Chapter 13- When I Need You
When I need you, I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you, It's only a heartbeat away
When I need love, I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love, Keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us, Telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know you won't be traveling forever, It's cold out but hold out
And do like I do, When I need you I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you baby, it's only a heartbeat away
Celine Dion-When I Need You
Bella's POV
I woke with a start and sat up in bed. I remembered talking to Edward, then I remembered the dreams that came to me."
Wonderful, delicious dreams all starring Edward. I couldn't wait to have him home and try some of those dreams out in real life.
I was so thankful that he was awake last night and could talk on the phone. I needed him to know that I was here for him and felt the same as he did. I thought the time apart would have given us enough time to get to know what we feel for each other and decide how important our relationship is to us.
I climbed out of the bed, showered and pulled on one of the sexiest pairs of underwear for Edward. I put lotion on my legs and painted my toenails. I slipped a shirt on and a pair of shorts. I opened my bedroom door and called for Alice.
I could hear Jasper and Emmett unloading some boxes downstairs. I was so glad that they decided to go ahead with the plans to move in this weekend, even though the weekend was cut short by the trip to the cabin. I couldn't take being all alone in this house now; I needed someone else here with me. I was so thankful for Alice and her extra perceptions; she always knew what I needed before I even knew it sometimes.
Alice and Rosalie came up the stairs together both laughing and talking about something. I stood in the half opened door of my room and waived my hand at them to encourage them to hurry. They both stopped talking and walked into my room at a quicker pace.
I waited until they were in completely and closed the door, locking it."
"Bella, I'm not going to go down on you while Edward is gone; women are so not my thing, I swear. But if they were my thing, I promise you would be my bitch for sure!" Rosalie relayed with a little too much enthusiasm in her voice. I wasn't sure if she was joking or real serious.
"Rosalie, shut up. I'm not into women at all either; I need your help. I promised that I would send Edward a picture of the new underwear I bought. Well actually, a picture of whatever pair I was wearing that day, so help me pick them out, and you know I suck at taking pictures so you'll have to take it." I bit my lip with nervousness maybe this wasn't such a good idea after all.
Alice and Rosalie both jumped up off of the bed and ran towards me at the same time. I turned to move towards the bathroom to get out of their way. Alice stopped in front of me and grabbed me in a hug as Rosalie moved past us and went for my phone on the desk.
"I want you to put on the blue pair that will look so good against the sheets in here. He will love that."Alice was already moving towards the dresser to collect the particular pair of underwear she was suggesting for me.
"Actually, Alice, I have on the brown set and I would like to take today's picture in Edward's bedroom, he seemed real happy last night when I told him I was sleeping in his bed, so I thought he might like to see me in his sheets, you know." I was hoping that they would like my idea; I really wanted Edward to like it.
"Well, let's get a move on then before the boys come up and want a peep show for themselves." Which translated to Rosalie liked the idea.
I walked into Edward's room and took off my shorts and t-shirt. I fluffed my hair and lay down on his bed, with my head in the middle and let my legs hang off the side. Alice walked over and took one leg, placing the foot on the bed, the other leg she left hanging over the side.
Rosalie handed me some lip gloss. "Put some of this on. It will make your lips look wet and he'll love that." I could count on Rosalie for this kind of knowledge.
Alice walked around to the other side of the bed so she was standing at my head. She moved my hair so it was fanned out around me. "I heard Edward tell Jasper how fucking hot you looked with your hair like this. Sorry I didn't mean to eavesdrop on their conversation, but I thought it would help the picture." She giggled.
Rosalie placed my right hand on my abdomen and pushed my fingers apart until they were splayed out to cover most of my stomach. Then she took the other hand and placed it above my head. "There, perfect. Move, Alice so we can take this fuck hot picture. Edward is going to cream his pants when he sees this. Please promise you'll tell us what he says, and I mean everything that he says."
I just sighed and said, "Okay".
I heard the phone click and she held it up so I could see what she took. It was beautiful; it was hard to believe that was me.
"Okay, turn over so he can see your ass, we all know he loves that as well. You should have seen him looking at it when we were at Carlisle and Esme's house. Besides, he'll like the back of your bra as well." Alice was into the details and this bra had some details.
It was a rich brown satiny material with delicate spaghetti straps that met in the middle of my back. Then it flared into a perfect little heart shaped floral design and then joined the middle of the bottom strap. The matching underwear was brown as well with a small edge of sheer pink peeking out. There were two small pink bows at each hip, sexy but very innocent as well; exactly what Edward would want to see me wearing. I would save the more overtly sexy stuff for later when he was home. For now, this was a perfect reminder for him.
As I flipped over onto my stomach, I moved my hair off of my back so he could see the details of bra strap. I bent my knees so that my feet hovered above me and crossed my ankles. I took my finger and bit my fingernail between my teeth and opened my eyes real wide while looking over my shoulder at Rosalie. She snapped the picture and a smile took over her whole face. She turned the phone at Alice and I again and both of our mouths fell open.
"Well, Bella, if this publishing thing doesn't work out for you there is always porn, because you are one hot mama!" Alice squealed.
Just then Jasper and Emmett banged on the door.
"What the hell are the three of you doing in Edward's room talking about porn?" Jasper demanded.
"Baby, open the door and let me see the porn; is it some of mine? I knew he stole that box of stuff from me. Rosie, open the door so I can take it back while he ain't here," Emmett shouted.
We all three snickered at them.
I pulled my jeans up over my legs and took the phone from Rosalie. Once I pulled my t shirt back on, I typed a quick text to Edward.
E-
I hope you like these, xoxo
B-
And hit send. I guess we'll find out in a few minutes what he thought of them. It was the longest minutes of my life.
I spent the evening with Esme, Rosalie and Alice. We laughed, talked and enjoyed each other just like in high school, even then Esme joined us for our girl nights. A few apple martinis and none of us remembered any of our sad times at all; we were all having a good time. We ate dinner at this great little Thai place and then moved over to Eclipse to dance the night away. I knew I shouldn't be out this late because I had to start work in the morning, early. But I needed something to distract me from the boringness at home without Edward, so I stayed and drank some more. By the time we got home, it was after eleven p.m. I knew Carlisle wanted to get home with Esme so we all agreed to head home. Besides Emmett had texted Rosalie ten times asking when she was coming home; he, of course, wanted sex.
We all entered the house still laughing and joking, loudly. Okay, maybe we had had a little too much to drink. But just one look on Carlisle's face sobered me up. I kept thinking back to earlier that evening when Esme dropped him off and he asked me to make time to talk with him when I came home. I knew he had details about Edward, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear them while I was slightly drunk. Then again who knows maybe I would take the news better if I was drunk.
He took my hand and led us both towards the couch. Suddenly the room was filled with all of the other housemates, except Edward, the one person that I wanted the most.
"Bella, I talked with Edward and Dr. Ward. They have both talked a few times and decided that Edward should take about a month in Seattle. Dr. Ward feels this is the most appropriate amount of time to help Edward begin to deal with the issue. He also wanted Edward to make more time for him when Edward begins his Residency in Seattle. He wanted to take longer, but he knew that it was important for Edward to get back home to you as well. The rest could be done when Edward travels in for work. Edward was a little upset about the time frame but he understands. I felt like it would be best if I broke the news to you instead of him. I was afraid he would be too emotional about being gone that long and how it would upset you. I know it's a long time, but Edward needs it and I'm begging you, Bella, to help him in every way you can. He'll do so much better knowing that you are there for him. I know you're strong enough for him, and actually I wanted to take the time to tell you how thankful I am for you. I haven't had the chance to tell you yet how happy I am for the two of you. I know that you two are meant to be together and will be fine even with a few obstacles to overcome." He took my hand in his and patted them every few seconds to reassure me.
I took in a deep breath; trying to decide how I felt about the news Carlisle had delivered to me. To be honest, I expected that exact time frame, so I wasn't shocked at all. I just needed to take a few seconds to wrap my head around the fact that I would be without Edward for that long.
"Carlisle, thanks for your kind words. I have never been this happy, even with Jake; I was always waiting for something to go wrong. I could not relax and enjoy the relationship, so I think that was part of why I knew he was not the one. I wasn't happy just being with him like I am with Edward. I'm not going to pretend that I'm happy about Edward being away for a month, but to be honest, I expected that amount of time. I know that I'll give any amount of time up for Edward to be done with this and okay in his own mind. Besides I have to start work tomorrow, so that'll give me a chance to get in there and learn my job before Edward comes home and distracts me." I suddenly giggled at the thought that I had just said that to Carlisle, Edward's father, and with everyone else in the room listening. I heard Emmett groan from over in the chair in the corner.
"Don't worry, Bella; we'll make sure that you are so busy that you won't have time to miss Edward," Jasper promised.
"Thanks guys, you all are so amazing. I don't know what I did to deserve you all." I looked at each of them and saw the tenderness in each of their eyes for our situation.
Carlisle patted my hand and stood to leave. I followed him and Esme to the door, where we said our goodbyes to each other. Tonight, however, Carlisle pulled me in for a strong hug and touched my cheek when he pulled away. It was so sweet and reminded me of the times Edward touched me in the exact same way. My eyes filled with tears and I pulled away. Esme simply placed a small kiss on my temple and they left together.
When I turned to walk upstairs, Alice and Rosalie both were waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs to walk with me. We all hugged at the top of the stairs and each turned for our own rooms. I entered mine so I could get ready for bed. I changed into one of Edward's t shirts and washed my face, brushed my teeth, and then brushed my hair. I opened the door and walked down the hall to Edward's room to sleep. I hadn't slept in my bed since the night he left; his just felt more like home for me than mine did.
I ran back to my room, grabbed my phone and laptop. I wanted to send Edward an email. I wanted to pour my heart out to him. I sat crossed legged on the bed and slowly added line after line of loving words to his note until it was so full I couldn't get anything else on there. I was satisfied with it and sent it to him.
I shut the laptop and laid it on the night table for tomorrow morning. I grabbed my phone and held it in my hands just in case Edward called me. I didn't want to miss his call.
I drifted off to sleep waiting for Edward to call me.
Alice came into Edward's room and shook me awake a little after six a.m., thirty minutes later than I wanted to be. I sat up quickly and ran for my room so I could shower. Alice followed and yelled in that she would lay out my clothes for me to wear so I could save some time. I quickly washed my hair and shaved my legs; in record time might I add. I was in my robe just about to get dressed when Emmett bellowed at me from downstairs.
"Bella, get your ass down here; you have one large fucking package from a Mister Edward Masen. Wonder who that is?" He smirked.
I ran as fast as I could down the stairs, Alice and Rosalie right behind me. I grabbed the pocket knife that Emmett held out for me and opened the box right where it sat in the foyer. I couldn't believe that he sent me all of this beautiful stuff. An olive green cocktail dress, including shoes, lingerie, and jewelry to match, I was in awe of the time and effort this gift took. Just as my eyes began to well up with tears, Alice shooed me upstairs to finish getting dressed for work or I was going to be late.
"Get up there and send your panty picture, he deserves it after this kind of gift. I will repack everything and bring it up to your room for you. Rosalie you go with her and help her take the picture. Boys, nothing to see here; go back to whatever you were doing." And with that command, we all scattered to our respective places.
I swore I heard Emmett moaning about Rosalie not sending him any panty pictures and he bought her plenty of stuff. I just chuckled at him. Maybe I could convince Rosalie that a little panty love was owed to her man, Alice as well.
As soon as I was dressed, I called Edward on the phone.
"Hello." His voice was always responsible for my wet panties; it always touched every part of me.
"Edward, oh my gosh. You're amazing. Did you pick out all of this stuff? It is all so beautiful; I can't keep all of this stuff. I'll pick a few things and you can return the rest, ok?" I knew I was over excited but I wanted him to know how amazing his gift was for me. I remember quite a few years when I was so grouchy when anyone gave me gifts, I felt undeserving of them. But I realized the joy I got out of giving someone else a gift and didn't want to rob any of them of their own joy, so now I appreciate the gifts and the thought behind them. I do, however, think that Edward went a little overboard with this gift it must have cost him several thousand dollars at least.
"Bella, don't be silly, you're keeping all of it. I want you to have it all; you give me so much I wanted to give you something back. I had help picking some of it out but the dress and lingerie I picked out for you myself. Do you like it?" He sounded so tired and I felt guilty for waking him at this time of the morning, it could have waited until later.
"Edward, they are my favorites, the dress is so beautiful. It's perfect, very beautiful without showing off too much skin. But the lingerie, they are exactly what I thought you would like, it's so cool to know that we know each other so well already." I was breathless at the thought of him still lying in bed with his overly sexy body that was so warm and inviting in the morning.
"I'm glad you like it. Are you ready for your first day of work?" He changed the subject to a non-horny conversation, good thing. I was getting wrapped up thinking about him still in bed.
"Yes, Alice and Rosalie helped me pick out my outfit for today, and I have to send you the panty pictures. I was in the middle of getting dressed when Emmett bellowed for me to get my ass downstairs. I was thinking that this whole living with everyone may not be as fun as I first thought it would be. Anyway, let me go and get dressed so I'm not late. I'll call you when I get home so we can talk. I talked with Carlisle and he told me about you being gone for a month. I obviously wanted you home sooner, but I guess you can't rush perfection, can you?" I wanted to assure him I would wait for him as long as it took.
"Ok, knock them dead. I love you, don't forget my panty pictures. Can I text you today?" I had an office to myself; I knew that from orientation so there was no reason why he couldn't text or call me whenever he wanted.
"Sure, baby, text me anytime you want. I'll have my own office so you won't be disturbing anyone. Try to keep them clean, I don't want to spend my first day at work horny for you."
"Clean texts, what's the fun in that?" I could see him giving that lopsided grin that caused his left eyebrow to rise. He always had that grin on his face when he was trying to be naughty.
"Okay, only two dirty ones and the rest must be clean."
"Okay, I can live with that. I love you."
"I love you too, Edward. Talk to you later."
I took Edward's panty picture and then rushed through getting ready and gathering my stuff for work so I wouldn't be late.
As I was pulling in the parking garage at work, I felt my phone vibrate, I touched the screen so it would show me my text that I was sure was from Edward.
B-
"It's been awhile but I can still remember the way the candles light your face,
It's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste!'
I want you to wear that the next time I taste you!
Love you,
E-
So much for not spending the whole day horny, how could I get through with dry panties after that sexy text. Good thing I only let him have two sexy ones per day.
As soon as I was shown to my office and settled in, I opened my music library on my phone, scrolled down to the S's and played 'It's Been Awhile'. I had always loved that song, and now to hear the lyrics, I felt even more for the song. It was an accurate description of what we were going through right now. I hit the repeat button and laid it on the desk to serve as my background filler.
As the day wore on, I was given more and more tasks to fulfill and I felt happy to finally be doing something more than reading and writing about reading. I was anxious for the day when I would get the opportunity to actually be proofing someone's written works. I love reading and the ways it could transport you to another place with a few words. I knew that I would be very happy at my job and enjoy what I did. Besides, it beat the meager pay I made while I was in college. All in all, I had a great day but was ready to head home to talk with Edward.
I felt my phone vibrate as I was leaving the car garage and touched the screen. Again, it was from Edward; I was hesitant to read it since he had only sent me normal texts after his first one, so I knew that he had one more dirty text left for him.
B-
Bet you thought I forgot about my last dirty one, no such luck!
Call me when you're home, naked and in my bed.
I'm all alone in the house, sounds like the right time for some phone sex.
E-
I pushed the Audi harder than anyone would ever drive that car. I couldn't get home fast enough. Just the thought of phone sex with Edward was turning me on beyond control. I sped through town and was thankful to see our turn off just ahead.
As I threw open the front door of the house my phone vibrated, I pulled it out of my bag hoping it was Edward.
No such luck, it was Rosalie.
"Hello." I knew I sounded angry but just didn't care. After all the times I left her and Emmett to do their freaky business and the one time I want to get freaky, she has to call me, WTF?
"Bella, what the hell is wrong with you? We just saw you blow through the middle of town at speeds even Emmett hasn't registered in his jeep. Are you okay?" Her voice softened on the last sentence.
"Fine, I'm fine. I was rushing to have phone sex with Edward; I got to go. Call me later!" I shouted at her as I threw the phone on Edward's bed so I could remove my clothes. I tapped the end button and threw myself down on Edward's bed. I took a minute to calm myself down before I dialed Edward.
I scrolled down to his name and hit his picture once so it would dial his number. He answered on the first ring; actually it was a half a ring.
"Baby, what took you so long? I'm laying here waiting for you and it almost killed me," he purred at me, not a trace of anger in his voice at all.
"Calm down, I sped through town like I had the hounds of hell on me. Rosalie just called and gave me hell for driving faster than Emmett; apparently, they saw me come through town at breakneck speeds."
I heard Edward whistle at the faster than Emmett reference.
"Bella, what are you wearing?" All joking was gone from his voice.
"Nothing, Edward. What about you?"
"Nothing, are you touching yourself?" His voice dropping into that sexy tone that I loved.
"Right now I have my hand on my stomach. Where do you want it?" I purred for him since I knew he loved that.
"Bella, touch your beautiful breasts, squeeze your nipples. You moan every time I do that to you, let me hear you." I could hear him becoming breathless and knew that he was probably stroking his cock for me.
"I am, Edward, unghhh. God, I love it when you do that, and then you always bite down on it after you make it hard. It sends shivers right through me. Tell me, Edward, what are you doing while I am pinching my nipple?"
"I am stroking myself; I love it when you do that little twist over my head with your tongue. I can't wait to feel you again. God, Bella, it has only been a week and I miss you like crazy. Do you know that, baby?"
"Edward, you drive me crazy with just the sound of your voice, tell me more," I begged. I was so turned on just by his words and ability to throw all caution to the wind and just say what was in his heart.
"Bella, put your hand on your pussy, is it wet for me?" I could hear the slight pant begin from his exertion.
"Oh yes, Edward, it is so wet. Can I rub my clit? I love it when you rub it for me." My body was taking over and I could no longer wait for his prompts to instruct me. I was so turned on and needed release so I was moving over my body as I knew Edward would.
"Yes, baby, in small circles, that makes you pant for me. Do it in small circles. Bella, let me hear you. Please I need to hear you more. Come on baby." I heard his movements quicken.
So I slipped two fingers inside of me and began to move them in time with his words and placed my thumb on my clit rubbing it in small circles as Edward instructed me.
"Ohh, Edward, I got two fingers inside me, it's good but nothing like you. I love your huge cock in me, Edward, I can almost feel you. Whisper to me like you did when you were with me. Hurry, baby, I'm going to come." I quickened the pace and pumped myself furiously with my eyes closed so I could pretend that Edward was with me.
"Baby, I can't wait to taste you; you smell so good and taste even better. I love watching you come ,Bella and then licking up everything you spill for me."
I threw my head back onto the bed and felt my body draw the burning fire from the pit of my stomach and spread throughout my body. I let go and allowed my orgasm to carry me wherever it wanted to.
"Edward, oh god, I'm coming, Edward, hurry come with me."
"I am, Bella, I ammmm, " he panted into the phone.
We both laid there for a few minutes coming back down together. Edward murmured things to me through the phone, but just like when he was really here I couldn't understand most of what he said. I just knew that he was showing me his love.
I heard the front door open and slam shut, signaling Emmett and Rosalie's return.
"Edward, as much as I would like to cuddle with you like this for hours, uhm Em and Rosalie are now home so I need to go and close your door at least. I would, however, prefer a shower. So I think I need to go."
"Okay, I'm sure Dr. Ward and his family will be home soon anyway so I'll let you go as well. I love you, Bella. This is definitely something that we'll do again. Go and buy yourself a toy, Bella, never mind that, I will send you one myself. I love you!" I could hear the happiness in his voice at our small venture together.
I tapped the phone to end the call and ran to my room before I flashed any of my roommates.
I, myself, was happy as well. Maybe this wasn't going to be such a long month after all.
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