Thursday, September 15, 2011

Choices

As most of you know that theonlykyla and I are friends, good friends. We read over and correct each other's work all the time. She sent me this and said, 'This is in my head and I need to get it out. It's partly personal and so it means a lot to me.' I read it over, all in one sitting and couldn't believe my eyes, I cried most of the way through it. However, when I got to her Chapter 20, it felt wrong. I love Edward and Bella together, but if something happened to either of them, I think that they loved each other enough to want the other to go on and live a happy life, to love again...and then a conversation my husband and I had a little while back came to me, in which we both echoed the same thoughts. So, even though his happily ever after won't be with Bella, he will have it. And Bella will help to get it for him!

I sat down and within 20 minutes I had all three chapters done. I emailed them to her and said,'Please don't be mad but here is how I see the story ending.' She loved it and went with it. I feel like an ass for taking over her story but I love it so much that I will push that feeling aside and be happy that both of us like the ending now.

This first chapter you get is all Kyla's words, she wrote all of it and this is the original story that she sent to me. I asked her permission to post it here just like she asked my permission to post my final three chapters on her profile. We are okay with this, lol. Please no one pm me or her and say, 'Do you know someone stole your work?' We know! I think we would even call it a collaboration, even tho my part was so much smaller than hers.

Each chapter is separated and titled so it makes it easier to read. Enjoy!


Chapter 1~Heartbeat

I sense you everywhere. Is it because part of your heartbeat lies within hers? She smells like you.

My tears flow freely.

I see you when I'm standing beside her incubator. While I softly caress her hand.

Your beauty astounds me. I clutch my hand to my heart. This is everything we'd ever wanted. A family. A combination of where our souls collided into a being of our making.

I look away. I feel you staring at me. But I can't look back to you. It hurts to think of your eyes on me. I want to sweep you both into my arms.

I walk to the closest chair and sit down. I close my eyes. I have flashbacks. Loud voices. A lot of chaos. Alarms beeping.

I open my eyes to see you float through a doorway at the end of the hall. You just walked right past me.

Who do I go to?

You or her?


Chapter 2~Scared

Someone shakes me awake. I see you peek behind a door. Your smile is radiating sunlight.

I'm told they need me in the nursery. I sprint down the hall. She's crying. She's alone. I'm told to put a gown on. I'm told to wash my hands.

I see you giggling from behind a curtain, your eyes lit up and joyous.

I'm told to sit in a chair. I question what the emergency is. Why there isn't a doctor around? She needs to be held.

Why aren't you doing this? She needs you. She needs the nourishment your body can give her.

They place her in my arms. She stops crying. She's the perfect combination of the two of us.

My tears fall again.

I see you pass by the window, your hand trails along the glass.

I don't know what I'm doing. I close my eyes. I cradle her close. We sleep. We feel your arms around us.

We smile.


Chapter 3~ Release

They release you today. I couldn't be with you. I had to be with her. Once again, you made me choose her.

They force me to be with her all day long. I saw you watch me change her dressing for her cord. I saw you giggle when I change that filthy diaper.

I stare at her and feel your eyes on me. Please let her eyes stay green. They are soulful eyes already. I don't know if I could handle them being brown, like yours.

They tell me she will be released in two days.


Chapter 4~Quiet

Noise. Noise. Noise. People talking. Phones ringing. Doors opening and closing.

Yet, in a moment of solitary silence, I see you. Brown flowing...red streaks shining.

Your face is always turning away from me. You won't look at me.

Later, in the dark. Crying. Incessant crying.

My arms won't move. They can't reach you, if I choose her. My feet won't budge. They can't go to you, if I choose her.

Standing in the dark. Her new bed holds her crying body.

I see you standing there, staring out the window. Moonlight shines on your profile. You move and her crying stops.

She sees you, too. I pick her up. I'm cradling her tight to my chest.

You float through the door in the dark of night.

Sunlight again. Birds chirping. Dogs barking. Voices calling. Boxes opening. Doorbells ringing.


Chapter 5~Goodbye

I chose you today.

They made me leave her. Please, don't be mad. I know I promised to never leave either of you.

She was crying. She knew I chose you.

My mother was holding my hand. My sister had a strong grasp on my arm.

You were peeking through the trees in the yard. I could see you.

I heard your dad growling at me, then he collapsed against me.

I was thinking of her. I was missing her already.

They were talking about you. I closed my eyes.

I could feel you gripping my hand so hard I thought you would surely break it. The monitors were blinking and buzzing. I was screaming at them to leave you alone.

I could hear her cry.

It was the last time you looked at me. Why won't you look at me?

I see you when I open my eyes. The sun is shining. You are dancing in the leaves. Your head is thrown back.


Chapter 6~ Alone

People are everywhere. Food smells fill the air. Voices speaking softly in my ear.

I hear her cry. I go to her. She keeps crying. I shut the door.

You stand in the ray of light from the window. You run your finger along her face. She quiets.

I stand there begging for you to see me. Notice me.

"LOOK AT ME!" I scream.

People scramble. She cries. They run in. You disappear. I fight. They push me down. She cries louder.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I scream.

They let go. I scramble to my feet. I see their tears. I see their pity.

Why won't you let me see your face?

She cries. I pick her up. She stops. They leave us alone. I sit and rock her. We look out the window.

You are dancing in the sun.

Alone.


Chapter 7 ~ Reality

My mom refuses to leave the house. Your mom won't come to the house. Your dad sits on the porch. My dad hands me pills, which I refuse to take.

I haven't seen you today. Where are you? She needs you. I need you.

I move a bed into her room. They insist I sleep. I close my eyes.

You scream. I panic.

You cry. I scream.

You plead. I yell demands.

Beep, Beep, Beep...naaaaaaaaa

You look at me. Your eyes to your soul shine and flicker.

Beep, Beep, Beep.

Your hand clutches mine. I scream again. I cry and scream. I hold you and scream.

I open my eyes to find my dad holding me, "She's gone, son. You have to face reality."

She cries. She knows I scream and cry for you.

You made me choose her. That's reality.


Chapter 8 ~ Routine

Harper.

That's what you told me. I didn't like it. You made me choose it.

Her name is Harper Marie Cullen. I chose Marie. Please don't be mad.

Show me your face. Please.

I see you standing in the kitchen. I see you hover over my shoulder. I want my arms around you while you wash the bottles.

I see you sway with us, when I hum her to sleep, like I did before you left me with her.

Why did you make me choose her?

I see you touch her cheek when she sleeps. I feel your faint lips on my forehead when I cry at night.

I see your profile in the moonlit room across the hall. You beckon me. I sleep here, with Harper. You made me choose her. This is where I sleep now.

She cries. I get a bottle. You stay with her.

It's our routine.


Chapter 9 ~ Recall

"You have to promise if anything happens to me, you'll take care of her."

You say this jokingly. It wasn't funny to me. "Bella, don't joke about such things. Please."

"Lighten up. We're only having a baby. Nothing is gonna happen to me." Your eyes danced with laughter.

You love doing this to me. Getting me all worked up.

"And don't forget to name her Harper, when I'm gone." You punched my shoulder and stole a piece of chicken off my plate. "Hey, stop taking my food. And no, I will NOT name her Harper...that's an awful name." I was half-joking, half-serious.

"I'm hungry because your sperm impregnated my egg, so I can take all the damn food I want." You said as you snatched another piece and popped it into your mouth.

"And you WILL name her Harper because I love it and you love me." You leaned over and kissed my nose.

I pulled you back to me and kissed your mouth, which made you horny again.

The food was spilled all over the floor as I fucked you against the side of the couch from behind and again on the sofa table.

"See, you will name her Harper." You joked as we lay on the living room floor amongst cold Chinese food and smelling of sex. "You know I would." I said as I kissed you softly.

I awake with a start. There you are, sitting on the edge of the bed, holding her. Humming to her.

"You knew I would," I spoke softly. You are nodding your head. I could tell you were smiling.

"Let me go, Edward. She needs you more than I do." I hear your voice in my ear.


Chapter 10~ Sunshine

My mother is insisting we take Harper outside today. I only went because I could see you dancing amongst the trees yesterday.

You aren't coming to see Harper at night anymore. I hardly see you in the window anymore, either.

Is it because I chose her? Is it because she chose me?

We sat on the bench in our backyard. The sun is streaming through the tree tops.

I remember wanting to cut those pesky trees down when we moved in.

You insist we need them for cover from the sun. I remind you that we live in Seattle. We only see the sun five days a year.

You laugh. You like to dance naked in the sun, I soon found out.

You run through the trees. I know Harper sees you, she turns that direction.

I see you dance behind each tree around the perimeter.

I stand up and take Harper to the middle of the yard. We dance, in the sunshine, she and I.


Chapter 11 ~Growth

Harper has brown eyes. She's starting to hold her head up on her own.

I saw you today. You were standing behind a tree, as I sat in the sun. In that place where they tell me you are.

There's grass over the dirt. I left you Peonies. They are your favorites.

I know you aren't there. But you are coming around less and less.

She smiles at me and it was your smile. She's a night owl, just like you.

Three months have passed since you last looked at me.

I still have the dreams of the buzzing and beeping. I still wake up screaming.

Your smell is no longer lingering in the air at home.

I'm moving back into our room. It's the only place that I can still feel you in the air. My heart still beats in time with yours, I hope.

When I hold her, I can feel you, what's left of you inside her.

I still cry myself to sleep.

Every day she grows. Every day you grow further away.


Chapter 12~ Flashback

"Okay Bella, it's time to push hard." Dr. Seth tells her as she shoots him a dirty look. "As opposed to the soft pushes I've been doing for the past four hours?" You said through gritted teeth.

"Grab my hands, love, let me help you," I said as I worked to capture your eyes with mine.

"It hurts Edward." You whined and a grimace crossed your face.

"I know, baby," I said in a calm and soothing voice. "It shouldn't be too much longer." I move a strand of damp hair from your forehead.

"Fuck, it hurts," You screamed and crushed my hand.

I looked up to Dr. Seth, my eyes take in his every move, and I listen for every sound or word he makes.

"We have to get this baby out, now!" Dr. Seth yelled to the room.

I scan my eyes back to you in time to see the color drain from your face. "Bella. Bella. Stay with me. Baby, look at me." I panic and hold your chin so that I can keep your eyes on me.

The alarms started to beep, the nurses started to scramble, the doctor started to bark orders to the room.

You loosen your grip on my hand. I scream. You cry.

Someone tries to pull me away. I scream again.

You look at me with blank eyes. "Choose her," slipped from your lips as your hand slipped from my grip.

"NO! NO, BELLA!" I screamed. I panicked. I can't breathe as they started to work on my wife. My life.

I hear a baby wail. I feel you take a deep breath.

I have to choose.


Chapter 13~ Grief

Today the grief is consuming me. Today I can't stop crying. Today I miss you with every ounce of my being.

Today I can't hold her. I had my mom come and take her away for the day.

Today I wrap myself in your favorite blanket. Your scent barely remains.

Today I just want to hold you. Today I just want to see you.

Ten years ago today you became my wife. Ten years ago today you gave me your body for the first time.

Ten years ago today you take my name. Ten years ago today I see forever in our future.

Please, I beg you, please come to me.

My heart beats only because of her. I made a promise to you.

I struggle to breathe through the tears. I am wallowing in my grief, according to my father.

Today, I just want to be where you are.

Today, the grief is consuming me.


Chapter 14~ Time

I've always been impatient.

I caught a glimpse of you today. We were dancing in the sunshine. There you were, hiding behind a tree. I saw the brown flowing...but not the streaks of red because you were hidden in the shadows.

Harper giggled and turned her head in your direction.

She's grown so much. I can't slow the time down to keep her small. Did you see her?

I wish for your profile in the moonlight of her room as I rock her at night.

Time.

I wish for more time with you. I wish for time to slow for her.

How much longer will I be able to spot you?

How much longer will you linger in the darkness?

How much time do I have left before you disappear from my sight?


Chapter 15~ Awake

I lie in bed and remember our mornings together.

I remember the feel of your body, crushed up under mine. The feel of my arms around your body. The sensation of your breath against my chest.

I close my eyes and see you everywhere.

Laughing. Living. Loving.

I hate to be awake most days. I hate to have my dreams end. The goods ones, that is.

The nightmares keep me awake.

Harper doesn't like to sleep. She prefers to be awake until the last second, when sleep finally pulls her in.

I wish you would wake up.

I wish I could awaken from this heaven like hell that I reside in.

I saw you in the park today. The brown flowing as you ran from tree to tree. The tinkle of your laughter as it floated on a breeze.

It's kept me awake tonight. As I close my eyes, my one wish is that you would be there, waiting for me.

Don't make me stay awake.


Chapter 16~ Movement

Harper crawled today.

I saw you peek around the corner. I couldn't catch your eyes, but I knew you were smiling.

I cried, unending tears.

She laughed.

I saw a counselor today. I laughed at memories. I cried, unending tears.

I felt you touch my shoulder when I broke down in the parking lot.

I moved to the small patch of trees, hoping I'd catch a glimpse of you there. I walked around the whole park, my eyes strained to ever flash of brown I saw.

I felt your hand brush mine. I couldn't follow your essence. I couldn't reach you. I had to stop.

She was crying. She needed me.

I turned and walked away from your path. I had to move towards her. I had to make a choice. You made me choose her.

I moved, split in two directions. My heart twisted in pain.

I moved. I chose…again.


Chapter 17~ JOY

I came home from work to find you giggling in the doorway. You were dressed in a pale pink negligee, at four in the afternoon. It was a Friday afternoon.

You were bouncing on your toes. Smiling at me like the Cheshire cat.

We'd only just started trying two months before.

You had your hands behind your back. "What is going on, love?" I asked with a hint of humor in my voice.

You slowly brought your hands out in front of you. A small white stick. Two pink lines.

"Is that?" I was completely thrilled with what my mind was computing. "You are?" I asked as my eyes took in the joy on your face.

"I love you," I picked up in my arms and spun you around a few times as we laughed.

We cried tears of utter joy. We laughed at our happiness.

We made love through the night. We whispered our dreams. We admitted our fears.

My hand never left your stomach.

Our baby. Our love. Our forever.

I awake with a start. I see your profile in the window. I call to you. I beg you to turn and look at me. You shake your head.

You whisper in my mind. "You have to let me go, Harper needs you more."

I vigorously shake my head, my mind screams, 'NO, NO, NO'...

"Remember the joy, my sweet love..."

I blink...you are gone.


Chapter 18~ Missing

Today Harper stood up. Today, you missed it. You weren't there.

I searched and searched. You forced another choice on me. I'm angry.

She needs you. I need you. My heart misses you.

The beats have slowed again. Hers beats, only stronger.

Why are you missing this? Why did you go away? Come back to me.

We promised forever. I did. Didn't you? A promise not fulfilled.

The life you are missing. The life I'm barely living.

She smiles and slobbers on your picture. She misses you.

Are you missing us, too?


Chapter 19~ Touch

My fingers search the bed for you, still. They long to feel your skin. They long to touch your face.

Harper loves to touch. Everything.

Her favorite place is snuggled against my chest. She buries her head in my neck, the same as you did.

Her touch brings me relief, when the longing for your touch gets to be too much.

Her tiny hands feel my face. Her tiny mouth with slobbered kisses warm the tattered shreds of my heart. Her touch brings a piece of you to me.

My eyes long to feel the comfort of your brown flowing hair, peeking around a corner.

I touch her soft cheek as she sleeps, hoping you at least visit her dreams.

Your touch escapes mine.


Chapter 20~ Choices

Five years ago today I made the hardest choice of my life. I had to choose between saving my wife or my daughter. You made the choice for me, in so many ways.

I stand at the foot of your grave, my daughter's hand tucked into mine.

"Am I as bootifull as Momma was, Daddy?" She asks in her soft little voice. "Every bit, precious." I gently confirm.

"I wish I coulda hugged her neck." Harper says with a hint of sadness. "She's your personal Angel, precious, she hugs you every night when you fall asleep."

She fidgets for a minute, then looks up at me.

"Would you like to put Momma's flowers in the vase?" I ask her as I brought my hand around, a large bundle of peonies wrapped with purple ribbon. She nods her head, so I hand them to her.

She walked forward and gently put them in the vase. She turned and looked at me.

"Is that good Daddy?" She smiled at me. "It's perfect, Harper." I smiled back at her.

"Can I go back to May-May now?" She toes the ground with her pink, sparkling shoes. "Of course, baby," I said as I knelt down to her level.

She wrapped her arms around my neck, kissed my check. "I love you, Daddy." She whispered in my ear. "I love you, too, precious." I said as I released my hold on her. She skipped off to the car, as I stood and watched from the foot of your grave.

Once Harper was in the car, my mom waved bye to me and I watched them drive away. Harper's big party was about to begin.

I turned back to face you, my Bella.

"God, I miss you." I whispered to the air. "There still isn't a day that you don't fill my mind." I admitted to the wind.

"But, I remembered all we talked about. I've tried to live my life. If it weren't for Harper, I'd be in the ground beside you." I wiped away the tear that snuck down my cheek.

"Thank you, Bella, for making me choose." I knelt down and ran my fingers through the grass that covered this sacred ground.

"If I can't have you, at least I have her." My heart picked up a beat, I felt the sweet scent in the air.

I raised my head and there, through the trees, I saw it. Brown flowing...red shining in the sun...and there you stood, waving at me, a smile brilliantly shined across your face. Your eyes met mine.

"Thank you for letting me go." Your voice echoed through my head.

"You never gave me a choice." I smiled back and waved.

I blinked for half a second, and you were gone.


Chapter 21~Discovery

As I turn from your grave I see her. She's crying, she's stumbling and she's falling.

My grief is forgotten as I rush to help her. I grab her arm and help her stand again.

She looks up at me, but her eyes aren't yours. They mimic my pain. I hand her the tissue that my Mom handed me as she left with Harper.

We sit in the diner and she tells me how she lost Ben.

He was a runner. One morning he didn't come back from that run.

She had only been married for two years, she didn't even have the time that we had together.

We had almost fourteen years if you count the years in high school.

She had two years. No kids, nothing to show for their time.

I'm more thankful for Harper now after hearing her story.

I realize I'm almost late for Harper's party at my mom and dad's house. I don't want to leave her alone, she's still so sad. This is her first anniversary to get through. I remember my first one, it was not good.

I invite her to come with me. She accepts. I introduce her to my mom and dad, my sister and her husband.

Harper comes over and I don't know what to do. Should I, or shouldn't I?

Harper handles it for me. She introduces herself, and say's she is the birthday princess, Angela laughs and tells her that she most certainly is.

A small fear begins when I see them together. I want to run, to scream, to cry.

That night I see you. You run through the trees at our back yard. The same ones I wanted to cut down.

As I drift off to sleep you tell me to live, to enjoy, to choose again.

I wake up crying. I don't know if I can choose again.

I don't know if Angela wants to choose again.

You tell me to stop over thinking and just live.

So I do.


Chapter 22~ Amazing

Our house is one fucked up place.

We have pictures of you, me, Harper, Angela, Ben, of all of us. Of her family, my family, and of your family. We keep all of these around because neither Angela, nor I want to forget what we had.

We had a life before each other. We loved those lives.

But now our life is different. We love our life now as well. Not more, not less, just differently.

Harper is different. She never knew you personally, so she blooms when she is with Angela.

I worried about replacing you, about her losing you because Angela is here.

You in all your wisdom changed that thinking for me. You told me that you expected this, you wanted this and you knew that Harper needed this.

I still hear your whispers on the wind. They reassure me that I'm doing the right thing. That Angela is the right thing.

I only see you once in a while now. On special occasions, or when I'm really worried about things.

I sit in our backyard with all the lights out and wait for you to come to me, so that you can reassure me that I'm doing okay.

I sat like that the night I realized I was falling in love with Angela.

I sat like that the night I wanted to ask her to marry me.

I sat like that the night before I married her.

Once again you took care of me. You told me all the things you wanted me to know.

You told me it was no accident that Angela and I met that day. You knew she was coming, and planned our visit for just the right time.

Harper lost her other shoe that day on purpose you told me. It made us twenty minutes late for a reason.

Ben knew as well. You two conspired against us.

Harper was thrilled that Angela would get to officially be her mommy. She even helped plan the wedding. We got married in the backyard.

I felt you there. I never saw you, but I felt you.

Your mom cried and told me that I was doing the right thing. Your dad couldn't speak but he shook my hand.

I told him that Harper would never forget who gave her life and he just nodded his head. They left soon after that. I couldn't blame them.

Who could watch their daughter's life carry on without her?

Angela never questions me and I return the favor to her. We both know. It's part of what makes us work. I never doubt that the love is real though.

But it doesn't take away from what we had and she knows that. I love her more for that.

I sit here tonight, praying that you will come. It's been almost twenty two years. I haven't seen you in fifteen years. Not your face anyway.

I see your hair blowing in the wind at all of the major events in Harper's life. You are there. She knows you are there. She tells me when I say goodnight.

It makes my heart smile when I hear her tell Angela, too.

I guess you were right after all. The choice was a good one. Thank you for that. Thank Ben for me, too.


Chapter 23~ Complete

I ramble on and on about Harper's life. While I talk, I clear away the weeds from the edges of your headstone. I can look across the cemetery and see Angela talking to Ben as well.

I've been by to talk to him several times myself. Angela thinks that I don't know she comes here to see you as well, but I do. Harper spilled that secret a long time ago. I don't mind. I like that my girls all talk.

I whisper to the air, "Bella, I wish you could have met Ethan. He is perfect for Harper. When she is calm he riles her up and when she is riled up, he calms her down. They are a great pair."

I run my hand through my hair but the tears leak out anyway. Usually the hair trick works to slow the emotions, it diverts my attention. But not today.

In four hours I will walk my little girl down the aisle and this is just one of those hard days. The days when you slip back into my life and I ache for you. I ache to see you, talk to you, share things with you, hold you.

I told Angela all of this last night in bed. She understands.

She shared that the night before our twins were born. She sat up and cried because she didn't have that with Ben. I understood too.

Again, our relationship fulfills us, it makes us stronger but certain days we are the two weaklings that fell together in the cemetery.

After I catch you up on Harper and tell you everything I could possibly remember since our last visit here, I whisper that I still love you. I still miss you and I won't let you down.

Just as the words leave my mouth I see you duck behind a tree again. I can leave knowing that you heard me.

I knock on the door, and Harper stands wearing your wedding dress. I cry because she is so beautiful and she looks so much like you.

Your mom, my mom and Angela are all here. It's amazing how the years have blended our family and Harper has four grandmothers now.

Even Ben's family has become attached to ours. It's strange but we all make it work.

I smile as I see Gavin, mine and Angela's son, walk his grandmothers down the aisle and help them get settled in their seats.

When the music starts, his twin, Grace makes her way down the aisle first, followed by several of Harper's friends.

Then it is our turn. I walk with her slowly. I can't let her go just yet. I love Ethan but he doesn't realize that for so long she was all I had.

I feel the wind pick up about halfway down the aisle and we both look at each other. A smile crosses both of our faces at the exact same time. We know it's you.

I walk her to the end. I kiss her beautiful face and hand her hand over to Ethan.

I sit down beside Angela and she asks, "You feel her?" I only nod because words won't come to me at this point. "Me too. She is so proud of you. She told me so last night."

I turn to look at her. "What? You think you are the only one that goes out there and talks to her in the backyard. I got news for you, buddy. I'm surprised that the three of us haven't tripped over each other getting out there at certain points in our lives. She matters to you and Harper and she matters to me. I thank her every day for giving me what she did." I kiss Angela on the cheek and pat her hand.

Bella certainly couldn't have found a better woman for me if she had traveled the whole globe in search of one.

I turn back to hear the minister pronounce them husband and wife. I stand to clap with the rest of the crowd. She runs by and whispers, "I love you." I don't have time to return it but she knows.

The next morning I get a call from Harper. I worried about her all night.

I think back to the two honeymoons I had and what I did on each one. Well, it's safe to say that no father wants to think of his daughter that way. But her words surprise me.

"Daddy?" She hasn't called me that in years, "She told me last night in my dream. She said how proud she was of both of us and that our choice were spot on every time. She said that she wouldn't be back anymore that we didn't need her. She said to tell you that she loves you. To thank Mom for her and that she wanted us to be able to move on now."

Harper was in tears and so was I. But I understood.

Bella had done her job. She took care of us long after she was gone and when she couldn't anymore she sent someone else to do that.

At the time I would trade my life for the choice I had to make, I would gladly give it all up then. But now…well I guess I live by the words that each choice brings you a certain amount of pain and a certain amount of happiness.

"I know, baby, I know. She was happy yesterday, I'm sure of it. We all were. Now, get off the phone and go do something with your husband!"

"Gross dad. Seriously, did you just say that?"

"Harper, I meant sightseeing or something. You know what, I'm hanging up now. Bye, I love you, and have fun."

"I love you too, daddy."

The End


Monday, August 1, 2011

Tomorrow Chapters

Chapter 1

Tomorrow

The link for the song is below, it inspired the whole thing so take a listen if you don't already know it! I hope you enjoy :)

Song: Tomorrow by Chris Young Link: www(.)youtube(.)com/watch?v=ETVjll5eR88


Tomorrow~ Edward's POV

Tomorrow.

That was the single word answer to my mom's text. She wanted to know when I'd be arriving in Forks.

Of course my answer caused another round of texts to take place.

What? That's only one day before your concert and the day of your party! I thought you were coming in so we could spend time together? What happened?

Mom, the bus broke down and it took almost five hours to get it fixed that ate up all my extra time so it put everything off schedule! I'm hurrying as fast as I can towards Forks. You asked me to come home when I was in Oklahoma, it's not real close mom.

Mom was picky about her texts, she would do it but only if we spoke in complete sentences and used correct grammar. Leave it to Esme to try to clean up the world one text at a time. I chuckled when I thought back to the text that told me about the party. Mom and Alice tagged teamed me and begged me to come home. I had to change a few things around but thankfully my touring schedule had not been released yet so I had time to fix was time, it had been far too long and I loved my family, they were the only ones that saw the real me, all the others saw the public persona that I played.

Honestly, it was much easier that way. I mean really, who the hell wants to see a depressed millionaire superstar? Of course the answer was no one; and really, it's not the public's fault that I can't do shit, that I can't go anywhere, or see anyone. It's just too much stress to try to live a normal life; so instead I live the life I have and pretend that it's good enough. It's been that way for a long time; at least since I left home.

I rub a hand through my hair as I sit and think about the years that I spent in Forks. The good years are what I call them in my mind, the years when Edward Cullen was just another student at Forks High School. I had good grades and played a few sports but I was just another face in many then. I didn't stand out. Only one person gave me more than a passing glance and even then I had to work for it. Bella Swan, she was pure perfection.

She sat beside me in Biology and we had to complete a project for a large part of our grade. She didn't want to work with me, I could tell. She worked on her half and I worked on mine, separately. Only at the very last minute did she allow me to come over and work with her. I don't know what I said that changed her mind but after that night we were inseparable.

Well…when we weren't fighting and breaking up that is. For some reason her and I were like oil and gasoline. We were just combustible together. I couldn't even count how many times we broke up, it was insane. When we were together things were great but when we fought, well it's a wonder the town of Forks is still standing after the two years that we spent together.

Her father and mine spent so much time trying to keep up with us; hers because he would get called when we fought in public and mine because when I would get mad at her I would punch something. Never her but something! That meant several trips to the emergency room to see my dad. He would bandage me up and send me on my way with a stern talking to. Both of our parents tried to keep us apart, but neither Bella nor I would have it. We would always try one more time to make it work. It never did though and looking back at it now just makes me sad and reminds me of what is missing in my life. She was always the one person that I felt really, truly got me, she understood me and never asked me to change.

If I am being honest, I know that I'm an asshole. I can be very self-centered and at times come off very aloof. I'm certain that didn't help our relationship, add to it that she had a temper and I had an attitude problem, and you have fire and gasoline. I don't know why, it just seems like I get lost in myself and can't quite see where I go wrong. I don't mean to, I would never intentionally be this way, just seems to be my personality. I've tried changing but my career seems to have flourished because of it so it seems to be a moot point now.

We broke up for good when we went off to college. I already knew that I wanted to pursue music and she wanted a career in literature. I went off to University of Tennessee and she went to Dartmouth. We lost touch and I only heard rumors of her when I went home on breaks. Even then it was few and far between.

In my sophomore year I was discovered playing in a bar at a talent show. I was immediately signed to a record deal and I have never looked back. It was one of those storybook rise to fame instantly stories. I loved every minute of it. Having people look after me, taking care of each and every detail of my life. I ate that shit up. I love the attention, the fame, the money and all the damn perks. I couldn't get enough and the bigger bonus was that I got to make music at the same time. Instead of traveling to Forks I now flew my family out to meet me. It was easier this way. Needless to say it has been about four years since I have been back. No sight of Bella and no more word since my sister, Alice, had lost touch with her as well. That hasn't cleared her from my mind though. I think about her almost every day. No one knows that fact but me. I keep it under wraps and play my part in this whole charade. It's better that way.

Emmett's big voice knocks me out of my trip down memory lane as he slaps my shoulder. "One more hour, fucker, and we'll be home sweet home!" His face was lit up and the excitement was palpable as he sat across from me. He looked ridiculous in the small dining table on the bus we now rode on. It was clearly not made for a man of Emmett's size to sit at. Usually if we ate here on the bus he took one of the other chairs. I see why now.

I pulled my phone out and texted mom.

One more hour!

Her immediate response was shocking to me. She must have been staring at the thing waiting for it to go off.

I'm so ready, hurry, xxoo

I knew that if Jasper and Emmett had their choice we wouldn't tour so much, they didn't like being away from their wives anymore than their wives liked it. Often the girls would come out with us but I hated it when that happened. It was too much of a reminder of what I was missing when they came out. The memories of Bella and all of us in high school were too up close and personal when the girls were around. With them at home I could pretend that they didn't exist, which meant that Bella didn't exist either. I could pretend that I really was okay with everything. Pretend, I was very good at that.

I headed to the room at the back of the bus that held my clothes and stuff that I would need for this trip. I threw a few outfits into a bag and grabbed my shave kit, it held all the toiletries I would need. Who knew what was still at mom and dad's after all this time. I mentally prepared to be back in the place of my youth, the place where I had Bella in my life.

Part of me wanted to stay for longer than two days but the other part was itching to just turn around right the fuck now and drive as far away as I could. I knew that if I did that, I would break my mom's heart and I just couldn't let myself hurt my mom to keep up my charade.

I heaved a sigh as we turned down my parent's driveway. I prayed for strength to get through the next few days here. Mom already had quite a few cars in the massive driveway. So people are already here, great. I wanted some time to chill out, and spend with my family.

After all the hugs were exchanged I headed upstairs to my old room on the third floor. The feeling of calm washed over me when I entered the room and surveyed what was left there. The memories rushed over me and I just stood there taking them all in. I realize how glad I am that I came home today. I needed this. I needed to be grounded by this house, by this room. Tomorrow just wouldn't leave my mind though. I knew that tomorrow I would play a show at the high school and then board a bus and leave it all behind again. Tomorrow night I would have to become Edward Cullen the singer, not Edward Cullen the kid from Forks. Once again the sadness washed over me as my mom's hand came to rest on the middle of my back where I still stood in the doorway.

"Edward, you haven't even walked in? You've been up here for over fifteen minutes, what are you doing?" Her words a light and teasing but her face was anything but that. I dropped my bag and pulled her into me. I swung her around and kissed her cheek.

"Nothing, just taking it all in." I leaned back and looked deep into her eyes. "Thanks for this mom, I didn't think that I wanted to do this but now that I'm here I really do, so thanks." Her eyes misted over as she patted my face. I pushed my bag further into the room and closed the door. We both descended the steps in silence, each of us caught up in the different thoughts that were running through our minds. I'm sure they're both similar, yet different at the same time.

The party was in full swing when we got back out into the yard. A band was set up, a full bar was over in the corner and everyone was having a good time. A few people were swimming and I took note of the girls that pranced around in their bikinis. They all seemed to be here for the same reason, to party, to be seen and just maybe nab a celebrity to sleep with. For once I had no interest in that action tonight. Tonight I just wanted to have a good time.

Mike, Tyler and Ben from high school approached slowly so I rushed over to meet them halfway. These are the people I wanted to spend time with tonight for sure. I wanted to hear how they have been, not spend the night talking about me. Eventually it became a little high school reunion, over half of the class was there. We laughed, talked and played drinking games. My publicist, Garrett kept trying to get me to mingle but I just told him 'it's my damn party and to fuck off'. That was the last time I saw him. The few celebrities that were there came over to chat with us for a few minutes but they drifted off quickly when we begin to talk about the old times. I couldn't care less.

All at once the air seemed to be sucked from the area, I looked around to see the one face that confounded me. I say confounded me because I wasn't sure if I was thrilled that she was here or if it was the worst thing possible. Mom approached a very hesitant Bella Swan and I just stood back to watch their interaction. Mom touched her arm as she spoke and Bella appeared to tear up when mom hugged her. Whatever mom said next made Bella throw her head back and laugh. A full belly laugh, the kind where her whole face lit up, my feet began to move toward them. It was an involuntary response, no brain process was there, just action. I pressed my beer into my mom's hand and pulled Bella into my arms. I hugged her close and buried my nose into the beautiful hair that rested on her shoulders. It still smelled the same and felt the same in my hands but somehow I knew everything else was different.

Nothing felt the same. Bella held me as well, her grip wasn't as strong as mine but there was some force behind it. That fact alone made me happy. It felt good to know that she wanted me as close as I wanted her.

When I finally pulled away I couldn't help but keep her close to me. "Hey." I make a living writing words down so I could sing them every night on stage but all I could come up with to say to Bella was 'hey'. I wanted to take my slam my hand onto my forehead and shout out 'Doh!' like Homer Simpson but I felt like that would only make it worse so I tried for a smile.

She smiled back and whispered a hello back to me. I was lost, she was beautiful. She had grown into a woman that had the right amount of curves for me to appreciate. Her face was perfect and she had added a small stud to her nose somewhere in the four years that we had lost with each other. I never would have pegged Bella for that kind of girl but it looked just right on her. The years had definitely been kind to her. No amount of determination would keep me from her so I pulled her back into me again and held her some more.

Several hours later, the cake came out, I blushed when everyone wanted to sing happy birthday to me but it was all fun as my friends from school shouted out jersey number from school instead of my name. The best part was that Bella stayed by my side the whole night, we were never further than a few feet from each other. I could always hold out my hand and touch her. I loved it. It just felt right.

When the party wound down and most of the guests were ready to head out I grabbed Bella's hand and held onto it. I didn't want her to slip away without my knowledge. I needed these last few minutes of happiness with her.

"I think I should go now, almost everyone else is gone." She pointed towards the thinning crowd, as blushed and looked away. That let me know that she really didn't mean it, she was just giving me an out if I wanted her to go.

"Stay, Bella. Stay with me, just a little longer okay?" I pushed her chin up so she could see that I meant every word I said.

"Okay."

I walked across the yard and down to the slope by the creek. There was a hammock there and I pulled her into it with me. The way her sweet body pressed against mine was heaven. She was warm, sweet and smelled divine.

"I missed you so much." I kissed her temple. I was nervous because that was the first time I allowed myself to touch her that way and I wanted to do it over and over again.

"I missed you too, but I kept up with you. I watched every performance on TV and bought every single CD you put out." I stopped her words with a finger over her mouth.

"Why didn't we work Bella?" Her face froze and she tensed beside me.

"I don't know Edward, I guess we weren't in the right place at the right time."

"Are we now?" I asked hopeful that her answer would make me the happiest man on earth. Instead of her voice I felt her head shake it's denial at my question. My heart fell.

"Edward, I want us to be but I just can't right now. I have a year left of my master's program and my mom is sick." She hesitated and when she spoke again her voice was rougher, full of emotion. "Real sick, the doctor says she only has a few months left." I tightened my arms around her and held her close.

"I'm sorry, Bella, no one told me. Is there anything I can do?" She shook her head again.

I stood and pulled her with me back towards the house, my intentions were to take her up to my room, lock us in and protect her from all the wrong in the world. I knew it wouldn't keep it at bay but it made me feel like I could do it at least for tonight. We never stopped moving until I was in my room with Bella. I pushed her towards the bathroom and handed her a t-shirt of mine to put on. She silently moved in that direction but didn't close the door. It thrilled me that she felt so comfortable with me already that she would just undress without worries.

When she stepped out I was in bed waiting for her. I only wanted to hold her close and keep her safe but when I saw her in my t-shirt and nothing else all those great intentions went out the window and my lust took over. I sat up and waited the eternity it took for her to cross the room and climb in with me.

I took Bella's hand in mine and pulled her close to me, I had to be touching her body somehow.

"I'm sorry, I really had every intention to keep this friendly, to make sure that I just held you and made all of your worries disappear but seeing you like this. I'm not sure I can Bella. I can't be the gentleman here so if you don't want this, I think I need to leave now." I looked deep into her eyes as I held her hand.

"Why would you leave, it's your room?" Confusion clouded her eyes.

"I want to dream about you here, I want this bed to smell like you so that I can take that with me. So, I'd leave you here and sleep down in the guest room." It was a pussy emotion to have, but I didn't give a damn. If I had to walk out of this room without her I had to have something to take with me. Suddenly reality set in…Tomorrow. Tomorrow night I would leave, where would that leave us? I pushed that thought aside as Bella began to speak.

"I want this, I want you. I know it' wrong and I can't promise you more than this, Edward, but I swear that I want it." When Bella was nervous or lying she bit her lip between her teeth, tonight her lip was left alone. I smiled and pulled her close again so I could kiss her good and proper this time.

Her lips were warm and soft, just as I remembered them. Her mouth opened immediately and I swept my tongue in to taste her sweet taste. She mewed like a little kitten and I hardened even more so. She felt like home, like I should have been here all along. To hell with fame and fortune, I needed this more.

"I've thought of you each and every day." I whispered when we came up for air from each other. This brought another frenzied kiss between us.

Bella pulled my hips closer to hers with her foot wrapped around my thigh. I purposely kept them apart, I didn't want to push her into a decision with my hard on pressed against her showing her what my decision would be. I needed her to make this all on her own, I would never forgive myself if I pressured her into this. I pushed the regrets and sorrow that I would feel tomorrow out of my mind and lived in the moment.

With my mind clear, my hips instantly drifted toward Bella's. Her mewing became moans when they touched. "Edward, please." My control snapped, her body writhing against me and her pretty mouth begging me…how could a reasonable sane man turn that down?

My hands slipped under my t-shirt that she wore to rub the soft skin at her waist. I felt the lace and cotton of her simple panties. None of that thong or g string shit for Bella. She wore a pair of plain white panties that turned me on more than all of the dirty lingerie in LA. It was my turn to moan.

Apparently my moan spurred her on because she pushed her panties down her legs and kicked them off onto the floor. My eyes flitted between her beautiful brown eyes and her newly bared skin. When I saw her lip trapped between her teeth, I knew exactly what she was thinking. Bella was worried that I didn't like her body. The fear and doubt passed through her eyes and I needed to put a stop to that shit right now. She was the most beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes on and she needed to know that right now. I roamed over her bare skin one more time before I said, "Oh God, baby, you are more beautiful now then you have ever been."

She rewarded my lips with a sweet kiss from hers but I stopped it almost as soon as it started because I wanted to taste other parts of her. My hands made their way past her still covered breasts. I gave each a quick squeeze then moved on down to the holy land. Bella's head began to thrash lightly from side to side before I even touched her. She was a sight to behold. Her hair all draped out across my sheets, her half naked body bowed and ready for my touch.

I kissed each thigh up and down; slowly inching toward the spot she wanted me. I saw the moisture seeping out of her and knew she was just as worked up as I was. I gave her a hesitant lick across the outside of her sweet folds. Her body arched up even higher. "Please, God, please." She begged again. I couldn't have my girl in need so I dove right into her. One hand holding her open as my other hand and mouth explored her. I kissed her sweet pink skin, and lapped up the moisture that came from her. I ate it like it was the last meal I would ever take into my body. I traced her opening with my finger and listened to her gasp as I slowly slid one finger than another inside of her.

Bella had pulled her legs up and towards her body, it left her wide open and bare to me. I couldn't help but pull back to watch my hand work her body. To see the evidence of what I had created within her. I felt her flutter around me and knew it was time to end her torture. I dropped my mouth back down onto her and sucked her clit into my mouth.

I overheard Alice and Rosalie talking one time and Rose detailed this thing that Emmett did with his mouth. He sucked her clit in and while holding suction on it he flicked it with his tongue. Rose went on and on about how hard it made her come. I knew my girl needed an intense release so I mimicked the description that Rose gave. As soon as Bella's clit was in my mouth and the first flick applied her legs clamped down around my head. Her hands went to my hair to use as leverage to keep me exactly where she wanted me. I was her willing slave; there was no way I would leave her now. I was in this for the long haul. Well, until tomorrow that is. Bella's body continued to pulse around me and I rocked my fingers in and out of her to bring her down from her peak slowly. Her face was serene and the underlying stress and worry had disappeared.

"Oh my God, your family is going to think that you are dismembering me up here. I can't believe that I was that loud." She hid her face in my shoulder but I was having none of that. I turned her chin back to me.

"I have listened to them enough here and on the bus so they can listen to me for once." I responded as I placed kissed to her neck.

"Yeah but your parents are here, Edward, what will they think of me?"

"I have listened to them just as much as the others. They will think that it's about time that we both got to spend some time together again. Shhhh…" I stopped her before she could utter more useless words. It didn't matter what they thought, or heard. Tonight was about us. "Now, come here and let me hold you." She shook her head no and pushed on my chest. My heart sunk, I was sure that I would get to hold her in my arms, sleep next to her and pretend at least for a little while that she was mine.

"Not yet. We have to take care of you." She sassed as she rose up on her knees and pulled my t-shirt over her head. She threw her leg up and over mine and came to rest across my lap. Not gonna lie, she was the sexiest fucking thing I had seen sitting there on my lap waiting for me to close my damn mouth and allow her to do her thing. I lay back against the headboard. She took this as a sign of acceptance as she wiggled my boxer-briefs down off of my legs.

Her sweet mouth kissed down my chest, she made sure to pay attention to each nipple as she passed them. I almost wished I had gotten the nipple ring last summer when we were in Europe. I'm certain the image of Bella tugging on that thing while she rode me would be seared into my mind for eternity.

I snapped back to reality as I felt Bella place an open mouthed kiss right at the head of my cock. Her pink tongue sneaked out to catch the pre cum that rested there and I knew that I would blow my load quickly if she put her mouth on me. Just as the thought formed in my mind Bella's mouth descended over me. The suction was exquisite and the heat was incomparable. I pulled her mouth away after a few passed because just like my suspicions, she was going to end this thing way too soon.

"Come here, Tiger, I wanna feel you before this ends." I pulled her up into position over me. I internally chuckled at the nickname my father gave her back in high school that slipped out. Her lust filled eyes snapped up to meet mine as she took in our new position. Without preamble or warning she took my cock, positioned it and pushed her body down onto it. "Fuck!" I shouted when her ass met my thighs. God, she felt perfect. She was so tight, tighter than she should have been but who was I to complain that she must not have been with many guys or at least guys that would have appeared to changed her body in any way.

Then it struck me that she was sitting on my dick with both of us bare. Not that I minded but the last thing Bella needed right now was an unwanted pregnancy amidst all the other things he had going on in her life. "Tiger, I need to get a condom. You feel amazing but I don't want you to have to deal with the possible consequences." Her hips had begun to move over me and coherent thought was getting harder and harder to maintain. Her head thrashed back and forth as she murmured to me.

"I'm on the pill, now, fuck me. Please." My hands found her hips and began the mating dance between us. She twisted and twirled her body as I moved her on and off of me. Everything about her was perfect, like it was made just for me, her hips fit my hands, her body seethed mine like a glove, her perfect nipples matched my mouth. The rightness of us together struck me just as the tingling in my stomach began. No matter how long I wanted to hold this off for Bella's sake I was quickly running out of time. My thumb found her clit while the other hand gently squeezed her hard nipple. "Yes, just like that, fuck yeah." Her head tossed back while I clamped down on my body and begged for just a few more seconds so that Bella could join me.

With the first fluttering of her walls around me the blinding light shot through me and engulfed my body. I hoped that Bella was far enough into her orgasm so that she was guaranteed a finish because right now I was useless to her. I could only ride my wave of bliss till it ran out. When it was all over I would take care of her if I needed to.

Thankfully when I came to again, Bella was curled up in my arms with her leg thrown across mine. I kissed her temple as I asked her, "You okay, Tiger?"

She looked up at me through her sleepy eyes. "Perfect." I was happy enough with that answer so I pulled the blanket over us and we drifted off to sleep.

Several hours later I woke up, part of me wanted to wake Bella as well and enjoy another round of sex. But the slightly darkened skin under her eyes told me that she needed sleep worse than she needed me so I sucked it up and let her alone. I did grab the pencil and pad that was by the bed so I could write down a few lines that were running through my head as I slept. I could see the words written on the walls of my dreams. It wasn't unusual for me to do this, it happened to me all the time. I would wake from a dream and have full verses of stuff to put on paper. I jotted it down quickly and snuggled back into the blanket with Bella.

The next morning I left Bella asleep in my bed, she was laid on her stomach with the sheets half tossed over her perfect body. I noticed a small amount of black ink on her right side right at her waistline. I pulled the sheet back further to investigate. It was a swan tattooed on her back in a tribal design. It was hot as hell and I couldn't wait to inspect her further to make sure she didn't have anything else on her body that I needed to see. I knew that if I didn't leave now then I wouldn't so I went to work out with Jasper and Emmett. Neither of them asked any questions and I didn't offer any answers. I really didn't know what to say, was I thrilled that she was upstairs in my bed, hell yes. Did I think that this would make everything all perfect and we would ride a rainbow out of town together, no. In fact I was certain that I would only get my heart broken to be honest. The words that I wrote down last night began to swim around again. I left the room in search of my guitar, I had to work this song out.

After a few minutes later, Em and Jasper came to search me out. I sat at the piano with a guitar thrown across my lap as I hummed the melody. I knew what I wanted to say with the song but I needed to get the chords right. It was for Bella and it summed us up perfectly. Once again we were in not in the right place at the right time for us to work. I hoped she understood that these words expressed that to her and it would make her understand that I knew she couldn't leave anymore than I could stay. It hurt but it was what it was. We just weren't meant to be right now but that didn't stop me from wanting to hold her one last time tonight, tonight I would love her like there was no tomorrow.

Bella descended the stairs in some fresh clothes so I assumed that Alice had given them to her. Her smile was hesitant and shaky. I set the guitar aside and took her hand. We all sat around and talked with the rest of my family. Bella shared the details of her mom's illness. Renee had stage four metastatic breast cancer. She had tried chemo and radiation but it was too far advanced when they found it to actually cure it. The treatments gave her a few extra months but they would not save her life. So Bella put her future on hold and moved back to Forks to stay with her mom. Eventually she would go back to school and finish her master's degree but right now was for her mom. I understood that and my heart ached for her, to be our age and to be dealing with heartbreak such as this. It made me all that more resolved that tonight she would have a great time.

I pulled Alice and Rosalie aside. "I have to go to the high school and help them set up but I need you to do something for me while I'm gone, okay?"

Each girl nodded so I continued to speak. "I want you to take Bella into Port Angeles and make her feel special. Get her nails and toes done, get her hair cut, a facial, hell I don't care what you get her but pamper her. Then take her shopping and buy her as much as she wants. No wait, take that back. She won't want anything so just buy her a bunch of stuff and she won't have a choice. Okay?" I pulled a black credit card out of my wallet and handed it to Alice, both girls squealed. I rushed them off and yelled at them to take care of themselves as well. I didn't care how much it costs; I just wanted them to show Bella a good time, to take her mind off of her troubles.

My body was on the field supervising the set up of the stage and equipment but my mind was focused on Bella. I couldn't wait for Bella to see me on stage, it wasn't that I was conceited but I just knew that I came alive there. I wanted her to see me up there, to see her expressions. I wanted to watch her watch me.

I kept checking my watch, waiting for her to get back. I did the sound check, I went to eat, then went back to the bus to prepare and get dressed. Still no Bella. I headed back to the vibe room to wait for show time. The music played, the guys played tricks and told jokes, anything to get us in the mood to go out there and wow the crowd.

Finally Bella came in with my mom, Rosalie and Alice. She also had Angela with her, her best friend from school. She was radiant.

She wore this pink satiny top that twisted and tied around her sexy neck. The black leather mini skirt was certainly something Rosalie picked out for her, it was not something that Bella would have worn but damned if it didn't look perfect on her. Her strappy heels made me want to strip her down and fuck her while she wore them. The makeup, the hair, her jewelry were all perfection. In fact, I noticed quite a few people in the room looking her over. Men and women. I pulled her into my arms and gave her a passionate kiss. I wanted it clearly stated that she was mine and off limits to anyone else here, regardless of their sex.

I played my normal show and watched as Bella enjoyed herself. She looked like she was enjoying herself, like the worries of her life had melted away. That is what I wanted for her, just for her to enjoy herself for tonight because tomorrow…

Towards the end of the show I changed my set list. I waved everyone off the stage and took a seat on the stool that the roadies left for me just off stage. "Tonight is a special treat for me. Tonight I get to play in my hometown, in my old high school with all of you my friends." The cheers erupted and fists waved in the air. "I also have a brand new song and when I say new I mean it. I wrote it last night, not even the guys have seen it." More cheers and applause were sent back to me. "I'd like to play it for you." I took my guitar and settled down on the stool. "I wrote it for my Tiger, I wanted her to know how I felt about her." I glanced down at her in the front row and noticed her blush.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna leave here

I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would

I strummed the guitar and prayed that she would understand the reason behind my words. Her eyes were glued to mine and she was taking it all in.

But tonight I'm gonna give it one last time

Rock you strong in these arms of mine

Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow

Her eyes and body language told me that she understood the reason for the words. The reason that I needed to leave her, we weren't in that place where we could be together yet; maybe soon but not now.

We're like fire and gasoline

I'm no good for you, you're no good for me

We only bring each other tears and sorrow

But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow.

Her eyes sparkled with the tears that she had not yet shed. It killed me to sing this to her. My entire body protested and screamed at me to just drop the guitar and go to her.

Tomorrow I'll be stronger

I'm not gonna break down and call you when my heart cried out for you

And tomorrow, you won't believe it

But when I pass your house, I won't stop no matter how bad I want to

I could see my mom holding Bella against her, supporting her. I knew that my mom always prayed for us to work out. She always said that Bella was the yin to my yang. We matched even though our tempers flared at every turn.

But tonight I'm gonna give it one last time

Rock you strong in these arms of mine

Forget all the regret that are bound to follow

We're like fire and gasoline

I'm no good for you, you're no good for me

We only bring each other tears and sorrow

But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow

I had never meant any words more.

I finished the rest of the show and came out to play two encore songs. Some nights the time on stage seemed to drag and all I could think about was the after party. Tonight I feared all of it. I wanted to stay right here and play all night, because at least then I would have Bella with me. When I left this stage it was going to be time to execute the words I sung to her and to be honest I wasn't sure that I could do that.

My family and a few close friends stayed to help us close up the set and pack it into the trailer. Another trailer was packed with the equipment and instruments. I took my guitar to the bus and stowed it in my room. I knew that I would need it to get me through the next few hours after I left Bella standing here in Forks while I drove away. Eventually there was no more stuff to pack away and time had arrived for us to leave.

I kissed all of my family, and hugged my friends goodbye, saving Bella for last. Everyone else drifted off as soon as I pulled her into my arms. "You know I want to stay don't you?" She nodded against my chest.

"You know I'd go if I could, don't you?" I nodded in return to her.

"I meant every word that I said to you last night. I do think of you every day and want you with me. So much." I kissed her forehead; it was all I trusted myself to do here in public. "I'm not going to ask you to wait for me but just know that somewhere in the world I'm there loving you and counting the days till I can get back here to you. Will you be here?"

"Where else am I going to go?" She answered with emotion in her voice but the words made me laugh. It was a laugh of relief to know that she was tied to me as much as I was tied to her. She pressed a folded up letter into my hand and closed my fist around it. "Read this when you're alone. I left my number in there so you can call me later if you want."

I opened my mouth to speak to her but she put her hand over my lips stopping me. "Don't say anything, just go and call me after you read the letter. Okay?" I nodded my acceptance and pulled her towards me. My mouth found hers and I kissed her with every ounce of passion I had, I made her promises in that kiss. Promises I intended to keep.

Just as I suspected the bus drove by her house on the way out of town. I pressed my hand against the window and watched it until we turned the corner and it was out of sight. I sulked back to my bunk and unfolded Bella's letter.

Dearest Edward,

I don't know why we have been forced to part two times now. All I know is that one day the time will come where there won't be a tomorrow pulling us away anymore. The tomorrow that we face will be pulling us together, without anything standing in our way. I'll wait for that day, praying each morning when I open my eyes that this is the day. I love you, I have always loved you. Call me soon- 360-759-4703.

All my love,

Bella

I closed my eyes and thanked God. She knew and understood. Now I just had to get through the time until we were meant to be together. Like her each day I opened my eyes I would pray that this was the day for us.

Something New

Something New

Bella's Pov

I felt my phone vibrate as I was stepping off of the metro. I fished around in my bag and grabbed it out. I knew from the ringtone that Alice had sent a text. I was praying that she was busy or working tonight, otherwise I was going to be roped into some plans that I didn't want to take part in. Alice felt I was staying in a little too much since Jake and I broke up. She didn't realize that I had plenty of work and studying to do. I wasn't breezing through my Master's like I did all my other scholastic endeavors. I had to put some time in to make it worth my while, besides trying to work at the same time, good thing my job at the small publishing company could be done whenever and wherever. That made the job possible, and my bank account says the job is necessary.

I flipped open the phone.

Beotch

Party 2 nite I got the costumes!

Call me when u r off of the metro

Xxoo

Me

What the fuck Alice? I couldn't believe that the one day this week I didn't need to work or have a study group Alice had promised to attend this stupid costume party. What were we twelve? I was so not into this party, but the wrath of Alice was a hell of a lot harder to deal with than a party for a few hours. So I was rushing home to see what ridiculous costume Alice had for us. I grabbed my phone out of my bag and dialed Rosalie.

"Rose, did you know about this party?" I snarled at her when I heard her pick up, I didn't even bother with pleasantries.

"Bella just deal. You know she is following this new guy Jasper around. She found out he was going to be there so that is why this is so important. And she actually went easy on the costumes. Yours is banging! I can't wait to see you in it." I halted my steps right then, Rosalie and Alice's idea of what was acceptable and what was not in public was far removed from mine.

"Rosalie I swear that if she has me in some booty shake shorts I will kill someone." I meant the threat; too many times I was the fashion victim for Rosalie and Alice to dress up, which usually left me half dressed and my ass hanging out.

"What are you bitching about? I am the one she is setting up with Jasper's friend tonight. I haven't even met Jasper, what if Jasper is an asstard and his friend is even worse? I swear she is on overload. She thinks because she is in love, that we should be as well. So basically quit your bitching and help me escape this big ape when we get there. We will ditch the party and head home to watch movies. Because tonight I feel the need, the need for speed! What do you say?" I did feel bad for Rosalie; she was on the bad end of Alice's blind dates as often as I was.

"Ok, it has been too long since I have seen myself some half dressed Iceman. I will be there in about 20 minutes, do you want coffee?" I knew that if we were going out it required our routine of getting dressed coffee to get us caffeinated up before heading out.

"You know it, see you then." And she hung up.

I stopped off at Java Spot and got the usual for all three of us and headed towards our apartment. Rosalie came and opened the door for me as I was struggling to get my keys out to unlock it.

"Bella, get in here?" Alice squealed. I rolled my eyes at Rosalie and handed her the coffee.

"Alice, all I can say is it better be a great party. This is the only day this week I don't need to work or go to study group. I better not be wearing booty shorts either!" I raised my finger and pointed right at her. She just turned and walked towards her room. She walked to her ancient stereo and turned on some getting dressed music as loud as our bitchy neighbors would allow before complaining. She turned back to me and started dancing. I couldn't be mad at Alice for long and she knew that, and used it to her advantage very well. She had been my best friend for over 18 years. Rosalie joined our twosome three years later, and we have been inseparable since then.

"Bella, I have your costume laid out on your bed. We will all be wearing wigs so no hair time tonight, just make up. Go get dressed." She dismissed me with a small hand wave.

I walked into my bedroom and surveyed the outfit laying on my bed. The wig and wings were cute, but holy hell the bitch had me in booty skirt and stripped thigh high's again. I would need to shave off all my pubes to keep them from showing this damn thing was so short. I stormed back to Alice's room.

"You promised." I yelled over her music.

"Bella, come on you have the best ass of the three of us and you refuse to show it off. I put some boy shorts in there for you to wear under it. It won't show that much. Besides with your new tan you will be stunning! Just give it a chance, please for me. You know Jasper is going to be at this party and I am dying to spend some time with him. Try something new, please for me." She pleaded. She did have a huge thing for this Jasper; he was all she talked about for the last month.

Alice was a personal shopper and Jasper came in to buy some suits for work. He just landed his first real job and needed some real work clothes to wear. Well Alice was in heaven, spending other people's money and spending the afternoon with him. I did hope that he was different from the last guy that Alice fell in love with to find him fucking some other woman in the back room of the club. She was nicer than I was, I would have killed him then and buried his body in about twenty different locations throughout the city.

I closed my eyes and shook my head trying to bring myself back into the present. I looked at her pleading eyes and turned to Rosalie. Rosalie just mouthed the words 'she set me up with his friend' and I turned to go back to my room. I would wear whatever because I felt like I was coming out ahead on this deal.

I started the shower and when the water was the right temperature I climbed in. I washed my hair, and then shaved my legs and gave my little pus a nice trim. I wanted her to be in tip top shape in case made an appearance tonight, not that I was hoping for it, but it had been several months since I broke it off with Jake. A girl does have needs, you know? I dried off, rubbed myself down with lotion and walked into my room begin getting dressed.

I put on the black lace boy shorts, pulled the skirt up to my waist. I unlaced the red corset and held it up to my chest; I walked into Rosalie's room and turned my back to her. She took the black satin tie and began lacing it up. She laced it up completely and pulled it snug so my breast would provide lots cleavage at the top.

I left Rose's room and walked towards Alice's bathroom. I sat dutifully and waited for her to begin applying my makeup. She applied dark black eyeliner to the corners of my eyes and then a small line of red eyeliner, where the hell she found red eyeliner who knows. She dusted my chest and neck with red glitter and then applied blood red lip stick on my lips.

I put my stripped thigh hi's and my shoes on. I hooked my necklace and then snapped my black wrist cuff on. I was ready to hit this party, tonight was about trying something new.

I met Alice and Rosalie in the kitchen for our usual pre party shot. Alice poured the tequila and we each waited for the salute to come to us. Finally Rosalie said "To tonight not sucking!" and we all laughed.

"To tonight not sucking!" We all said and threw back the shots.

We arrived at Twilight and found a line that wrapped around the building. Rosalie looked nervous and Alice was bouncing up and down in her seat. She was having a hard time parking the Porsche she was so excited.

We walked up to the bouncer and Alice stepped forward.

"I believe we are on the list, Alice Brandon, Rosalie Hale, and Bella Swan." She batted her eyes at the large bouncer just for good measure. She used her contacts from work and got us into all the happening clubs and parties, sort of a 'you-scratch-my-back-I'll-scratch-yours-type-of-situation'.

"Yes, you are Ms. Brandon, but I would have let you in anyway. Enjoy your night." He flirted right back with her. We walked past him and into the club. The place was full and it was only 9pm. I was sure there was going to be plenty of disappointed people outside tonight; there was no way even a third of them were getting in here tonight.

Rosalie tugged on my arm and pulled me towards the bar. Alice went off in search of Jasper.

"What would you lovely ladies like tonight?" The bartender asked us.

"A Dirty Martini for me, and a Margarita for her, please." She cooed to him.

He stalked off to make the drinks and returned shortly with both drinks. We took our drinks and went in search of Alice. We found her cuddled up in a booth with a gorgeous man. He was dressed as an old fashioned Marshall of the Wild West. He had a cowboy hat, long leather duster jacket, gun belt, and tight fitting jeans. He finished his look off with cowboy boots, and it looked perfectly at home on him. He looked at her with the same devotion as she looked at him with. That moved him up a few notches in my book; anyone who treated Alice great couldn't be all that bad.

Alice jumped up to greet us. The man I assumed to be Jasper stood after her.

"Bella, Rosalie I want you to meet Jasper Whitlock." Her eyes danced with joy and expectation.

He held his hand out and I reached for it first, he took my hand and gently kissed the knuckles. A move you only saw in old westerns, but it made my knees buckle.

"Bella, it's a pleasure to meet you. I have heard so many good things from Alice I feel like I know you already. And you must be Rosalie, great costumes. If only half of the people in here were as original, I think I have seen ten Lady Gaga's alone. That isn't counting all of the Pink's running around here."

He took Rosalie's hand and gave her a kiss as well. "I am sorry that my friends aren't here yet. Emmett should be here shortly he was held up in traffic and Edward will be along later. His shift ran long at the hospital. Won't you all join me until they arrive, can I get you any drinks?"

Wow a real gentleman, exactly what Alice needed. He spoke in a slow, fluid pattern, and man that sexy southern drawl. He might just be the calm to Alice's storm; I could see how they would complement each other well.

Rosalie started towards the dance floor, "No thanks we are going to dance a little before everyone else joins us, Alice you staying?" She knew full well that unless Jasper came to dance there was no way Alice was joining us. She nodded her decline and we stumbled off.

The dance floor was packed, sweaty drunk bodies pressed up against each other all dancing out their worries that the week has left them with. Rosalie and I made our way to the far corner and had a semi clear spot to dance in; we turned towards each other trying to let the guys know that we weren't interested. That usually didn't work with Rosalie around, her beautiful body and blonde hair pulled them in by the truck loads.

Pink's 'So what' just came on and we both were having fun, dancing close to each other and not paying attention to the others around us. When a guy stepped up behind Rosalie and began dancing up against her. She stepped forward and we shifted away from the intruder. He just followed us; Rosalie turned towards him and leaned in to try to talk to him over the music.

"Thanks for the offer, but we are here together and I don't want to hurt her feelings by dancing with you, if you know what I mean." She gave me a wicked smile over her shoulder.

"No problem babe I can handle both of you, bring it on." He slurred at us and a smile took over his distorted face.

"Listen I tried to be nice, but you couldn't have that could you? So now I am going to tell you plain, BACK THE FUCK OFF NOW!" Rosalie was able to handle herself but it always made me unsure when we were surrounded like this. She gave our drunken visitor a slight shove.

"Hey Bitch, what's your problem, you too tough to take a little love from a real man?" He staggered back the few steps to us.

"You need a little help with this one?" The widest man I have ever seen asked Rosalie. She stood staring at our Good Samaritan with her mouth dropped open. He leaned in close and whispered "I'm Emmett, Jasper's friend." And flashed the most amazing smile I had ever seen. I had a feeling we weren't leaving the party anytime soon.

Emmett waited patiently for a response but Rosalie and I were too dumb struck to offer one, so he took control of the situation for us. He turned to our unwelcomed friend grabbed him by the collar and began to force him towards the exit. They had a heated exchange as they walked but we weren't able to hear it over the music and crowd. Emmett returned by himself, he approached Rosalie.

"I'm sorry about that, are you ok?" He leaned in close to her to speak.

"I'm fine; I could have taken care of it myself, but thank you for your intervention." Rosalie responded, I was amazed, usually Rosalie didn't allow this kind of behavior on her behalf. It usually pissed her off even more to have a man assume that she was incapable of taking care of herself, but tonight she was allowing and very thankful for the intervention.

He took her hand and led her back to the table. She had that sick, 'I'm in total love with you' look already and she only met him four minutes ago. What the hell, now I was left waiting to see if Edward was the ugly, nerdy friend that they felt sorry for. Because Jasper and Emmett had the goods, great bodies, good hair, nice muscles, and beautiful faces. Edward had to be as ugly as homemade sin, why me? Why didn't I say no, now there was no way Rosalie or Alice were taking pity on me that I had a date with the ugly one and help me escape early, shit. So much for trying something new, now I was going to pay for allowing Alice to talk me into this shit.

I drank a few too many drinks trying to prepare myself for Edward's arrival. I was convinced that he was ugly, and I would be stuck with him. So I ordered another from the bartender and waited for him to mix it for me.

I turned to see the most beautiful face on the planet sitting about three barstools down from me. He was holding a full Heineken in his hands and trying to look around casually for whomever he was missing. I looked away quickly, sure that he was here with someone, a female someone and he was looking for her.

We made eye contact as the bartender handed me my drink and I slipped him his tip. I picked up my drink and saluted the Sex god three stools down from me and turned to walk away. I knew there was no way he was alone so I left before I could make a fool of myself.

I sat at the table with the two suddenly in love couples and by this point I had drank a lot more than I usually have. Jasper and Alice decided to go and dance, Emmett and Rosalie also joined them. I decided to sit this one out because I wasn't sure I should trust my brain to tell my feet what to do. I leaned my head back on the booth and prayed that Alice and Rosalie took pity on me.

I could hear the group approaching, and I cringed. Alice was especially excited again, and that scared me even more. I just wanted to leave before Edward got here and hope fully save myself. The crowd parted and sure enough there was an extra body, great Edward was here and there was no escape now. I groaned and leaned my head forward on the table.

I felt him slide into the booth beside me, he leaned towards me and whispered "I will help you make your escape in 20 minutes, if I stay any less than that Jasper will ride my ass for not staying, deal?"

Maybe he wasn't so bad after all; at least he was sensible about this.

I slowly picked my head up and turned to greet him. I extended my hand and slowly our eyes met. Recognition kicked in and my mouth fell open. Alice and Rosalie squealed in the background and all other sound ceased to exist.

A slow lazy grin settled on his face and I noticed how inviting his lips are, truly a work of art.

"Bella it a pleasure to meet you, I'm Edward Masen, Jasper's friend, sorry I am so late it was a busy night." He took my hand and shook it, and I felt the warm calloused hands that instantly caused a warm glow to life in the pit of my stomach. The ache started as soon as he pulled his hand away. He slid a little closer and leaned into me again, thank god for loud club music.

"Sorry about the set up, I tried to get out of this but Jasper wouldn't have any of that shit. I hope you don't mind, I am glad to see him happy with Alice. She seems to be great for him. He has talked about her for weeks now, I am glad they get the chance to hang out." He seemed embarrassed about being here. I decided that I wasn't going to be anybody's pity date.

"Look asshole you can go, don't stay on my account, I got my big girl panties on, I can handle it." I placed my hand in the middle of his chest and tried to push past him in the booth, but he was stronger than he looked, so he didn't budge at all. I was sure that was the extra alcohol talking but I couldn't help it, I sat back down and waited until he decided that he was ready to move.

He placed a hand on my arm and began to speak to me. "Bella I am sorry, I didn't mean it like that I was trying to save you. I was going to give you an out if you didn't want to be here. I wasn't sure if I wanted to come but I am glad that I did now. I am sorry, I.. shit I am such asshole." He sighed and his shoulders slumped. He began to slide out of the booth.

I reached out to him and stopped him. "I guess we both came in here with our own expectations and didn't wait to see what the real story was. I'm sorry, why don't we start over? I'm Bella Swan, how are you?" I reached my hand out to him.

"It's my pleasure Bella, I'm Edward Masen. Do you want to dance?" He asked as he began to pull himself and me along with him towards the dance floor.

Edward's POV

I walked to my car, dead tired and really not feeling this costume party, good thing I could go as a Doctor and not have to bother with a silly costume. I did want a beer and there were none at my apartment so maybe I would stay a few minutes. I texted Emmett to see if he was at the club yet and if so what was I walking into.

Em-

Please tell me they are easy on the eyes!

E

I tapped the key lock button on my phone and started my car. I loved my new car; I thought it was as sexy as you could get with metal in mind, an Audi R8 in Midnight Blue. I felt the cars power vibrate in the driver's seat when I pushed the clutch in and pushed it in first gear and sped off towards the club.

A few minutes later Emmett responded to my text, I wasn't sure if the delay was good or bad. I tapped the screen and it showed me the new text message.

Eddie

Hurry I think Im in luv!

Em

Well at least one was good looking and Emmett had already taken her, so I could only cross my fingers. Usually there is one ugly step sister and I had the feeling by being the late comer she was now my date. Oh well at least I got a beer and then I could beg off and go home to sleep. Jasper always understood the long hours I worked.

I pulled up to the club and pulled up for valet to park the car. I grabbed my stethoscope and stepped out and gave the usual warning stare that every guy understands to mean 'scratch it and I kill you' and walked towards the bouncer.

"Edward Masen, guest of Jasper Whitlock." I offered.

He nodded and opened the door, and I walked into the loud, dark, smoky club. Jasper better appreciate this, the things you will do for a friend.

I immediately went to the bar and sat on a stool, when the bartender approached I asked for a Heineken. He sat it down in front of me and I slipped him enough for the beer and a tip.

I glanced around the room trying to find Jasper in this mess of people. I was hoping that him or Emmett were dancing, being as tall as they were sometimes it is easy to spot them on the dance floor. I scanned the dance floor and no such luck.

I felt the weird feeling you get when someone is staring at you so I looked around again, this time closer to me. I noticed her at the far left end of the bar, damn she was beautiful. She had a heart shaped face with large brown eyes, big beautiful suck-able lips that were painted blood red. Her hair was hidden under this short black and white wig with small amount of red at the crown. She wore the shortest skirt in the history of skirts with a large amount of tan thigh peeking out between the skirt and her black and white striped thigh high socks.

I was sure my mouth was standing open as I held my beer half way to my mouth. I did the only thing a man could do I started scanning the dance floor again, trying to look like I wasn't perving on her.

When I glanced back in her direction she was gone. I stood up and started walking towards the perimeter of the room where the booths were placed; maybe they were in a booth. I was about half way around the room when I saw Emmett stand up and lead a stunning blonde out on to the dance floor, followed by Jasper and whom I assumed to be Alice. I headed towards them. I was stopped by a tight grip on my forearm.

"I think I need a doctor's attention, could you help me?" She giggled and leaned in close to me. She reeked of alcohol. I was sure she was way past her limit, and wouldn't remember any help I gave her.

I decided to play it cool, "Sure would you like me to call you a cab?" I asked with all of the skills of an award winning actor.

"Asshole" She spat and walked or rather tripped away from me. I shrugged to her friend and turned to walk away.

I saw Emmett walking back towards the booths so I followed. When I reached Jasper I tapped him on the shoulder and asked "May I have a dance with your beautiful date here?"

He chuckled and grabbed me into a big hug and clapped me on the back. He stepped back and pulled Alice close to his side and wrapped his arm around her waist.

"Edward Masen, Alice Brandon, Alice, Edward. It's about time you got here; I thought you were ditching us."

I turned to Alice and shook her hand; she was looking me over while Jasper talked to me. I saw her out of the corner of my eye; she must be sizing me up for her friend. I smiled my most sincere smile and hoped it was enough.

Emmett and Rosalie noticed that Jasper and Alice were no longer with them and they returned to see what the holdup was. Emmett threw out his fist for a knuckle bump, and I responded with my own knuckles. He introduced Rosalie and I took her hand and shook it. She sized me up in a more obvious way, and gave a small smile when she reached my face again. I wasn't sure if I passed or if she was just drunk.

They all turned back for the booth and filed in. Rosalie slid in first, Emmett next, Jasper and then Alice, that left no more room. I moved over to the other open end of the booth, beside the other unknown partier. She had her head down on the table and all I could see was a mass of long dark curls, her tell tale wig thrown into the middle of the large table. She stiffened when she felt me slide in beside her, guessing my identity.

"I will help you make your escape in 20 minutes, any less than that and Jasper will ride my ass for not staying, deal?" I was hoping I was coming across correctly; she seemed less into this than I was. I wanted her to know that I wouldn't force anything on her.

She slowly raised her head up and scanned the other occupants of the booth and then turned to look at me. I was stunned, she was the beautiful angel at the bar looking me over, and she was even more beautiful up close. I spoke before my voice and all other conscious thought left me. "Bella it is a pleasure to meet you, I'm Edward Masen, Jasper's friend, sorry I am so late it was a busy night." I raised my hand to offer it to her, and she took my hand in hers. It was pure silk, her skin was so soft.

I noticed that she had on a red corset and it showed off her perfect collar bones and long graceful neck. I longed to lean in and brush my lips along those collar bones and follow her neck up.

I leaned in slightly before I could stop myself so I leaned in further and spoke quietly to her to cover up my mistake. "Sorry about the set up, I tried to get out of this but Jasper wouldn't have any of that shit. I hope you don't mind, I am glad to see him happy with Alice. She seems to be great for him. He has talked about her for weeks now, I am glad they get the chance to hang out."

Her face tensed and she leaned away from me quickly. She looked pissed off, what did I say; all I could think about was how wonderful she smelled. I wasn't sure what came out of my mouth so I wasn't sure how to fix whatever I said.

She placed her hand in my chest and began pushing. "Look asshole you can go, don't stay on my account, I got my big girl panties on, and I can handle it."

Oh shit, I guess I needed to fix this fast or she was out of here and there was no way I was going to get to know her if she left here pissed off at me. Think and think fast, you are supposed to be good under pressure well here is pressure and she is trying to leave you.

I placed my hand over hers and began to rub small circles on her wrist. I decided that honesty was the best policy. "Bella I am sorry, I didn't mean it like that, I was trying to save you. I was going to give you an out if you didn't want to be here. I wasn't sure if I wanted to come but I am glad that I did now. I am sorry, I.. shit I am such asshole." I slid out of the booth and before I could stand up to make room for her she grabbed my arm.

"I guess we both came in here with our own expectations and didn't wait to see what the real story was. I'm sorry, why don't we start over? I'm Bella Swan, how are you?" She smiled at me and I sat back down beside her. She reached her hand out again and I shook it.

"It's my pleasure Bella, I'm Edward Masen. Do you want to dance?" I turned her hand in mine and began pulling her from the booth towards the dance floor. I wanted to be closer to her and see her move her beautiful body.

I stopped when we reached the middle of the dance floor and turned to Bella. I pulled her close to me and we began moving to the music. She felt even better than I thought she would in my arms. I needed to have her closer to me, so I pulled her in and began whispering into her ear. Hoping that was a good cover for our close proximity.

"So Bella tell me about yourself." I hoped that I came across in the right amounts of sexy and not creepy.

"I live here in Seattle, I am currently in the middle of my Master's degree and I work for a small publishing company. I help edit books and provide feedback to the authors. I have lived in Washington for a while and I have been friends with Rose and Alice most of my life. I guess that is all there is to tell." And she bit her bottom lip between her perfect teeth. I had to stop myself from leaning in and kissing her until she let her lip go and I could suck it into my mouth to taste her. I let out a small groan.

"What about you Edward, what's your story?" She asked as she looked up at me from under her long eyelashes. I was hooked, that quick, she was beautiful in a pure form. She wasn't over done, she was a natural beauty.

"Well I am in my second year of residency at Seattle Grace hospital. I work terrible hours and I sleep very little. I have lived here for about 6 years now and I have also been best friends with Em and Jazz since we were in grade school, actually first grade." She moved her hand up on my chest and I hoped she couldn't feel my heart pounding in my chest.

We talked and danced for who knows how long. Time had little meaning when I was looking in Bella's eyes. We finally decided to go back to the booth and get another drink.

Emmett and Rosalie were gone when we got there, but Jasper and Alice were curled up together talking.

"Hey Edward I thought you two took off, we haven't seen you for several hours." Jasper raised his eyebrow at me as he spoke.

"No we were just dancing and getting to know one another. Where is Emmett and Rosalie?" I asked.

"They left about 20 minutes after you got here, something about having to get up early and Emmett offered Rosalie a ride home. Then Alice got a text saying don't wait up for her so I take it they decided to stay up late and not worry about tomorrow. Speaking of which I was thinking of taking off myself, since I rode with some of the guys from work, Alice was going to give me a ride home. Do you think you could give Bella a ride home for me?" Man he was not subtle at all.

"If that is ok with Bella I would be glad to." I turned to look at her and she was biting her lower lip in between her teeth again. Alice grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the booth.

"We are going to use the ladies room to powder our noses, we will be right back." Alice said sweetly as she drug Bella off towards the bathrooms.

I looked at Jasper and he just shrugged his shoulders at me. I smirked at him, I knew exactly how the conversation would go, something like this 'Bella I need to get laid, please ride home with Edward so I can jump Jasper's bones' and being the good girlfriend she is she will give in and allow me to drive her home. Which played into my plan exactly, because I would like a little alone time with Bella myself, I wasn't sure if she was a 'go all the way on the first time we meet girl', but I was hoping she was. All of her tanned soft skin I had been touching and smelling all night was enough to push any man over the edge.

Bella and Alice showed back up and Alice motioned to Jasper. She had apparently gotten Bella to see her side of the story, so Jasper rose and gave Bella a small hug goodbye. Bella then turned to Alice and they hugged and whispered something to each other, when Alice released Bella I turned to her and gave her a small hug as well.

"It was nice to meet you Alice, thanks for the great evening. I am glad I came." I was genuinely happy at how this evening turned out. How could I not be, each of us had ended up with three smoking hot women and they all three appeared happy to be with us.

Jasper clapped me on the back and said "Breakfast as usual tomorrow morning?" I nodded and they walked off.

Bella was still standing so I asked her "Are you ready to go?"She nodded. I took her hand and lead her towards the door.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and I grabbed it quickly. I was praying that it wasn't the hospital, I had worked my required 24 hours and there was no way I was leaving Bella to go back to that hell hole tonight.

I unlocked the screen and tapped it to show me the text, it was from Jasper.

E

We are heading back to A's, any chance you could talk B into going home with you?

Let me know, if the coast is clear.

J

I turned to hand the slip to the valet and wait for my car to be brought around. Bella shivered and I was sorry that I didn't wear my jacket or even a lab coat for her to put on. I really wanted her covered up anyway, all those valets looking her over was just about to push me over the edge. I stepped closer and rubbed my hands up and down her arms. "Are you cold?" I asked her.

"Yeah, this seemed like a great idea earlier but not so much now." She motioned towards the costume and then chuckled.

I pulled her close and wrapped my arms around her. I took the opportunity when she huddled close to my chest to lean in and smell her hair. It smelled exactly like I imagined the sun would smell when it warms your skin.

The valet arrived with my car and I opened the door for Bella to climb in. She looked amazing climbing into my car with her long legs, short skirt and those high heels. I couldn't take my eyes off of that small amount of thigh showing between her skirt and thigh highs. I walked around the car, handed the valet his tip and slid in beside Bella. I buckled my seat belt and slid the car in gear.

As we left Twilight's parking lot I cleared my throat and turned to ask Bella the important question. "Bella I got a text from Jasper, he would like to go back to your apartment with Alice and wants to know if you will be home tonight? I can take you home or you are welcome to stay at my place with me. I have a guest room that has only been used once, so you will have a comfortable place to sleep." I glanced at her out of the corner of my eye, hoping that came out right. I sat anxiously waiting; I really wanted Bella to come home with me. I would love for us to end up in my bed, but even if that didn't happen I wasn't ready for this night to end with her.

"Hell no I don't want to go home if they are heading there, Alice is fucking loud and she likes it for hours. I won't get any sleep if we head over there so I guess your place wins." I threw my head back and laughed out loud at Bella's honesty and her words. When the word fuck came out of her mouth I knew that I wanted to hear her say that again. It made my dick hard instantly and I wanted to make her say that just before she came, and soon.

I grabbed my phone up from the console and tapped out a quick text to Jasper.

J

Bella is staying with me, we'll see how this goes,

Alice likes it loud and for hours, go get her!

E

It was hard concentrating on driving with Bella and all the skin that was exposed in my car. I felt like my dick was going to explode and my head was swimming. I couldn't wait to get back to my place and take her inside and hopefully to bed.

I reached over and ran the back of my fingers over her cheek and down her neck. She leaned in to my fingers. "Bella have I told you how beautiful you are, if I didn't I am sorry."

"No big surprise for you to say that tonight, I am dressed like a slutty angel." She laughed nervously. "I usually don't dress like this, I think Alice was trying to help me out but sometimes I wish she would leave me alone." She appeared embarrassed by her costume now that we were alone.

"Bella don't be silly you are beautiful and it has nothing to do with that costume. Sure it helps me see how sexy your body is, but you are beautiful without any of the help that so many women need now days." I was honest with her; she was beautiful in every way.

"Edward, I uh, umm, thanks." She replied.

I would have given any amount of money in the world to know what she was thinking right now. To know how she felt about me. Were we moving too fast? I wanted more with Bella not just a night of pleasure, although I am sure that any night spent with her would give me just that, lots and lots of pleasure.

I was saved from anymore awkward conversations as I pulled into the parking garage of my building. I parked in my space and came around to open Bella's door. I took her hand and helped her out of the car and I was rewarded with a peek at her black lacy boy shorts. Sure I had been peeking at them all night from behind her, but now I was able to see the front. I wanted to drop down on my knees and bury my head in her lace encased pussy, right here in the parking garage. I was hard again, and that shit was hard to hide in scrubs.

I took her hand and led her into the elevator with me. When the doors closed I turned to her and placed my hand on her face, fanning it out so that it covered her cheek and down her neck. I wanted to touch as much of her as possible. I leaned in to whisper into her ear "Bella can I kiss you?"

She nodded at me and bit her lip in between her teeth again. I was finally going to get my fantasy. I leaned in and slowly stroked my thumb across her imprisoned lip. I gently tugged downward on her lip until she released it and when she did I stepped forward and sucked it into my mouth. She opened her mouth for me and moaned the sexiest moan from deep in her throat. She stepped closer to me and wrapped her hands around my neck. Her body was pressing against me from our knees on up. I moved my hand from her cheek down to her waist. I could feel her warm skin in the small sliver that was exposed between her skirt and her top; it was more than I could take right then. I pulled my mouth away from her and kissed down her neck, rubbing small circles on her perfect waist.

The elevator bell rang signaling that we had arrived on my floor. I pulled away from Bella and took her hand in mine as we exited the elevator. We walked down the short hallway to my apartment in silence. I glanced at her out of the corner of my eye to make sure I hadn't freaked her out. She had a happy smile on her face so I assumed she was fine.

When we reached my door I pulled out my key and opened it and motioned her in first. I walked through the door and placed my keys on the hall table where they always go, and slipped my shoes off. Bella followed my lead and reached down to take her heels off. I grabbed her hand to stop her. "You don't have to do that, I just take off the ones that I have worn around the hospital. I can't stand the idea of walking bare footed around on the same floor I walked on with these shoes, you know?"

She placed her hand on my shoulder for support and said "It's ok, I want to. I have been wearing these things for too many hours; it will feel great to have them off." She pulled them both off and placed them on the floor beside my old hospital sneakers. They looked real good on my floor.

"You hungry?" I asked her trying to distract myself and not take her against the wall in my foyer. I'm sure that would be hot, but not the impression I wanted to make with Bella.

"No, I am good. We had some fried greasy food before we got to the club and a few appetizers while we were at the club waiting for you, but you can eat if you want to, don't let me stop you." She followed me through the apartment. I was shutting all the blinds. She would stop to look at things here or there, usually pictures I had displayed. I love taking pictures and I had lots of them around to remind me why I was taking on this crazy lifestyle I had now. So later when it mattered I could dictate my schedule and enjoy more of my life.

I ended in the living room and I sat down on the couch, and she sat facing me. She tried to tuck the short skirt around her legs, but it just wasn't long enough to cover her.

"Would you like a t shirt and some boxers to sleep in?" She nodded and I headed off to my room to get her something to sleep in. I was disappointed that she would be wearing anything, but I held that in. I stopped at my dresser and opened the top drawer; I pulled out a pair of boxer shorts, opened the second drawer and pulled out a t shirt, and then opened the next drawer and pulled out a pair of sweats for me. I turned to walk back into the living room to give the clothes to Bella to find her standing against the door frame watching me.

I handed her the clothes and turned to walk into my bathroom. I turned on the light and left the door open. I pulled my scrub top over my head and threw it in the hamper; I pulled the string that held the bottoms up and looked up to meet Bella's eyes. She moved into my room and sat down on the bed. She held my gaze without looking away or embarrassed, so I pushed the scrubs down and stepped out of them. I pulled my socks off and threw all the clothes in the hamper, and closed it. I stepped back into the sweats and walked back out to my room, turning out the bathroom light.

That left the bedroom in partial shadows because I had not bothered to turn a light on when I went in, the hall light was enough for me. Now I was glad that I left it off, seeing Bella in the dim hall light was so perfect. I sat down on the bed beside her, and took in a deep breath.

"Bella, I am going to be honest with you, ok? I want to undress you and climb into this bed and make love for hours to you. But I need to know that is ok with you, I know this is moving kind of fast and if you want to slow it down now is the time. Because I am only human and once you get in this bed I am not going to be strong enough to let you go, so you have to tell me what you want here." I looked deep into her eyes waiting to see the doubt or fear; instead I saw excitement and joy. She gave a slight nod to me.

"Bella is that a yes, you got to say it out loud for me, so there is no confusion." I pleaded with my words and my eyes, hoping she was just as caught up as I was.

"Yes Edward." My name came out as a moan from her mouth and I reached over and pulled her in for another hard kiss, how could someone I knew for only a few hours get under my skin so easily? I needed her more than I have ever needed anyone, usually girls threw themselves at me and I enjoyed them and never looked back. Don't get me wrong I wasn't jumping in bed with every woman I saw, either way none of them affected me the way Bella did. I couldn't leave this room right now if it was on fire, falling in around us or any other natural disaster was occurring. All I could do right now is enjoy the feel of Bella under my fingertips, under my mouth and against my skin. Just Bella she is all that exists right now.

Bella's POV

I saw Edward reach for his phone and read a text message, smiling briefly and sliding it back in to his pocket. He didn't comment on the text so I assumed that it was from work.

I shivered slightly, trying to hide my skin and the chills that the night air had left there. Edward walked over to me "Are you cold?" He asked and began rubbing his hands up and down my arms trying to warm them. He didn't have a coat to offer so I guess he was doing everything he could to help. I couldn't wait for the car to arrive, first to see what kind of car he drove, second because it will get me out of this cold air, and lastly to get me away from these super creepy valets looking me over.

"Yeah, this seemed like a great idea earlier but not so much now." I motioned towards the costume and then chuckled.

When the valet pulled up with the most beautiful Audi R8 I wanted to drop down on the seat, throw my legs open and begin stroking my pussy for Edward. I was so wet and I needed some relief, it was hard on us women when we suffered from sexual frustration, we weren't immune to that like guys though we were.

I slid into the car when Edward opened the door for me, making sure that my skirt slid up a little higher for him to see more of my thighs, I noticed his eyes drifting there often during the course of the evening, I was pretty sure that he wanted to see more of them.

He buckled his seat belt and cleared his throat and turned to face me. "Bella I got a text from Jasper, he would like to go back to your apartment with Alice and wants to know if you will be home tonight? I can take you home or you are welcome to stay at my place with me. I have a guest room that has only been used once, so you will have a comfortable place to sleep."

I had to forcefully restrain myself from giving a fist pump in the air, I would play a little hard to get but oh yes I wanted to end up in Edward Masen's apartment tonight and hopefully in his bed.

"Hell no I don't want to go home if they are heading there, Alice is fucking loud and she likes it for hours. I won't get any sleep if we head over there so I guess your place wins." I wanted him to know I was used to using and hearing words like fuck often. So he would know that I liked a good hard fuck against the wall and dirty talk while he was giving it to me. Please tell me the good Doctor could talk dirty, please.

He threw his head back and laughed a sexy throaty laugh at my comment, I am sure he has had to live with at least one 'loud sex' roommate somewhere along the way. So he should understand, Alice and Jasper would keep me up for hours and I didn't want to listen to anyone else getting good sex if I wasn't so Edward's place it was.

He grabbed his phone and tapped out a quick text to Jasper I assume because he never asked for directions to my place.

He reached over and ran the back of his fingers over my cheek and down my neck. I leaned in to his fingers; he hand felt so warm and caused shivers to run down my spine. "Bella have I told you how beautiful you are, if I didn't I am sorry." He whispered to me.

"No big surprise for you to say that tonight, I am dressed like a slutty angel." I laughed nervously. "I usually don't dress like this, I think Alice was trying to help me out but sometimes I wish she would leave me alone." I was embarrassed by my costume now that we were alone, I didn't want him to think that I was some kind of a slut that went out half dressed and tried to hook up with the first guy she could.

"Bella don't be silly you are beautiful and it has nothing to do with that costume. Sure it helps me see how sexy your body is, but you are beautiful without any of the help that so many women need now days." I think I just came in my underwear without the first touch from Edward at all. How did he have this power over me, I am sure this will be a problem when I can think straight, but now I just wanted to feel him pressing into me.

"Edward, I uh, umm, thanks." That was the only coherent thought I could force out of my brain.

He turned into the parking garage of his building and parked in a spot close to the elevator. He got out and came to open my door; he extended his hand and helped me out of the car. I rewarded him with a small peek at my black lacy boy shorts and my wet pussy below them. I felt his hands trace the lace edge across my ass earlier when we were on the dance floor; I closed my eyes and imagined him removing them with his teeth.

I followed him to the elevator and when the doors closed he leaned in towards me. I could feel his breath on my cheek, while his other hand was splayed open covering my cheek and down to my neck.

Just his touch alone was making me lightheaded. He leaned in again to whisper into my ear "Bella can I kiss you?"

I nodded and bit my lip between my teeth to keep from moaning out loud. He slowly stroked his thumb across my lip. He gently tugged downward on it until I released it and when I did he stepped forward and sucked it into his mouth. I opened my mouth for him and moaned from deep in my throat right into his mouth. He increased the pressure on my mouth and I stepped closer to him and wrapped my hands around his neck.

Our bodies were pressed against each other causing sparks to ignite all over my body. He moved his hand from my cheek and slid it down to my waist. I could feel his rough hand touching my stomach right between the skimpy skirt and my top; it was more than I could take right then.

My knees went weak and I knew this was definitely going to be the most sexually satisfying experience I had ever had.

He pulled his mouth away and began kissing down my neck, barely missing the spot right behind my ear that causes me to moan every time and all the while he was rubbing small circles on my waist. I was losing consciousness; I felt lightheaded and dizzy from the intense sensations, and I couldn't think at all, thank god he was a doctor and could revive me if I passed out.

I heard the elevator bell ring to signal we had arrived at his floor; he took my hand and led me out into the hallway. I saw his massive erection and was pleased to see he was just as bothered by our elevator encounter as I was. He stopped a few doors down and placed his key in the lock, opened the door and motioned for me to step in. He stopped and removed his tennis shoes at the door and dropped his keys in a dish on the hall table.

I followed in his lead and began reaching for my shoes as well. I felt his hand on my arm to stop me, maybe that was a fantasy of his sex with the heels on. I wasn't opposed to trying it.

"You don't have to do that, I just take off the ones that I have worn around the hospital. I can't stand the idea of walking bare footed around on the same floor I walked on with these shoes, you know?"

I shuddered slightly to think of all the gross stuff he must come across in the hospital.

I placed my hand on his shoulder for support and said "It's ok, I want to. I have been wearing these things for too many hours; it will feel great to have them off." I slid them both off and placed them on the floor beside his worn sneakers. I had to stop myself from giving a little squeal when I saw our shoes together on the floor in his entryway, it was so cheesy but I liked the sight.

"You hungry?" He asked.

"No, I am good. We had some fried greasy food before we got to the club and a few appetizers while we were at the club waiting for you, but you can eat if you want to, don't let me stop you."

I followed him through the apartment trying to see how he lived. Everything was in it's place but not in a cold sterile way, it looked lived in and cozy. He had eclectic furniture pieces but they all went together well, and framed photos all over the house.

I glanced at each of them and was struck by the fun honesty in the faces I saw in there. Many were of him, Emmett and Jasper enjoying camping, hiking, and whitewater rafting. I was struck by the feeling that he was a person that could complete the missing part of my life.

I walked along the back of the large brown sofa, and ran my hand along the cool leather. I could imagine what it would feel like pressed against my stomach as Edward took me from behind; I shook my head to clear my thoughts and come back to the present. I walked around the couch and sat down across from Edward, I tried to cover myself with my nonexistent skirt, but that wasn't working.

"Would you like a t shirt and some boxers to sleep in?" He asked and rose when I nodded at him. I followed him down the hall to his room, he never bothered to turn on the light when he entered and I watched his back ripple as he moved his muscles opening and closing drawers getting me something to sleep in. I leaned against the doorjamb like I had seen Marilyn Monroe do once in a movie, I hoped it was as sexy as she made the move seem.

He turned to walk out of the room and caught my eye. He stopped short and we just stared at each other, each one waiting for the other to make the first move. I could hear his staggered breathing and could feel the sexual tension in the air. It crackled like small bolts of lightning and lit up the air.

He walked over and handed me the clothes and turned to walk into his bathroom. He turned on the light and left the door open. I watched as he pulled his shirt over his head and threw it in the hamper; He pulled the string that held the bottoms up and looked up to meet my eyes.

I couldn't look away, I wasn't sure what was happening between us, but whatever it was I wanted it.

I didn't trust my voice so I simply moved to sit on the bed, and watched him push the scrubs down and stepped out of them, and stepped back into the sweats. He had the most amazing underwear, small, black and tight fitting.

He turned out the bathroom light, and stalked towards me. He sat beside me and took a deep breath.

"Bella, I am going to be honest with you, ok? I want to undress you and climb into this bed and make love for hours to you. But I need to know that is ok with you, I know this is moving kind of fast and if you want to slow it down now is the time. Because I am only human and once you get in this bed I am not going to be strong enough to let you go, so you have to tell me what you want here."

I was overwhelmed, never had I been with a man who gave a rat's ass what I wanted; they usually wanted one thing, sex and lots of it. They never cared if they were moving too fast, Edward's thoughtfulness made me want to say yes all the more. I knew he would be a caring sensitive lover and besides I saw his obvious erection earlier. I knew he was going to take me places I had never been before, so I nodded.

"Bella is that a yes, you got to say it out loud for me, so there is no confusion." He pleaded with his eyes and his words. I couldn't say no to him, no matter what he was asking me for, and no matter if this meant a broken heart later. Now was all that mattered and he wanted me right now.

"Yes Edward."

He pulled me in for a kiss, and then he stood up and pulled me with him. He turned my body around to face the door. He dropped to his knees and slowly slid my thigh highs down my legs placing kisses all along the newly exposed flesh. I stepped out of the first thigh high and he repeated the process for the second one. When both were removed he began placing kisses up my legs right to the edge on my skirt, and then he stood up. He pulled my hair over to one shoulder and leaned in to sniff it.

"Bella you smell amazing, what kind of perfume do you wear?" He whispered, his breathe tickling the spots where he placed open mouth kisses.

"None, I do have several kinds of lotion that I use, I can't remember what I used tonight, sorry." I responded, my brain barely able to remember my name at this moment.

His hands slid down the back of the corset I wore and he untied the satin ribbon, and began unlacing it. I held the front to my breasts in preparation for when he had it completely untied. He dropped the ribbon to the floor and slid his hands inside the corset and around to my stomach.

I felt my muscles tighten with the warm sensations his fingertips sent along my skin. He flattened his hands to my skin and slid them up to cup each of my breasts. I let go of the corset and it fell to the floor. I reached up and placed my hands over his, and groaned when he flicked my hard nipples. I threw my head back and held his hands to my sensitive nipples. He twisted and pulled on them stoking the slow building fire in my stomach into a roaring blaze.

His hand left my breasts to pull the skirt past my hips and allowed it to drop down my legs and I stepped out of it and kicked it across the room. He again dropped to his knees and placed kisses along my waist line and down over my lace covered ass. He then pulled them down in a swift motion and kissed me again along the back of my thighs. I could feel the moisture flood to my pussy and I was on fire. I needed his touch in any way he wanted to give it to me, I just needed to feel his skin touching me.

"Bella place your knees up on the bed for me." He whispered right into my ear, his voice low and throaty.

I moved closer and placed each knee on the bed, and Edward's hand ran up the inside of each thigh, stopping right before he reached the spot I wanted to feel him most. He nudged each thigh out a little until I was in the right position and then he dropped to his knees. His height allowed him to be able to reach his face right into my core on his knees and I dropped down onto my forearms trying to see his next move. The anticipation was almost as good as the touches, almost.

He was close enough that I could feel his breath on me and closed my eyes waiting to feel his lips instead. He rewarded my patience, and leaned in to place a gentle kiss on my wet outer lips. I gasped and leaded into him. I felt his smile on my sensitive skin and he opened his mouth and licked me with his flat tongue. He started at my clit and licked until he reached my opening and then placed his tongue inside me, deep inside me. I instinctively leaned into him again, and I bit down on the comforter moaning into it. He continued licking me up and down always stopping to apply pressure on my clit, causing it to swell and pulse with desire. His hands spread me open and he licked me again from my clit to my opening. He leaned back and whispered "Don't move". He stood and left the edge of the bed, I heard him moving around in the closet and he returned. He slid his sweat pants and underwear down and dropped back down on to his knees.

I heard the vibrator turn on and felt him place it against my clit. He reached up with his other hand and slid a finger inside me, then added another finger.

"Fuck Edward, oh my god." I bit down on the comforter again to keep from screaming out his name.

I felt the tension building as he pumped his fingers in and out of me.

"Bella, come for me baby, you are so tight I need you to be real wet so I can slide in."He leaned forward so I could feel his hard on pressed against my ass while his fingers slid in and out and the vibrator pulsed against my clit. All of the sensations were closing in on me and I felt the pull in my stomach reach out and drag me over the edge.

"EDDWAARD, ahh!" Was the only sound that would escape my lips, it was hard to vocalize the explosion that took place on the inside of me, colors, sounds and sensations were indescribable.

I felt my knees give way and Edward's hand pull me back up. He dropped the vibrator to the floor and stepped in to my still open thighs. His hand traveled down my sweat covered back causing shivers to follow after his hands.

He placed the head of his cock at my entrance and slowly pushed in, inch by exquisite inch he slid in until he was all the way in. I felt my body swell at the feeling of him inside me, more than a sexual feeling, more of a feeling of finding what I never knew I was looking for. I closed my eyes and slid my ass towards him slightly to encourage him to begin the dance between our bodies.

Edward pulled all the way out before pushing back in, each time I felt my body open for him and him pushing on all the right spots with his body.

He reached over and moved my left leg forward a little, and caused my body to tighten on him as he pushed in again. I gasped and felt the room begin to spin. My body pulled me higher and begged for him to continue to push me towards the release I wanted, again.

His hands placed on my ass, he slipped his thumbs down on my outer lips and pulled them open just as he slammed back into me again. That was the last push I needed.

No words this time only sounds came out as I came.

"Oooh, ungh."

"Bella" he whispered into my back as he spilled into me.

He slid out of me and grabbed the blankets and threw them back for us to climb in together. "Stay with me tonight Bella, please." He asked, and I nodded.

He pulled me up to the pillows with him and wrapped his arms around me.

He kissed me on the forehead and whispered "Sleep my love, you deserve it. Sweet Bella sleep."

And I drifted off wrapped in his arms, immediately.

I slept the rest of the night, no dreams, no moving, just deep peaceful sleep.

And I woke up at 9 feeling like I had rested for two days, and not just a few hours.

I twisted to see Edward's face, and he was staring at me.

"How long have you been awake?" I asked him embarrassed that he was watching me, I knew I talked in my sleep so I was also afraid of what I might have said.

"Just a few minutes, how did you sleep?"

"Wonderfully, what about you, surely you must still be exhausted after a 24 hour shift and then dancing and sex last night. You can go back to sleep if you want I will catch a cab home." I bit my lip hoping he would notice and realize that this was not what I really wanted to do today.

"I have a better idea Bella, why don't we shower and I will drive you home, you can change and I will take you to breakfast with me and the boys. How does that sound?" He threw both hands behind his head and I stared at his muscled chest, unsure if this was a good idea. I didn't want to ruin the tradition; I knew how important our girl traditions were to us three. I contemplated a little too long because Edward started talking again.

"Come on you know Jasper is going to bring Alice, so you two will have something to talk about, us." He laughed and began tickling me.

"Ok, I will go if you stop tickling me. What time are we supposed to meet them there?" I glanced at the clock.

"In about 30 minutes so let's get a move on Bella." And he slapped my bare ass as he jumped up and ran to the shower.

We showered in no time, I had to promise Edward shower sex next time so he would just shower right now. I was jumping up and down on the inside at the possibility of a next time with Edward.

I put on his t shirt and boxers and gathered my clothes from last night. We made our way down to his car, and in no time we were at my apartment. I went in and called for Alice, no answer. She was gone and so was Jasper, no sign of Rosalie either.

Edward followed me into my room and watched me pull out a clean bra and pair of matching underwear. Black lace with pink satin underneath, and the underwear tied on the sides with a pink satin ribbon.

He smiled at these and leaned back on my bed to watch me pull them on. I grabbed a pink t shirt and a pair of simple jean shorts. I pulled my hair into a pony tail and slipped on some flip flops. I brushed my teeth and walked back into the bedroom.

I grabbed Edward's hand and pulled him up off of the bed.

We locked the front door and left the apartment. We were going to be about 10 minutes late, but all in all not too bad all things considered.

He parked and came around to open my door for me. I took his hand and stepped out of the car, I glanced around the parking lot and didn't see Alice's car and I got nervous. What if I was the only girl here, I didn't want that.

Edward noticed my hesitation and pulled me along. "It will be fine Bella, I promise." He smiled.

"How many other girls have you brought to this breakfast?" I asked him, knowing that I really didn't want to know the answer but I couldn't hold the words in.

He opened the door for the diner and answered "None, you're the first."

I met his eyes and begged the tears to not slip out.

"Bella!" I turned at my name being shouted, and saw Rosalie and Alice both sitting at a table with Jasper and Emmett, all four looking very satisfied and very sleepy.

"Bella Swan, who knew you had it in you, going home with a man on the first date." Alice teased.

"Well if it isn't Beauty and the Beast, want to tell us why the two of you are so late this morning? You know we meet at 10 am sharp, Mr. Masen, why are you late?" Emmett chided Edward as he bumped knuckles in greeting; Edward turned to Jasper to repeat the gesture.

"Because a certain asstard and his beautiful girlfriend left Bella stranded at my house without any clothes to wear this morning, so we had to run by her house to grab her something better than my boxers and t shirt to wear to eat." He smiled a grin that indicated he really wasn't put out by this little inconvience at all. I elbowed him in the ribs, and he grabbed me and pulled me close and kissed my temple.

Alice and Rosalie both noticed the gesture and raised an eyebrow at me. I just shrugged my shoulders and sat beside Edward. He slid his chair closer to mine and we all ordered breakfast.

After a few hours of eating, laughing, and having a great time Alice suggested we head over to the water park since it was an unseasonable warm day. We all agreed.

I rode back to our apartment with Rosalie and Alice to gather our stuff. Emmett, Jasper and Edward all took separate cars to their apartments to do the same. A little while later all three guys showed up at our apartment in Emmett's jeep. We all piled in and we headed off to the water park.

After a day at the Water Park we all had lots of fun. Edward, Jasper and Emmett were the perfect complement to us girls, strong enough to not get lost, but not so strong that they outshined us either. As a group we were just about perfect.

We were all quiet on the way home, tired from our late night and busy day.

I leaned against Edward's shoulder and closed my eyes, as I drifted off to sleep I had a thought that I just had to ask him then.

"Edward" I whispered in his ear.

"Yes love" He whispered back to me.

"Where did you get a vibrator? They are usually a girl's toy, not many guys have one lying around."

He chuckled and said"Gag gift from Jasper for last year's birthday, first time I have used it I swear!"

"Oh ok, I was wondering." He kissed me on the head and I closed my eyes again.

He gently shook me awake when we arrived at my apartment. We all climbed out of the jeep and headed upstairs. Edward followed me into my bedroom where I dropped my bag of stuff. I turned to walk out and ran right into his chest; he was closer than I thought.

"Bella come back to my place with me again tonight please. I have off tomorrow and then I will work three days straight, and I can't imagine not seeing you tonight and tomorrow. Did you have any plans?"

"No I didn't usually we take it easy on Sunday and just clean, or hang out. I guess I can miss out on that here, if you promise to feed me. Jasper tells me you are a great cook, so you must promise to cook for me."

"Deal, anything you want. Why don't we ask the others to come over for dinner with us?" We sounded like an old married couple already.

We walked back into the living room to see the other two couples snuggled up watching a movie.

"Hey I am going to stay with Edward tonight, but we wanted you all to come and eat dinner with us tomorrow, say about 5, Edward is cooking."

"Dude only if you make that pasta with shrimp and cream sauce." Emmett was suddenly interested in tomorrow's plans.

"Sure, if that is what you want." Edward shrugged.

Jasper and Alice nodded their approval, and I headed off to my room to pack a bag this time for the stay.

No sooner than I stepped foot in my bedroom Rosalie and Alice came thundering in and slammed the door shut.

"Spill it Isabella Marie Swan, you know you have details we want. What the hell, now you and Edward are spending the night together and making dinner for all of us? What the hell happened last night?" Alice squealed.

"Ssshh" Rosalie and I both signaled at the same time.

"Do you want them to hear us in here or what, bet you five bucks they are all listening at the door? Keep it down Alice, now Bella spill it." Rosalie commanded.

"Nothing happened, well actually something, he is amazing. Sex is out of this world and that is not all. He is so thoughtful and caring, so different from all the other guys I have ever been with. This is moving so fast, we just met last night but I feel like I can't breathe when we are apart. When he asked me to stay with him tonight I couldn't say no. Renee always says that means it is a real soul mate when you do things that go against all you have ever done and you don't regret or worry about doing those things. I am not ready to say that we are soul mates yet, but I do know I want to know everything about Edward and spend time trying to find out if we are mean to be, you know."

Rosalie and Alice both had that 'we all in a sappy loving relationship and we are happy about it looks'.

"Now help me find something that will knock his socks off because he made me come several times last night and I want to return the favor tonight."

Packing my bag took way longer than it should, but Rosalie and Alice wanted details and for once I wanted to share them.

With my bags packed and all the goodbyes said Edward and I drove off in my car to his apartment.

We stopped and grabbed some Chinese take out on the way there and ate sitting in the floor of his living room. We laughed and talked for hours, just enjoying each other's company.

When we were finally done with dinner we headed back towards the bedroom. He carried my bag into his bedroom and sat it down on top of his dresser. He turned towards me and pulled me into his arms.

"Bella, I have something I want to say to you, but I don't want to scare you so hear me out ok?"

I was already freaked out, how do you start a conversation with that preface and not scare the other party.

"Ok"

"Bella I don't want to put a name to what we have because we haven't been together long enough to pick a name for what we are, but I can tell you this. I have never been this happy with someone else. I can't stand the thought of being away from you; it hurts to think about it. I don't want to scare you away by moving too fast so please just promise me that you will talk to me and we can work through this together. I want to take it one day at a time and do whatever feels right, but I need you with me however you are comfortable with, ok?" He looked down at the floor like a small child that was forced to tell the truth to his parents.

I chuckled and he looks up at me. "Edward I had the same talk with Rose and Ali back at my apartment, using almost the same words. All my other relationships I went step by step for the perfect relationship and guess what they weren't prefect at all, so with this one I want to do what we feel and take any step we want. Who cares if they aren't in the right order? I agree with you, if we talk this through we should be able to work out any kinks in us. I have to admit I was afraid that I was jumping into this 'thing' all by myself and I was afraid that I would get hurt when I found out that you weren't ready for more than a one night thing. I am glad to hear you feel the same way." I pulled him close and he wrapped his arms around me as well.

"Now how about you go back in that closet and pull out all of your toys and let's see if we can try them all out!"

Edward's POV

(Two years in the future)

"Bella get in here, hurry!" I yelled at her hoping she was home already. I was officially done with med school and residency. I was on my own, no more school! Bella finished her Master's program about two weeks ago and so I felt like we should celebrate.

She didn't know this was so much more than a simple end of school celebration. I wanted to take Bella away on a tour of Europe and while we were there get married. I knew she wanted to see Italy, and I was hoping she wanted to get married there as well.

I had all the travel arrangements planned out and tickets had been purchased. Jasper and Alice, Rosalie and Emmett would be joining us as well. I called my parents and Bella's Mom and Step Dad, and her Dad they could all join us once we reached Italy. So everyone that was important would be with us.

I heard the shower running in our bathroom so I walked in and sat down.

"Bella I hope there is room in there for me." I called out to her, hoping I didn't scare her.

"The water is almost cold, you better get in quick." She called back to me.

I shed all my clothes and grabbed the ring out of my pocket, and stepped into the shower.

"Hey baby I am so glad you are here. I was afraid I would be here by myself and I wasn't in the mood for that today. I want to celebrate, can you believe that all the hard work is done and now we get to the easy part?" I asked feeling a little nostalgic knowing that the time to be a real grown up has arrived, in so many ways. I was ready to take the step but that doesn't stop you from feeling like you need to pause before taking it.

She turned to face me and kissed me, I knew that I was making the right choice without any doubts, so I dropped to one knee and opened the ring box.

The End