on our honeymoon and we should be focusing on our love right now."

"Well let me tell you after the tenth or twelfth time you made me come I loved you a whole lot more. So the love is covered, I promise you that." She tried to pat my face but her arm didn't seem to belong on her body, it was still weak from all of our physical exertion, so she settled with it falling somewhere along my shoulder.

"Fine, as long as you love me I'm good with that." I chuckled.

"As long as you let me sleep in tomorrow, I'm good with that." She responded back.

"Sure, as long as you want, I promise." I kissed her temple as I murmured, "Mrs. Cullen."

I couldn't see the smile but I felt it as her mouth moved against the skin of my arm. The whole world deserved to be a happy as I was right there in that moment. That is the answer to world peace, a good woman to love and great sex!

Friday, August 1, 2008

LTWYL- Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Edward

I lay awake again and gazed down at Bella and Eavan. It seemed to be a reoccurring thing for me. I ponder my life as the rest of the world sleeps around me. For once I only had good things to look back on…I was at home with Bella and Eavan; and by home I meant at home with them, because as of about six hours ago I live here with them. I knew that my patience would pay off with Bella, but it was really nice to know that I when I trust myself, I can prove that I truly knew her and didn't just make guesses about what she wanted or needed based on my selfish delusions. That to me was the hard part, learning about their habits and preferences, and understanding my girls so that we live a seamless life. I knew that one day it will be as if I had never been gone but in the mean time I just had to be patient and wait for it. Again with the waiting. Well at least I was doing it in a comfortable bed with my girls on either side of me.

When I closed my eyes instead of sleep, I saw images of Bella and me together. Together together. Oh my God that was indescribable. I couldn't help but chuckle now at her hesitancy but at the time I could see the real fear in her eyes. She was worried that I would not like her body after she had Eavan. I didn't tell her that I preferred her body now more than before. Before she was a little too thin, all the pills and booze kept her too 'up' and she never ate. Now she was perfect, all the right spots were filled out and her breasts…damn, they were nice before but now…yeah I already said it but perfect.

I think though that Bella surprising me tonight by asking me to move in with them, just made my entire life and well again I was speechless. I knew she was ready for the move, I saw it in her eyes. I also knew that Bella was strong enough to wait if she wasn't ready so I grabbed all of my stuff while we were at my mom and dad's house to pick up Eavan. I brought it all back with me and tomorrow we would spend time organizing it. I didn't have much but Bella had become a perfectionist when it came to her living space. The house was always clean and nothing was ever out of place. Well nothing outside of Eavan's toys that is. She only put those away when Eavan went to bed but the rest of the house was in order. It was a big change from the last time we lived together. I just shook those feelings out of my mind because we were two totally different people now, so it wasn't fair to compare us now to us then.

Bella always talked about the changes that I had made but she had made more changes than I could keep up with. She had matured and was so damn wise now. Not to mention her communication skills and the way she handles Eavan, was always spot on. Me, I could talk till I was blue in the face when it was at work but not at home so much, I still needed some practice with that but Bella really has things down pat.

Looking at her now allowed me to see so many characteristics of my parents and Pops and Gran as well. The decision to stay with my parents, I'm sure, wasn't easy to make but I'm so glad she did now. It gave her more examples of a stable home that she could model for our child and hopefully we would have more children in our future to practice on. That idea brought me more joy than I realized. This time I would certainly be around for all of it. You could count on that.

I pulled Bella's body closer to my side and kissed her wild array of curls on her head. I turned the other way and repeated the action with Eavan. Then I drifted off to sleep.

The next day I rushed to meet Eleazar, Irina and Peter to look at the building for the center. We had gotten the unofficial okay to proceed with our plans, all we had to do now was wait until all the papers were signed; then we could cash the check and begin to buy stuff to fill the space we found. I was more than excited to know that we would be working with kids that were in the same position I used to be in. I couldn't tell you how my heart swelled at the idea of being able to change someone's path just by being able to teach them to make healthy decisions. I had already gotten really attached to the kids I worked with so far and thankfully they would be able to come with us to the center.

After a few hours I headed home to Bella and Eavan. I had a notebook full of things that needed to be taken care of and I was sure it would take me forever to get some of these things accomplished. I stopped at a red light and looked around me, I was only a few blocks away from my old neighborhood. It would be so easy to take a right instead of going straight. To just stop by and see the guys but I knew that it was useless to do it. We would be light years apart from each other, we wouldn't have anything in common any longer and there would be no point in tempting myself with the old habits for a few minutes of awkward conversation. I did get the chance to see the auto body shop that I worked for at the next red light. It struck me how much my life has changed again. I guess that was one of those things that I would never stop seeing was the remarkable changes.

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The next several months passed along as normal. Our life settled into a nice routine. Each day I worked on getting the center up and running, and spent time with Bella and Eavan. Bella continued to do photo shoots and work at Eavan's school. So life had settled in for all of us, until the day I came home and got the mail from the mail box. Things changed for us that day. In the mail that day there was a letter for Bella. A letter from Charlie Swan. I didn't open it, I waited for her to come home that afternoon and gave the letter to her.

Bella started dinner and I ran Eavan over to my mom and dad's house. I made excuses about mom wanting Eavan to help her make cookies. I knew it was wrong to lie to her but in this case I would come clean with her when I delivered the letter and I hoped she would understand. When I got back Bella had the table set and dinner waiting for me. I decided to eat with her and feel her out before I told her about the letter. We chatted about our day and I told her about the progress of the center. She told me about the wedding that she had to shoot this coming weekend. When dinner was done and all cleaned up, I knew it was time to talk to her. I poured her some wine and took her hand to lead her into the living room.

"Bella, I got the mail today. There was something for you." I handed her the letter. She sat her wine glass down and as she took the letter. Her face showed her confusion as she looked at the names. She opened it and gasped after a few seconds of reading it. Tears sprung to her eyes but she kept reading, she shuffled pages and read in silence. When she was finished with the first page she handed it to me without even looking up at me. I took it and began to read myself. It was from Charlie Swan, he lived in Forks, Washington and he claimed to be Bella's dad. At least he thought he was.

He went on to tell the story of falling in love with Renee while they were both on vacation in Daytona, Florida. The spent the week together and had sex several times. Charlie tried to keep in touch with Renee but she just stopped contact with him several months after their meeting. He tried to find her but came up with nothing. After a few years he gave up and stopped thinking about her, he married and lived his life. One day at work as the chief of police they were playing around with the tracing computer and Charlie on a whim put in Renee's name. He saw her info and death as well. When he checked further to find out details he saw Bella's info. He counted up the time and realized that it was too much of a coincidence, so he made a phone call to Renee's mom and she confessed everything. He had decided to contact Bella to tell her that he was sorry that he never knew about her. He wanted to change that and wanted to know if she would be interested in getting to know him.

By this point in time Bella is sitting in shock. "What should I do?" Her voice sounded so weak and scared as she threw the letter on the floor and climbed into my lap. I wrapped her up in my arms and just held her. I gave her a few minutes to think about her options. Bella liked to hear my opinions but I knew that she would want to make this decision all on her own as well.

After a few minutes Bella sat back and stated that she wanted to meet with him.

Her eyes were a mix of scared but hopeful at the thought she was about to speak of. "His story sounded reasonable and I know that Renee's life was fairly crazy especially during that time when all she had was herself to worry about. So he might not have known at all like he said."

"I don't think it would hurt to meet him and find out. I mean what do you have to lose, right?" I tried to be hopeful with her but I knew deep down inside that if he hurt her in any way at this meeting then I would kill him for it. "Did he leave a number for you to call him?" I suggested.

"Yeah, he did. I will give him a call tomorrow. It will give me time to decide what I want to say to him." I nodded at her, I would allow Bella to decide how to handle all of this, let her make her choices and support her in whatever she decided.

We brought Eavan home and put her to bed, and then Bella and I quietly climbed into bed with each other. I offered her comfort and stability along with unconditional love. It was my turn to support her.

The next day I went into work and was assigned a new client. Jake. Jake was eight years old and suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder. Jacob's mother shot herself while he was on his way home from a friend's house. She had terminal cancer and didn't want to suffer any longer; she didn't want her family to have to take care of her so she put herself out of her misery; not realizing that Jake would be the first one home to find her. Jake found her and held her body in his arms for three hours until his dad got home and found them. He watched her as the life slowly drained from her body and her heart finally stopped. Needless to say he blamed himself for her death. He felt like if he had just came home sooner then he would have been able to stop her. Jake withdrew into himself and only drew pictures. He never spoke; his communication was just through his pad and pencil.

Jake became my main focus and I worked with him and taught him how to use sign language to communicate. It was slow but he definitely showed progression. He would use his signs for about twenty different things that he wanted or needed now. It only took a few months to get him to that point.

The very next day all of my hard work with Jake was belittled. Eavan came to work with me for a few hours while Bella worked and mom took Gran to the doctor. A little before lunch mom would pick her up and I could finish out the rest of the day. Today also happened to be the day that Jake decided that he would have a tantrum at school, which forced his dad to pick him up from school and bring him in for an emergency session. I sat Eavan off to the side and allowed her to play with some of the teaching toys while I talked to Jake; but when Jake walked into the room the only face he saw was Eavan. Eavan talked to him as best as they could with Jake's limited knowledge of sign language but it was enough. Enough that for the first time he left with a light shining in his eyes and he murmured one simple word as he walked out, 'thanks'. I wanted to be hurt that the word was directed towards Eavan and not me but I couldn't be. Whatever helped Jake was alright with me. It also made sense that he was comfortable voicing his farewell to someone that couldn't hear him. No pressure there for Jake. It was a small step but it was a step.

I rushed home to tell Bella, she rejoiced and celebrated with me. It was so comfortable between us, she knew what I need and I knew what she needed. The simply things in life were the most important to us now but it was no less thrilling to celebrate it either way.

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Within the last six months I had passed several milestones. Bella and I both had been clean and sober for five years. Eavan celebrated her 5th birthday, and the center was approaching it's second anniversary. All of these things brought me joy, immense joy but nothing would bring me joy like this weekend. I hoped anyway. I had planned to take Bella away on a weekend trip, or so she thought. Actually we were going to stay in the house I had just bought for her.

We were driving around one afternoon, just joy riding. We passed this house that sat up on a hill. It was covered entirely in gray stones, with lots and lots of windows. It had a for sale sign in the front with a number to call for info. I tried to get Bella to call about it but she was too scared to hope that we might never end up with something like this. I knew better, I could see the light shining in her eyes when she looked at that house and I made it my mission to make it hers, as soon as humanly possible.

We walked around the yard and saw the incredible tree house that I could imagine Eavan playing in. We saw the huge back patio that was laid out in the same grey stones as the house. I saw all the windows, Bella peeked in at the kitchen and almost cried. It was her dream kitchen. On a whim I tried the back door knob. It was open. So we wandered through the house, getting more and more excited as we went.

There was a bedroom for Eavan with a built in bed, the front was made to look like a house with the opening like the front door that lead to the sleeping part. The side had stairs that led to a top section where she could play with her dolls and things. The big bay window that looked out onto the massive front yard had a bench seat that was surrounded by book cases. Finally a place to put all of Eavan's books, she has so damn many of them.

What would be our room was done in a Moroccan style with a silky green curtain suspended from the ceiling and draped down the walls like wallpaper. It created a cozy atmosphere to the room, while the French doors made it look larger with all the light flooding in from the back yard. Our bath was a massive room with white tiles and a large porcelain tub that Bella fell in love with.

But our favorite part of the house were the two large eaves that extended past the rest of the house on the top floor. The eave that was over our bedroom was painted white with a bookshelf built over a massive chaise lounge chair and around the large picture window. The lounger was large enough for both Bella and I to lie down comfortably, it was basically a small bed. Not only were the walls painted white but almost everything in the room was white or light pale blue. It made you feel like your own little piece of heaven way off on the corner of the top floor of the house. Across the narrow hall was another room that was painted a darker color with a hammock type swing in there and small tiny white Christmas lights all around it. It faced the setting sun so a golden red glow lit up the room. This side was obviously meant for the kids and the other side was meant for the parents.

Bella had tears in her eyes as we walked back out to the car. I could see how much she loved it, and I wanted to get it for her. I never said a word just in case but I swore to myself again that I would make sure this house had her name on the deed as soon as I could. It was the perfect family home with a slight edge to it that matched both mine and Bella's personalities. We could spend the rest of our lives in this house easily.

It only took me a month and a half to secure a mortgage and it was hard to do without Bella knowing what was going on. I wanted to surprise her, I had no doubts that she'd love it so I thought she would like to see that I could do something romantic for her. I cooked us a meal and dropped it off on the way to take Eavan to Rose and Em's house. I moved around all the things I had placed in our heaven room as Bella had dubbed the room in the eaves. I also lit a few candles as I called Bella's cell phone.

"Hey babe, I need help." I could hear her moving around in the kitchen at our current house. I hoped I had caught her early enough that she hadn't started any real parts of dinner.

"Sure, what's up?" I heard her lick her finger as she spoke. It made my dick hard to picture the innocent little digit as it slid into her warm, wet mouth.

"I have a flat tire, can I have you come and get me?"

"Sure, where are you?" A pot clanged as I'm sure she was taking it off of the stove to prepare to leave.

"Let me give you the address, I don't remember how exactly I got here. You know me, I took the scenic route this time again." I chuckled as Bella groaned. I was notorious for taking the scenic route and then not knowing exactly where I was and how to get home; but Eavan and I loved the trips we ended up on. In fact one such trip found us this house so I don't think she would ever complain again about my trips.

"Okay, give me five minutes and call me back, I've got to get my shoes on and grab my keys." Her voice was winded and I knew she was already rushing around to get out the door. My heart lurched at the amount of love she showed me every day in big and small ways. This one being a perfect example, she would halt dinner and rush out to get me in the middle of God knows where to help me get home. I couldn't love her more and I hoped the small little ring in my pocket made her as happy as she made me.

I called her a few minutes later and she was already on the road so she punched the address in her GPS system, which is exactly what I wanted anyway, as she began her trek towards me. I hung up with her on the pretense that I didn't want her talking while she drove because of the rain, but it was really so I could go back inside and light all the rest of the candles for her.

Her car approached hesitantly and I saw her face peering up at the house while she leaned as far forward as she could in her seat. When she stepped out of the car I took her hand and lead her around the back to where my car was parked. I opened the back door of my car and pulled out an overnight bag for us and tugged her hand again to get her to follow me. Bella looked back and forth between her car, my car and the driveway as she stuttered in shock.

"Www…what are you doing?" Her feet quit moving and she yanked my arm when it reached the end of hers. "We can't go in there, people must live her now, the 'for sale' sign is gone. Come on, let's get your car fixed and we can go home." She pulled away again but I expected it and held a firm grip on her hand.

"It's okay, baby, I asked for permission from the owners and they said yes. We get to stay here tonight." Her eyes shone with joy yet hesitancy at the same time.

"How? Why would they agree to that?" I stepped back to her and kissed her temple.

"Because they are good people and they recognize true love when they see it, now come on." One last tug was all it took to get her to step back up onto the porch with me this time.

I used the key and unlocked the door, ushering her inside as it had begun to lightly rain again. I set our bag down on the floor beside the door and we shed our coats and shoes. I tugged her arm and when she tried to speak again, I shushed her by placing my finger over her lips. She followed without any further questions until we reached the third floor. When she saw our things placed around the room she began to cry. I pulled her to me and wrapped her in my arms for a brief second and once again kissed her forehead. Her tears were a gently sweet type until I hit my knee in front of her and then she began to cry in earnest.

"Oh my God, Edward." I took her outstretched hand.

"Bella, I can't begin to tell you how much of an impact you have had on my life. You brought me passion and devotion in the midst of our crazy lives. You gave me a daughter and held on to our love while I was unable to be there for you. You took my hand and made sure that my life was everything it was supposed to be after I came back to you." I wiped a tear that fell slowly down her cheek. "I love my life, I love our daughter but most of all I love you. I promise to love you every day of forever and want to know if you will you do me the extraordinary honor of becoming my wife?"

Before I even finished the statement she was pulling me up to her and kissing me with a passion I had never seen from her before. I returned that kiss and hoped and prayed that her kiss was her way of saying yes to me. When we finally separated I slid the small gold ring onto her third finger. It didn't have any diamonds, it was just simple gold. It was molded into the words 'marry me', Bella nodded as I slid it onto her finger.

"It isn't your engagement ring. I wanted you with me to decide about the ring you would wear as my wife for the rest of your life, so I bought you this one instead and I figured we could go tomorrow before we pick up Eavan to buy you a real ring." Her tears began again. I kissed them away as they fell.

"You are too good to me." She whispered. I shushed her because she had that backwards; she was too good to me. "One question?" She felt my nod as she had her face pressed against my chest and my chin brushed against her forehead as I did it. "How did you get the owners to let you do this here?"

I pulled away for this answer. In fact, I sat her down on the chaise lounge and I sat beside her. "It was really easy, see you and I now own this house. I signed the last paper today." Bella's eyes became so large that I was afraid that they would fall out of the sockets in her face.

"You what?" I was afraid for a few second that she was angry until she threw herself into my arms and began to shower my face with kisses.

"I talked them into a few things being left here as part of the deal. I'll show you the rest tomorrow but right now I think we should have some dinner then we will enjoy our secluded room."

I fed Bella and she fed me, we laughed and talked all through dinner. My heart was at peace in this moment. Until Bella laid aside the dishes and pushed me down onto my back to kiss me fully.

Her sweet mouth opened and invited my tongue in, so I pushed it against hers. It never failed to amaze me how warm and sweet her mouth was. Almost as warm and sweet as her pussy was. I moaned as I thought of being inside her. I pushed my hand up under her white t-shirt and brushed the black bra aside. Her nipple instantly hardened against my hand. I loved how responsive she was with me.

This was fast and hard, no matter how much I wanted it to be slow and loving, I just couldn't stop myself from rushing through it. Bella apparently didn't mind because she was in just as much of a hurry as I was to pull off my clothes and toss them to the ground. When we were both undressed she jumped up and flew into my arms. I grabbed her and pushed into her body all in one motion. She wrapped her arms around me and held on tightly.

My legs already felt weak at the full weight of the emotions that were swirling around inside of me. I loved her with all of my heart and now she had agreed to be my wife. I mean I know that people have the option of divorce so it is never a permanent thing when people get married but to me it was a big deal. I never saw myself without her and to know that she loved me enough to commit herself to me in that way was overwhelming.

Our intertwined bodies collided with the wall and I held Bella pressed there for stability. Also because it freed my hands up so that they could roam her body at will. I needed to touch her while she kissed me along my neck and shoulders. She always told me that my shoulders were sexy and I guess she showed it almost every time we make love because she always pays close attention to that area. Not gonna lie, I love it, it makes me feel all fuzzy inside with butterflies in my stomach and shit, but I love it.

Bella made her way back to my mouth and I kiss her deeply. I pulled back to make sure she understood how much I loved her. "I love you so much, Mrs. Cullen." We both smiled a joyous smile that showed the exact emotion running through the both of us. I kissed her again, harder and with more passion. My tongue pressed against hers as we both moaned our pleasure. Her head dropped back and she sighed when I hit the right spot inside of her. I could feel the evidence of her arousal running down both of our legs as I slipped easily in and out of her body.

The new angle felt so good but I knew I could do better so I moved us both to a different position. I stopped for a few seconds and slowly moved each arm so that they supported Bella's knees at each of my elbows; opening her up to me so much more and allowing me to slip in at the just the right angle, the angle that makes her make that half moan, half growl noise that I love.

Before I'm even all the way back inside of her she does the moan, "Oh fuck yeah, right there, fuck yeah." Her head falls back and I feel her spasm all around me. It's just light small flutters so I know that she isn't ready to come yet but she will soon. I dipped my head down and begin to kiss her again at the hollow spot where her shoulders and neck meet. My lips attach and suck lightly there, I knew that it will leave a mark on her but at this point in time I don't give a fuck. She's mine, she wears my ring, she had my baby and hopefully in the future she will have more for me. We are it, we were meant to be together. Nothing tore us apart, not drugs, not alcohol, not jail, nothing.

Her moans picked up at the same time the fluttering inside of her gets quicker, telling me that she is getting close. "Oh God, you're gonna make me come so hard, don't stop please, please don't stop." I braced my knees against the wall and use the leverage to push into her deeper and harder. Two strokes later and she came all over us both, her body teasing mine into following right after her. It wasn't a hard sell at all, I would follow her anywhere she lead. My head dropped to her shoulder and I shuddered against her as I spilling into her.

The next morning we gathered our stuff, walking through the house and talking about some of the changes we want to make. Then we make our way to the jewelry store, Bella isn't all that ready to go but I am. I want my ring on her finger so that it is announced to the world. Of course Bella chooses the smaller diamonds and I direct her towards another cabinet of rings. She looks them over and all at once her eyes light up. I can tell that she has found the one. I glance over the case and really only like one ring in there but it's her hand so I will accept whatever she chooses. When her slender finger pointed out my favorite I smiled and nodded at the sales lady. Bella chose an antique white gold setting with a round diamond and smaller sapphire stones that ran along the band of both the engagement ring and the matching wedding band. I was stunned at the thought of it on her finger and I knew that I wanted her to have it. I took the ring from the sales lady and slipped it on her finger and kissed her hand. It was perfect, I didn't ask the price, I didn't care, I just handed over my credit card to pay for it.

We headed to Em and Rose's house to pick up Eavan, we were more than ready to tell her all of the good news. Bella's phone rang and she answered it, I could hear bits and pieces of the conversation and knew that it was Charlie. They had been talking almost daily since she got that first letter. It was nice to see her relationship with him grow. They both loved each other so much you could see it when they were together. Bella's face changes and worry passed over her. "Oh, well let me ask him." She turned to me. "Charlie says that he and Sue are going to take two weeks off and want to come and see us as part of their trip. They will be leaving August the 10th. Do you have anything going on for those two weeks after that?" I just shook my head and pulled the phone away from her ear. I had something that I wanted to say to Charlie anyway.

"Hey Charlie, how are you?" He responded but I didn't listen to a word he said, now that I had him on the phone I was suddenly nervous, hell I wasn't this nervous last night when I asked Bella. What was the deal with me? "Well I have a confession to make and may need to ask your forgiveness for something."

His voice cut me off before I could say anything else. "Is everything alright Edward?"

"Everything is fine. I just wanted to ask your permission to marry Bella. I mean I jumped the gun and asked her last night but I wanted you to know that I still feel like I should ask for your blessing as well."

His nervous chuckle released the tension in his body and he replied, "Of course, son, it's about time you made an honest woman out of her. You both have my blessing." Bella was about to bounce out of her seat to know what he said so she grabbed the phone away from me as Charlie was still speaking. She talked to him for a little while longer and she hung up as we pulled into Rose and Emmett's driveway. It looked like my mom and dad were here as well. Figures, it's hard for them to be away from the grandbabies for any length of time.

After all of the hellos were exchanged and we were seated at the table, Bella removed her hand that she had been using to cover her ring. I held her left hand so that it was put right out there front and center. Eavan actually was the one that noticed it.

Mommy, did daddy buy you that ring?

All at once the house erupted into shouts and hugs and kisses. Everyone started to talk all at once and Eavan stood off to the side caught up in the mix. I turned and pulled her into my lap and tugged on Bella's hand so she turned to face us as well. She knelt down so that Eavan could see both of us. We touched her ring, then I explained what was going on to Eavan.

Bug, daddy bought this ring for mommy today. I asked her to marry me, so we can be together for the rest of our lives because I love her with all of my heart. Do you know what that means?

She nodded and her hands began to explain.

My friends all have mommies and daddies that have the same last name, will you have the same name now?

We both just laughed and nodded yes, Eavan's face broke out into a large grin and she hugged us both. She only had one question.

Can I wear a big pretty dress?

Bella nodded yes and she went off to play. I wish all of life was that simple. We would have it made.

The girls began to discuss wedding plans and all until an interesting idea came up. My mom suggested that we have the wedding while Charlie and Sue were here in town. It was a great idea since he had a hard time getting time off because he was the Chief of police. So Bella got on the phone and made the call to him. He thought it was a great idea as well. So in three weeks we were getting married. I wasn't worried, I knew we could do it. Bella looked a little stressed all of the sudden.

We all decided to drive back to the house to show all of the others as well. Alice and Jasper called to tell us they would meet us there. So once again we stood in our big empty kitchen and discussed wedding plans. Alice had it all under control and seemed to think that she could get it all done.

That night as we went to bed, Bella's phone chirped. I picked it up, it was announcing a reminder that she had a doctor's appointment tomorrow. "Hey, honey, are you sick?" I called into the bathroom at her.

"Nah, yearly girlie exam, that's all." She spit the toothpaste out and rinsed her mouth. "I'm glad you brought that up. It's time to take my IUD out, it's been five years. So what would you like me to do about birth control?" She bit her thumbnail. I hadn't seen a nervous Bella in quite a while.

"What were you thinking?" I knew I didn't want to use condoms, not after being in her bare but I wasn't sure that she was ready to not use anything. I was, but it was hard to tell if she was.

"Well, we said we wanted more kids right?" Her face looked hopeful.

"We did." I left it at that short and sweet.

"So would it be so bad if we opted to not use any birth control? It would probably take a few months to get pregnant anyway so if we started now, then…" She left her sentence hanging in the air between us.

I sat and pretended to think it over. I mean really what was there to think about, Bella pregnant with my child, the answer was hell yes. I let her sweat a little longer. I dropped my head dramatically against my chest. "I guess so I mean, it would be nice to have more."

"I mean I can get something less permanent if you'd like to wait awhile longer."

"Nah, it's okay."

"Are you sure?" I had to put a stop to her misery.

I tilted my head up and allowed the grin to show. "Abso-freaking-lutely!" I jumped up off of the bed and grabbed her around her tiny waist. We swung in circles as I kissed her face. "I want lots and lots of babies with you, so don't you dare tell them you want anything. You hear me?"

That night Bella lay awake with me and we talked about all of the things that usually ran through my overactive imagination at this time of night. Funny how when we talked them out together all my problems seemed to almost solve themselves and that left me plenty of time to snuggle next to Bella and sleep. And that's what I did!

LTWYL- Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Bella

Once we were at the table, I sat across from Edward in shock. I couldn't believe the events that we had encountered so far, first he dressed up for me and let me tell you he really looked so damn hot. Then he brings me to dinner for Italian food, I didn't even have any idea that he even knew that I loved Italian food but he did and that meant so much to me. Then he not only punched James in the face, and don't get me wrong I do not condone violence but he looked so damn hot doing it; but then he told Lauren off, I didn't even have to say a word he said it all. This was so different than in the past, when we were together before he was content to just sit back and watch Lauren and I fight it out; but this time, he told her we were together, we had a child and he would never want anyone other than me. My heart swelled when he said those words. All the years of therapy and talking came to a head in those few minutes. He proved to me that all the words and actions were true.

I sat back and thought about the months since he had been released and they really were wonderful. In fact things were so great that it gave me the "waiting for the other shoe to drop feeling"; I didn't want to feel that way and I especially didn't want Edward to know that I was feeling that way. I didn't want him to misinterpret it and think that I didn't trust him because I truly and completely trusted him. The problem is that my life hasn't been an easy one and when you are used to being dealt a shitty hand, it's hard to believe that you can end up with the fairytale. I really want to believe that everything is going to work out, but it is so hard to re-learn everything you know as true. I remind myself everyday that both Edward and I worked hard for this, that we achieved this and it's not just some fairy tale built on smoke and mirrors; and most of the time I believe it but every so often the doubt creeps in and it scares the hell out of me me. It's a demon that I'm working on with Jasper, so for now I try to push away the doubt and focus on all of the good in my life.

Over the past few weeks Edward has begun working with some of the support groups at the YMCA. His focus was on working with reformed prisoners that are trying to put their lives back together. He helps get them set up with support groups for therapy, get training so that they can get a job and then helps them find employers that will hire them. I am still working there as well, mainly with the families and spouses of men who either are in jail or have been as well as women who were abused or have been addicted to drugs. We work on the trust issues and communication between them.

Jasper and Alice are an almost constant in our life now. We've also met a nice couple, Ben and Angela. Ben works with Alice at the college but his parents were alcoholics so he knows what the life is like. He attended a group meeting with Jasper and myself a few times. He has a great testimonial to show the people there what the effects the life can have on their kids, so he is a big help.

It is nice to know that Edward and I are able to hang out with people our age that are on the right path, we love to do things with the four of them and on occasion Emmett and Rosalie have even been able to join us. It has been a little hard for them recently because Rose is at the beginning of a pregnancy and so she's really sick right now. I am really hoping that once she reaches her 2nd trimester things change and Emmett and Edward will have more time together. Watching them interact amazes me, there relationship was so strained for so long but now it's just natural for them almost as if there was never any rift at all; the love between them is truly visible now in everything they do together. Eavan, of course, has always loved her Uncle Em, he brings out the kid in all of us and now that she knows she is going to have a baby cousin to play with she is more than excited.

Things have changed on the work front for me, I decided to leave the photography studio to concentrate on weddings and other events that won't keep me away from my family all day, every day. It gives, Edward, Eavan and I more time together and I get to pick and choose what events I will work and the pay is all mine so I'm working less and making more money in the long run. Edward still works with Irina, Peter and even Eleazar now. They have formed a new company and are in the process of trying to get funding for a new building. They want to offer a program that offers help for at risk teens in a variety of different ways. They will offer counseling obviously but they will have other programs. Sports, art classes, photography classes, life skills, music programs, dance classes, tutoring help, and mentoring opportunities. The Center will provide teens with some place that will allow them an outlet for the issues in their life, and it shows them that there is a positive way to deal with all of the strife that they face. It will also give them some skills that will help them in their lives as they start out on their own. Edward is beside himself about the opportunity. He is going to be managing the center once it is up and running because right now all of the rest of the group have full time jobs so he is the one that can drop everything and make this thing happen. He will get it off the ground and eventually the others will join in and manage different parts of the center. You can see each night when we sit down to talk about our day how happy he is, it shows in every aspect of his life, and I couldn't be more proud of him.

While Edward and I have made great progress in our relationship we have yet to heal our physical relationship. At first it was about trust and making sure that we weren't rushing into things. Now, if I'm being honest it is a big old fat case of the nerves, I know he says he loves me and desires me but I'm just scared that we can't get back what we had before; I mean our entire relationship used to be built on sex, very animalistic, very hot sex, and truth be told, it was the only part that we were ever truly good at. Now that we have focused so much energy on all of the other facets of our life, I am afraid that we may have lost the one thing that we were good at before. I have talked about it with Jasper and he has said that it is only natural for me to be nervous, I need to remember that Edward and I love one another deeply and have been through so much together that sex won't just be about sex anymore, it will be about love, trust, and devotion, and that will make it more special in the end. Of course, hearing that, just made me more nervous.

Edward has been great and not mentioned it to me at all. He told me long ago that it was up to me, when I was ready he would be ready. We even backed off on fooling around like we did those first few days he was home, I just figured it was too cruel to keep working him up and then not delivering the goods. So we have kissed and held each other but nothing more. I have to say he has the patience of a saint that is for sure; even I have been ready to give up and just jump him. I just knew that I would know when the time was right and tonight was that time. Seeing him defend us to James and tell Lauren off was the straw that broke the camel's back. I was ready, more than ready really and I had no doubts that we were ready to take this step together. I couldn't wait to get him home, alone. Esme had Eavan for the night so we would be undisturbed and I couldn't wait.

I know we talked at dinner but for the life of me I couldn't remember a single thing that he or I said. I just remember the look in his eyes. The way his shirt stretched across his chest when he laughed and the flex of his forearms when I laid my hand across of it. I had a few glasses of wine but Edward only had water. I felt the warm, wonderful buzz that settled down deep inside of me. I knew without a doubt that the wine had nothing to do with the monumental decision that I had made. It just made me more excited about it.

We were on our way home with Edward driving, his fingers wrapped around mine, resting on my leg. Only his fingertips actually touched my leg but I swear that I could feel the warmth spread across my entire body. My heart raced and I couldn't breathe. "Baby, you okay, you're kinda quiet?" Edward sounded reserved.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I guess the wine got to me a little bit, sorry." I smiled at him as he glanced at me while still trying to keep his eyes on the road.

"I thought you might be mad at me. You know that I didn't mean for all of that to happen with James and Lauren, don't you?" He looked scared and almost small when he spoke to me. My heart went out to him and I had to stop the idea that I was disappointed in him, it was far from the truth. I was proud of him.

"Edward, stop. I'm not mad at all. I'm proud of you, it couldn't have been easy to turn down James and stick up for yourself like that." I bit my lip, not sure how the next remark would make me look. "The punch was hot, you looked so primal and in control at the same time. Then Lauren, well that was just priceless." I wanted to laugh at her audacity, satisfaction settled deep inside my body at Edward's rejection of her. It was exactly what I wanted to hear each time I came in contact with her in the past, late is certainly better than never. "She expected you to take up where you left off and to see the look on her face when you told her not just no but never. It really meant so much to me. I love you now, more than ever. Thank you." I pulled his face to mine and tried to kiss him. He immediately pulled over and took my face in his hands and kissed me back. When the need for air separated us I spoke quietly to him while our noses caressed each other's. "Please take me home Edward, I want you to make love to me."

His control snapped right then and there. He pulled me across the center console and half into his lap. He kissed me within an inch of my life. The passion and care poured into me from his mouth. His hands confirmed his feelings as they ran up and down my body. It wasn't the rushed, fevered groping that we had done so many times before. This was hot, needy but yet so passionate and full of love. I was almost in tears at the love that flowed between us.

He sat back and ran a hand through his hair, after a deep breath he looked over at me. His eyes were wide and dilated with lust but he helped me sit back in my seat. When my seat belt was snapped in place he put the car back in gear so that we could make our way home. The tension crackled between us the whole time but silence remained.

Our hands found each other and held on for dear life as Edward directed the car towards home. Edward still considered this my house but I had already begun to think of it as ours. When we pulled into our parking spot and Edward came around to open my door, he took my hand and helped me out of the car. Our bodies were in constant contact as we walked up the path; Edward handed over the keys so I could open the door. Normally I would just take the keys and open the door but tonight was different, tonight Edward was in charge. I pushed the keys back to him, his eyes showed the surprise but then he registered the change in us and turned to the door and unlocked it.

The door was held open for me so that I could walk through. Edward entered behind me and as soon as the door clicked closed Edward pulled my body back against his. His lips found my neck and began to leave kisses there. "I love you." He murmured against my skin. Goosebumps rose where his breath ghosted across my wet skin. I was putty in his hands. I knew without a doubt that tonight would be the night that we'd both been waiting for.

Edward had been so patient with me, without complaints about the wait. He understood that I had things to set straight in my mind and I once again saw the differences in the Edward of before and the Edward now. I was more than ready to give myself to him. I knew right here, right now, without a doubt that he and I were meant to be together.

I dropped my head back and gave him more room to kiss. My brain finally caught up and realized that he spoke to me. I blinked my eyes and hoped that he said the three little words I imagined that he did. Just in case I responded to him, "I love you." My voice was breathy. My mind hung on to the fringes of sanity as he touched, kissed and held by body close to his.

Up until this point Edward was very gentle with me, he held me with reverence. Tonight I could see the war waging within him. I knew that he wanted to be gentle with me yet his lust was pushing him to respond in a fast frenzied manner. I helped him with his war, I grabbed his head and yanked it down to meet my mouth in a rough, hard kiss. I wanted to show him that we could have both, soft and sweet, yet rough and passionate. A feral growl escaped his mouth as he scooped me up and rushed us towards the bedroom.

When we stepped over the threshold of our room, I'd begun to call it our room because Edward was here more often than not; the warm spicy smell that was pure Edward, assaulted my nose. I breathed it in deeply. I felt the need to have Edward all over me, touching me, holding me and somehow have him within me at the same time. Inhaling his scent that filled the air, felt as if I was actually holding him within me. When I felt lightheaded I let the air in my lungs back out. Thankfully Edward seemed to still be lodged within me, a piece of him to hold onto just for me.

I knew once we took this step we would never be able to turn back without our hearts getting broken. I took a few more seconds as his mouth roamed over my body to ask myself if this is what I wanted. If he stopped right now and walked out that door what would I feel? I knew immediately that I would feel devastation like I have never felt. It would be different than the last time he left me. This time would be by his choice and this time we knew our potential. We had worked hard to achieve that potential, we had achieved it and we deserved this chance to explore. This time we were on a whole different level and I knew that I couldn't live without Edward, ever again.

Edward seemed to know the precise moment when I made my decision because he pulled away to meet my eyes. "Baby, are you okay with this?" His eyes searched mine, the indecision flashed across his face. I knew without a doubt that he would stop if I showed hesitation. I was blown away that he could sense my hesitation and knew to ask me. It really showed me again how far he had come and how he put me first in our new relationship. I smiled and nodded at him.

"I'm very sure." His lips touched mine as soon as the last syllable left them. His hands once again began to travel from the safety of my shoulders down my arms and across my hips; they traveled up my back and around to my breasts. The touches were light and soft but they scorched my skin with each sweep. I reached for my zipper on the back of my dress and when I couldn't reach it, Edward pulled it down for me. A nervous laugh escaped my mouth as I suddenly realized that we would be naked in a few short moments. I knew he had time to work out, he came out of jail looking so much better than he had before he went in, but me…well I had a baby, I had gained weight, and I was softer than I used to be. Suddenly I was more than nervous; I was almost nauseous about him seeing me.

"What's wrong Muirnin?" I was confused as to why he would call me that, I had heard his Pop's call Gran that but never heard it from him.

"What did you call me?" I blinked and tried to bring my brain out of the tailspin that the naked issue was causing.

"Muirnin, it means sweetheart. Is that okay that I called you that?" He looked like a small child that got caught saying a dirty word.

"Sweetheart?"

"Yes, you mean the world to me and I have always loved that my Pop's called Gran that. It's special and so are you." His large hand touched my face as he murmured the words. I felt the tears sting my eyes.

"Oh…okay." I stuttered.

"Are you okay, Muirnin." His sexy smirk came out as he said the endearment again.

"Yeah." I ducked my chin and he immediately pull it right back up so that our eyes met again.

"That doesn't sound convincing, what's wrong?" He gave me that look that he shows to Eavan when she is trying to get away with something that she knows that she shouldn't be.

"I'm just nervous, it's been a long time since I've been…undressed in front of you. That's all." I dropped my chin again.

"Baby, you are so damn beautiful. There is no need for you to be unsure around me, I love you, just the way you are." His lips kissed mine giving credibility to the words his mouth had just spoken.

I dropped all pretense of worry and enjoyed his devotion. He removed my dress and laid it across the chair in our room, I pulled the heels off of my feet. I removed the jewelry I wore, all except the 'Edward' necklace that I always wore. I left that on. His hand ghosted across my skin leaving goose bumps in their wake. I couldn't get enough, his touch was so light that it left me begging for more, for a steady touch, something to satisfy my body's pleads for more.

I turned and unbuttoned his shirt and helped him pull it off of his shoulders. His belt and pants followed quickly. We both stood in our underwear staring at each other, our hands in constant contact with each other's exposed skin.

"Bella, I don't know what I would have done without you. I would not have made it through." He shook his head in despair as he reached out his hand to tuck a stray strand of hair behind my ear. "One day I swear I'll make you my wife and give Eavan the baby brother she wants. I promise you this." His words set my insides on fire.

"One day I'll say yes." Electricity snapped and crackled in the air between us. I couldn't wait to feel his body against mine, his weight convincing me that this was real, that he was real.

I slipped the bra straps from my shoulders and he stepped forward to unclasp it from my back. When it was out of his way he picked me up and walked us to the bed. We both lay down, "I want this to be right, there is so much more I had planned for us. I wanted this to be perfect."

I stopped his words with my finger. "This is perfect, it's you and me, being honest with each other. That is perfection." I smiled.

Edward slid his boxer briefs off and my panties followed. His mouth began a trail at my jaw and proceeded down my chest. I stopped him before he got too far away. I wanted the seduction, I wanted the romance but I wanted it on another night. Not tonight. Tonight I just wanted him and me, joined in the age old dance of love. "Another time, right now I just want you inside me, please." I whispered.

He nodded and moved to settle between my legs. "I don't have protection, Bella. I'm sorry." He looked devastated as the words settled around us.

"It's okay, I had an IUD put in after Eavan was born."

"What the hell is that?" His confused face and shocked tone of voice was so funny that in any other circumstance I would have burst out laughing.

"Birth control, Edward, it's birth control. We're covered." The confusion was gone with that explanation and he resumed his spot between my legs.

I leaned up and took his bottom lip, I sucked it into my mouth as he pushed slowly into me. The gasp was inevitable. He was large and it had been awhile for me. His body froze, halfway in.

"You okay baby?"

"Yeah, it's just been awhile." For some reason this made Edward smile like a jackass. He buried his head into my neck and pushed in further. When he reached that spot deep inside of me I just sighed. This was home, this was what I missed. It's funny how I missed something that we really didn't have before but I did.

Edward's body paused deep within mine, I tried to push up against him but his hand stopped my hips momentum. "Just…wait. I need a minute." His voice was raspy and broken. After a second or twenty his hips began their movement again. "Oh God, Bella. I never knew." His hand hitched my leg up further on his hip and allowed him to slip deeper into me. Edward's free hand and mouth began to roam all over my body once more. No spot was left untouched or unkissed. He seemed to need to reacquaint himself with me all over again. I wrapped my left hand around his neck and pulled his mouth to mine while my right hand held his ribcage. His heart slammed against the side of his chest in a perfect rhythm with mine. His movements were slow and deep, dragging my orgasm out of me with each thrust of his hips. This was a soul deep experience between us, not some fast frenzied fuck against a wall. We had time for those later.

A small light from the hallway shown through the half closed door, casting shadows over most of the room and bathing us both in a soft ethereal glow. The decreased light accentuated the differences in us, my paleness against his much darker skin, his tall frame against my much shorter one, his rough skin against my softer covering. Everything seemed to be heightened tonight and I gave myself up to the heady feelings. Our moans, pants and whispered promises were the only sounds that I heard. My body wrapped around Edward's, my eyes locked on his. Our hearts were touching, connecting they were falling in love all over again. The way his body moved over mine felt familiar but yet foreign all at the same time. He loved me now with his body and not to just achieve satisfaction. We made love.

At the same moment our hands reached for each other and he pushed them up over my head. Edward's knees came and rested slightly under my ass. This tilted my pelvis and allowed him to slide in and out at a slightly different angle. His face broke the lock with mine and drifted down to watch our bodies move together. I wanted to see for myself but it was enough to watch it through Edward's eyes. To see his body respond to what we were creating together. It was better than actually seeing it.

"Oh baby." His gruff voice spoke, I'm not even sure he meant to say it out loud. His pushes were long and deep, a slow steady cadence that seemed to stoke the fire in my body. Each push fanned the flames and each time our eyes met the burning became unbearable. My heart exploded a few seconds before my body did. Edward followed a few seconds later.

When we came back to earth, tears were in my eyes. The depth of the emotion, the looks of love, the devotion we had just shared was like nothing I have ever experienced before. Edward wrapped me in his arms and held me close to his chest. The steady rhythm of his heart once again calmed me down. He kissed my head and I drifted off to sleep. "I love you." I whispered to him just before the darkness completely took over.

"I love you too, every day of forever."

We woke the next morning and found a steady drizzle of rain outside the window. This prompted the need to bury ourselves deep in the covers and enjoy each other for a little longer. Awhile later Esme texted me and let me know that Rose and Emmett had picked up Eavan to take her for a play date. This gave us the entire afternoon to spend together. Once we got up to go and grab a few snacks that we ate in bed but otherwise we spent the entire afternoon there. We watched the storm, counted the seconds between the thunder and lightning, and talked.

We talked about our hopes and dreams, about our future, about our past. We shared our hopes and dreams. Edward talked for hours about the center they were starting, it was so close to being ready to open and I'd never seen him so proud of something. Actually that's not true, nothing compared to his pride in Eavan but this rivaled it for certain.

Our talkative spell dried out and we laid in bed wrapped up in each other for awhile. The air around me suddenly electrified and I felt Edward harden behind me. I groaned at the thought alone of being with him again. I loved that we spent the afternoon talking but I really wanted some more proof of his love now.

Edward moved us to the middle of the bed and flipped me on my stomach, his hand pushed mine above my head. He really had a thing for my hands there, I didn't know what it was about that position but he loved it. His hand ghosted along my back and came to rest between my legs. I was certainly more than ready for him and he gasped when he realized it as well. "Hmmm, I see my girl is just as ready as I am. I love that shit." His hands pushed my legs together and he climbed up onto them. His hard cock slipped between my cheeks and into my ready and willing pussy.

My back arched up and pushed back onto him. "Oh God, yes," I gasped.

"Like that baby?" Edward prompted.

"Fuck yes." I worried that we were slipping back into the old us but I still felt the love and devotion in him, he had simply let a few extra links out on the leash of his control this time. The friction was simply divine and his body knew exactly what to do to mine. I felt the orgasm descending around me quickly.

All too soon I felt Edward weight lift off of my body and he dropped to the bed beside me. His strong hands lifted me and situated me down on his lap this time.

"I want to see you when I make you come." He sat up quickly and kissed my lips then descended back down to the bed. I adjusted and used my hand to position Edward's cock right at my entrance. I slowly plunged down onto him and marveled at the depths he could achieve within me. His hands came to rest across my breasts as he kneaded them alternately. I wanted to ride him into oblivion but once again he fueled the fire within me so damn quickly that a few strokes in and I was faltering.

His hands found my hips and guided my movements. "That's it baby, make love to me."

"Oh Edward." My head fell forward as I got the chance to watch the spot where our bodies joined this time. It held my attention, to watch Edward's beautiful cock slip in and out of me. To know that I had control and could bring him the satisfaction this time was overwhelming.

"Fuck yes, Bella. God, I love you." Edward panted as he rose up to meet me. His hand left my breasts and wrapped around my neck. His mouth touched mine and we simply touched, his breath rushed out of his mouth and into mine. Mine did the same with his. His eyes locked with mine. Our souls touched.

His name became my chant as the orgasm ripped through my body, my limbs became numb and my body absorbed the heat.

Edward cried out my name and joined me.

We collapsed back onto the bed, snuggled into each other as the rain still fell all around us.

We showered, dressed and were on the way to his parent's house to have dinner and pick up Eavan. I knew there was a lot I wanted to say and figured that now was the time to get it all out before Eavan got in the car. Not that she would disturb us in the traditional talking a mile a minute but it just felt wrong to discuss things in front of her and not include her. So, I bit the bullet and brought up what I wanted to say right now while I had the chance.

"Edward, I wanted to talk to you." His hand locked with mine as he checked his mirrors again. The rain called for more caution and Edward was paying close attention to the roads now. As soon as his circuit of checks were done he turned briefly to look at me.

"What's up, Muirnin?" I smiled involuntarily.

"Well, I talked to Eleazar and he said you could live anywhere as long as you reported where you live and your probation officer knew about it. So, there's nothing really that says you have to live with Esme and Carlisle. Surely you want to get out of your mom and dad's house, I mean you are an adult and all. I know that they don't keep track of you but surely you want…" Our interlocked hands came up to press against my lips, halting my words. He had a right, I was fully immersed in a case of verbal diarrhea right now.

"Baby, you're right. I can live anywhere I want as long as I report it. I've always known this." He patiently explained to me.

"Well, I didn't know that. I thought you had to live with your parents. Now, I know differently." I turned to gaze out the window.

"Is there a reason that you brought this up. Would you like to talk about it or did you have a reason as to why this is important?" I smiled and could tell that he knew exactly why it was now important to me but he was allowing me the chance to express it for myself.

"Well, yes. I mean if you don't have to live with Carlisle and Esme, why would you?" I blinked at him and hoped that he would give me the answer that I was begging to hear.

"I guess when you put it that way there really is no reason other than the fact that it is the only place that I have to live." He began to check the mirrors again.

"What if I told you that you had another option?" I whispered.

His head stopped mid movement and turned towards me. "What did you say?"

"I said, what if you had another option?" I bit my thumb and waited.

"What other option, Bella?" He seemed to be waiting with baited breath as well.

"Our house with us."

There was no answer just a large smile and he pulled my hand up to kiss it. He blinked his eyes for a few seconds then just nodded his head. That answer caused a smile on my face that would rival his to appear. We both remained silent for the rest of the ride to Edward's parent's house.