



Did you all miss the Rob Porn? I hope you did! Here is a few more to stop your hearts and make you swoon! Once again we have the lovely lindsiloolabell, lolipop82 and Robmaniporn to thank for this edition! Enjoy;)
Welcome to Twilight My Way! I like to take Stephanie's characters and let them have a good time. So who knows what the hell you'll find here! Whatever ramblings are on my mind at the time.
I had no way to tell Edward how his sweet words affected me. How he touched my heart. I told him that I would stay with him while we were in Malibu. I really had no choice in the matter, Rose and Alice had already decided that they wanted to stay with the guys, and it really did make sense for all of us to split the costs. That way we all walked away at the end of the summer with a bigger cut to use at school when it was time to go back to Dartmouth.
That thought hurt my heart. I wasn't sure I was making the right decision because he went to school in Seattle and I was at Dartmouth. Not exactly a short trip to see each other and to be honest, I didn't know if he planned to extend this romance past this summer. Lord, knows I wanted it to be longer but I guess I would take what I could get at this point because I was done for. Edward had my heart hook line and sinker. I belonged to him.
His sweet face inched towards mine as he knelt on the floor in front of me. He stopped just before he touched my lips, I wanted to push forward and meet his but I held back. This was his show.
"Come to bed with me, let me hold you?" His soft words almost made me cry again. I could hear the agony in his voice and the hopefulness in his words.
I just nodded.
He pulled the blanket off of me and laid it aside on the chair. He took my hand and helped me up; he even caught my Kindle when it fell from my lap as I stood.
I took his hand as he led us into the bedroom and closed the door behind us. Tomorrow I would worry about going back to school, how to live without Edward and all the other stuff. Tonight I would just be with him and enjoy whatever part of himself he decided to give me.
Bella and I sat in silence, both content to be there with each other in the dark with only the lights from the French Doors to light our faces for each other.
Her hair was so pretty all tangled around her face after her nap. Her lips were slightly swollen and so kissable. I wanted to apologize and pull her into my lap to snuggle with her. I had no way to explain how important she had become to me in the few short days we were together. I had never felt this comfortable with anyone, much less a girl. I found myself wanting to tell her things, to talk about the music, books and movies that interested me. I wanted to share my deep dark secrets with her, to open up and let her in completely.
I had to know what I had done to make her so angry with me to the point where she shut me out. The quiet evening was almost more than my nerves could take. Yet at the same time I was too afraid to break the almost peaceful bubble that we had going. She stared out at the lights of the city and I stared at her.
"We have a house that Jasper and Emmett called about today. We have to go and look at it tomorrow." I offered to the silent room. She didn't turn to acknowledge me but her eyes stopped scanning for a second or so, so I know she heard me. "Emmett and Jasper have asked Alice and Rosalie to stay with us this summer." I left that hanging in the air to see if she would have any response to that offer.
Several sips and quite a few minutes later I sat the glass down on the floor beside the chair I sat in and moved towards Bella. "I want you to stay with us as well. With me, I want us to spend the summer together, please." Her hand covered mine where it rested on her thigh. "Please tell me what I've done so I can fix it. I can't go any longer without hearing your voice, please." I begged as I saw no other option.
She turned and looked me full in the face. I saw the tracks of old tears and the glistening of fresh ones in the corners of her eyes. "There are so many others out there for you." She said simply. I was stunned to say the least. I guess she really hadn't changed that much after all.
"I don't want anyone else. I want you. You make me happy, you get me, you listen to the same things I do, you watch the same movies I do, you." I began to rub small circles on her thigh against her bare skin.
She said the one word that broke my heart, because it showed me how little she thought of herself. "Why?"
"Because you're perfect for me, because of all of the reasons I just listed. Because of the way you take care of those around you, the way you laugh at everyone's jokes even if they aren't funny, because you feel things so deep in your heart and you love life around you. So many big and small reasons that I can't even think of right now."
A small tear escaped her eye and I was sure that I said the wrong thing, that I had pushed her away. But it all changed when she smiled, touched my face and said, "Okay."
So far this trip had cost each of us about a hundred bucks, not counting our food; so much cheaper than if we'd taken this trip by ourselves in my old truck. That thing got about five miles to the gallon so the gas alone would have killed us. Plus we had great company as well.
I called Charlie and let him know about our hotel room for last night. Not the sleeping arrangements, we made it sound like the three of us slept in one bed and the guys stuck to their original plan of two in the room and one on the pull out. Charlie would drive out right now if he thought otherwise. We hung up with him and made the last few hours of our drive in great time. Before we knew it we were pulling into Los Angeles County. The boys wanted to head straight to Malibu beach. Because according to Jasper it was the best surfing in the state. We all finally conceded and we drove there and changed in the back of the Sub with a large towel held up to keep us from showing our goodies to the world.
The guys untied their boards and we all made our way down to the beach. I took my Kindle and my towel. We sat on our asses and watched as our boys ran off to go and surf. They were good, like really good. We realized this as all the beach bunnies came to sit directly in front of us to watch them make their way out and ride back into the shore. Rose was close to stabbing one girl as she chattered on and on about what she would do to Emmett when she got him out of his wet suit. Alice just pretended that they didn't exist while chanting, 'he's going to marry me, he's going to marry me.'
I just sat back and shrunk into my towel. How could Edward really want to be with me when there were all of these beautiful girls here that were willing to give him what he wanted right now? I didn't watch him any further after that. I didn't watch when he ran onto the shore and stabbed his board upright in the sand, I pretended not to notice as he shook his wet suit and shaggy hair all over me. I pretended not to notice him as we stopped to eat or when we finally found a hotel to stay in. In fact I pretended so much that I fell asleep in the chair by the French doors while I pretended to read. I woke up to see Edward sitting in the chair across from me with a glass of whiskey in his hand, while he pretended that he didn't know I was awake.
After a full day of driving and some arguing about what our first activity should be after arriving in Malibu, we finally stopped and made our way to the beach; I mean it was one of the top spots in California to surf, so it seemed natural to stop there and make it a home base. We could travel to the other spots we wanted to surf from there. It also seemed like it would work out for the girls to stay in Malibu as well. As it turns out Jasper and Emmett were currently in negotiations with Alice and Rosalie to stay with us, in whatever we rented for the summer. That was fine with me.
When we stopped at the beach, it took all of my restraint to not peek when Rose and Alice held a large beach towel up over the back of the Sub so Bella could slip on her swimsuit. Her long legs alone showing out the bottom of said towel made me want to go over and yank that sucker down and mount her.
I was a good boy, though. I changed, grabbed my board and made my way down to the water. There were several large groups of people there still surfing. We had several more hours of sunlight left so no worries about time.
The girls settled in on their towels and Bella pulled out a book I think. At this distance it was hard to tell. Her body looked so lean and sexy against the dark blue of her towel. As I discovered last night, her skin was soft and warm; her hair smelled like jasmine and fresh cotton sheets, her stomach had a small amount of fine downy hair that made me want to rub my nose across it. Everything about Bella made me want to run my nose across her.
I paddled the board back out and concentrated on the waves. The last thing I needed in a wet suit was a woody and thinking of Bella would definitely give me that. I saw the perfect beginnings of a wave so I turned back towards the shore and got in position to ride it. I was too busy concentrating on the wave to actually look at Bella to see if she were looking at me but I could feel her watching me. I could feel her eyes as they roamed my body, through my wet suit and across all of the distance that separated us. I could feel her. I think I'm in fucking trouble.
It was finally too much to take and I swam in to be with her on the beach. I tucked my board under my arm and sprinted to her, I stabbed it in the sand so it would stand safely and turned to join her. She concentrated on what I now knew to be her Kindle and only briefly did I see her eyes move. I knew she was working with everything she had to not look at me so I forced her hand; I shook the cold wet ocean water all over her. It didn't work; she merely brushed it off and continued to read.
Actually, she brushed me off all night long in one way or another. She didn't speak a word to me and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get her too. Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie carried on all around us but I sank lower and lower into a depression. If only she would tell me what I did and I would fix it, but I can't fix it if I don't know about it. So I watched her and waited, she had to get tired of it sooner or later. I fell asleep waiting on her to get tired of waiting. I hoped she would come to bed with me like she did the night before but no such luck. I woke up later that night and noticed she was not in the bed with me, so I went looking for her.
Apparently she did get tired but not of the waiting, she just got physically tired, so tired that she went to sleep in the chair by the patio doors in our hotel suite, with her Kindle in her hand. That had to be some kind of a good book for her to spend all damn day reading that thing. Seriously, we are talking non-stop, religiously reading it.
When I found her there I took a glass and poured some of the whiskey that Jasper brought with him and sat in front of her. I sipped the whiskey and watched her. Her sweet face was so tender and angelic in her sleep. I wanted to pull her in my lap and kiss her pouty lips until she was lightheaded. She must have read my mind because she stirred and sat up to find me watching her sleep. Great that doesn't look stalkerish at all now does it?
Once Bella was done in the shower we decided to watch some movies. She chose one and I chose one. She chose Eat, Pray, Love; I was surprised that it wasn't half bad. It was about a girl that was seeking to find a meaning to her life. To find her happiness and I hoped that it was just a Julia Roberts obsession that caused Bella to choose that movie and not because she identified with it at all. I chose a horror film; I don't even remember the name of it. I chose it for the obvious reasons. I wanted her close to me. We turned all of the lights off and snuggled under the covers, each on our separate sides with lots and lots of room between us.
Then when the first round of college cheerleaders were slaughtered in their hotel room, on a summer road trip no less, well Bella moved quite close to me then. In fact she lifted my arm and snuggled her face right into my chest. Her sweet breath caused the hairs on my chest to move back and forth with her exhale and inhale. She melted me. I was gone, done for, finite. I wanted to flip her over in her sweet, innocent pajama pants and tank top and just fucking pound into her hard.
I was stunned into silence at my own thoughts, never before had I imagined that scenario with a girl before. I mean yeah, I was a man but damn that was kinda rough and not like me at all. It disturbed me even further when I realized that I loved every single second of the thought. I wanted her in all ways, rough, sweet, slow, fast, frenzied, what the fuck ever, I wanted it with her.
When the movie was finished we stayed in our current positions but I clicked off the TV. In the darkness Bella scooted even closer to me. I shifted my leg closest to her so she wouldn't be smacked by the evidence of how much I wanted her. When her breathing evened out and her grip on my arm loosened I kissed her forehead and drifted off to sleep as well.
The next morning I woke up when something pounced on the bed. It was much lighter than Emmett and I was happy about that. I was in no shape to fight him off this morning, not after sleeping wrapped around Bella all night. My dick was harder than steel and I would not be able to hide it in these shorts.
Alice spoke, way too loud for this hour, as she poked Bella and I on our shoulders. "Hey get up you two, we got to get on the road. Jasper checked the map and we got some traveling to do so we can get there before nightfall." I turned to look at her.
"Sure thing, Ali. Give us about ten minutes and we will be ready." I tightened my arms around Bella to gently pull her closer to me. It backfired because she wiggled her ass right against my erection and froze when she realized what she was pushing against.
"Damn, Eddie, that's all it takes you is ten minutes? Well, I thought our dear sweet Bella had a chance at some good sex with you but I guess not. Sorry, Bells." She scampered out of the room as she spoke. Not that I'd chase her but still a good thing she did, I could throw a mean pillow at her ass.
Bella snickered as she wiggled against me again. I grabbed her hips and leaned down to whisper in her ear. "Don't you dare do that again, because I can guarantee it will last much, much longer than ten minutes; then we would have to deal with the rest of them being pissed that our schedule is off and we'd have to hear them bitch at us all damn day." I slowly tilted my hips and rubbed my erection up and down the crack of her ass. Bella whimpered as I pulled away. I leaned back and kissed her temple. "Come on, Sleeping Beauty, let's get a move on, shall we?" I didn't even try to hide what she did to me. It was out there on full display for her. I mean it was her fault after all.
When Edward and I got back up to the room we were both cold and shivering from the cooler night air on our wet bodies. I really wanted to wrap his arms around me to keep me warm but I restrained myself.
We separated at the door and he went to his shower and I went to mine. I noticed Alice and Jasper making out on the couch. I mean we are in college so I had seen much, much worse done on a couch. They actually were keeping it pretty mild. Em and Rose on our bed, now that was another story. Emmett had Rosalie's top off and was motorboating her boobs while he ground his pelvis against what ever parts he could reach with it.
I grabbed some clothes, and my toiletries bag and beat feet it out of there. I waited outside of Edward's room until I heard the TV click on and then I knocked. He called for me to come in. I opened the door to him lying on the bed, one arm thrown up behind his head, the other holding the remote, his legs mimicked the pose but with the opposite sides. He wore a pair of basketball shorts and nothing else. At least it looked like nothing else since the shorts sat so low on his hips that I saw the infamous V and his happy trail. I snapped my eyes back up to his to keep from licking said happy trail, until we both were happy.
"Can I shower in here, Em and Rose are in my bedroom?" I sounded hesitant and scared. I guess if I admitted to myself my true feelings I was. I wanted to be thrown down on the bed and have Edward do things to me. The really dirty kind of things, the things you read about in those damn fanfiction stories that Rose and Alice got me into. There was this one story where he fucked her against the windows in his high rise office building now that is a fantasy that I'd like to play out.
Edward nodded so I stepped towards the bathroom, I could still see the steam from his shower and smell his body wash. I was in heaven. I stopped and turned to face him, "I might need a place to sleep too because it looked pretty hot and heavy in there. Both beds are occupied, so if you don't mind…" I trailed off and gestured to his bed. He looked down at the bed and then back up to me.
He just nodded but his smile looked genuine so I walked towards the bathroom and took really deep breaths just to breath him. Stupid I know but what else could I do?
The next day when we headed out from the motel the girls asked if it would be okay for them to take their turns to drive. We agreed. However had we known that it would mean that they got to choose the music we would have said not just no, but hell no!
When it was Rosalie's turn we heard way more of strong women's music than any man should ever be subjected to. We are talking angry women, women that want to take their steel tipped stiletto and stab it through a man's dick. We all cringed when a new song came on. Emmett tried several times to convince her that we should see what the radio stations were playing but she insisted that we keep listening to her iPod. I slapped Emmett in the back of the head, I mean if he couldn't help us out from his position in shotgun, maybe it was time to release that seat to someone else.
Well we were happy when we stopped for lunch and Alice wanted to drive after that, little did we know that she would want to play bubble gum pop. Alice played Spice Girls, Britney, Madonna- I know she isn't bubble gum pop but her early stuff is a little feminine for me-Mandy Moore, even some Celine Dion. She confessed that she couldn't drive without some fun, light music going. I was about ready to stab an ice pick in my ears by the time Bella called her turn. I prayed that she had better taste than her roommates did.
We all switched seats, Bella in the driver's seat and me in shotgun. This was Emmett's idea, each girl had to have a guy to help them navigate or just in case of an emergency type stuff. I think he wanted to see Rose's legs as she drove, but whatever, it worked for me because I got to sit up there when Bella drove. She was so damn funny, she hopped in, put her seat belt on, moved her rear view and side mirrors, and then attached her iPod to the cord that would allow the music to be heard through the speakers in the car. When all of that was done, she threw her left leg up into her seat and rested her left arm on her bent knee. Something about that position made me think that Bella was bendy and well bendy led to other ideas that weren't safe so I pulled her iPod up and began to check out her songs. She had several playlists. I clicked on the Road Songs, for obvious reasons and she backed the Sub out of the spot. I cringed and waited but was surprised when some really good acoustic music began to play. This made Jasper and me perk up since that was the sort of thing that we played when we got the chance to play that is. It was with great pride that I realized that the acoustic stuff meant that Bella and I were compatible music wise anyway. The rest we had to work on.
"So, tell me more about Jake, why did you two break up?" Bella cringed and I felt bad for bringing it up. I knew from yesterday by the pool that he was an asshole that treated her terrible, I should have just left well enough alone. "Never mind, I'm sorry. You already said enough, I think I know." I patted her leg and marveled at the softness of her skin. It was like touching a baby. At that moment I just wanted to run my hand up and down the length of her thigh but I knew she wasn't ready and I didn't want to start some stuff in the car that we couldn't finish. So I withdrew and allowed her to speak.
The car ride was comfortable enough. Edward drove, Emmett sat up front in shotgun seat, Jasper turned his long legs sideways and took up the first back seat, while Alice-who sat closest to the window to be close to Jasper, Rose and I took up the last seat. Edward fiddled with the radio and turned on a pop station, music filled the air and we listened for a while. Alice and Jasper thumb wrestled. I think it was just an excuse to touch one another. If you asked me Jasper looked as taken with Alice as she was with him. I also knew that Rose had checked out Emmett quite regularly and scared off three girls in the diner that approached him from behind. So that left Edward and me as odd men out. At least I had someone to talk to and wasn't left alone while they all made out right in front of me.
Finally, Alice clapped her hands and began to bounce. I knew this to be a dangerous thing, this meant trouble but the boys were so clueless about her. They looked excited that she started a round of twenty questions. Well, I say twenty questions, it was more like each of us took a turn asking a question and we all answered. I shared way more than I wanted to with all of them but I couldn't lie for shit so I figured that I would just go ahead and tell the truth.
I watched Edward's eyes when I answered and he tried to appear like he was watching the roads but he was not at all. I would look away just far enough so that our eyes would not meet yet I could still watch him in my periphery, every single time he looked back as soon as I looked away. In true fashion of the game I even admitted that I slept with Jake at college and how bad it was. I still felt shame wash over me as I thought of that night and how he blamed our terrible sexcapades on me. As much as I wanted to fight with him about it I just couldn't. I mean he was the experienced one and I was the virgin, why didn't he know what to do already? How was it my fault? Edward spoke up and reassured me that it was probably his fault and made a joke about the trustworthiness of college guys. It made us all laugh and turned the mood back to a light and fun time. I was thankful. I tried to give him a shy smile in the mirror but for once he didn't look back at me.
He did look back at me when we all admitted to the time we got drunk and made out together. In fact all three of them looked, well if you'd call it that. It was more like someone stuck a hot poker to their asses, shocked, astounded, dumbfounded, something more along those lines. The three of them looked to be more than a little turned on by that fact and Rose had to work hard to keep them engaged in conversation so that the idea would be dropped. I don't think she succeeded.
The good thing was that Edward's past wasn't filled with any deep dark secrets so it seemed like he wasn't a sick sex fiend that you always hear people say, 'he seemed so normal.' At least not that he was admitting. I do have to confess that I'd like to try out a few things that he has done, I will have to add them to my 'fuck yeah list.' That's the name of the list that Alice, Rose and I came up with for things that when you hear them you think, fuck yeah I wanna try that. So these few things belonged on there for more than one reason.
When we stopped for gas Emmett suggested a hotel and that we could split the cost six ways. We all agreed because really, who wants to sleep in the back seats of a Suburban? Luckily enough the next exit had a hotel, and it had one room available; a suite, so really it was two bedrooms and a pull out couch bed. We took it and the girls piled into the bigger bedroom, while Em and Edward took the smaller room. Jasper lost one of those manly contests of rock, paper, scissors so he got the couch. The guys took off for the pool while we shaved and changed. The whole time Alice droned on and on about how it would be great for us to hook up and have a fantastic summer.
"Alice, I don't want to hook up. We have to go back to college in such a short time and there is no way I can do a long distance thing with the course load that I have next year, no way. It's just nice knowing that we can have a good time and feel safe." I knew that the words sounded so puritanical and innocent as I said them but I really wasn't sure I could do it. Hook up and leave him, I mean. I already felt way too much for him and we had only been in the car for one day together, not even a full day.
After the sexy flirting and touching that went on at the pool, it was no surprise that Alice, Jasper, Em and Rosalie all left us to go back up to the room. I really wanted the chance to catch up with Edward so I went to sit beside him on the shallow end of the pool. Our feet dangled in the water and we talked. We shared and we confessed. I told him the whole story with Jake and he told me about Tanya. Sounds like it was definitely too soon for us to think about any future between us. Way too soon, that was for damn sure!
Bella and I talked about so many things; we were able to cover the years between our last day at Forks High until now. I told her about my break up with Tanya and she detailed how she dated and broke up with Jacob Black. Both of us were left pretty jaded by the experiences of our past relationships. I hoped that I would eventually find love again and explained this fact to Bella. Her eyes lit up and she agreed with my sentiment. Once again, I cursed the fates that we would be half way across the country from each other, to keep us from actually pursuing a relationship with each other. I wasn't sure why but it just felt right with Bella. Maybe because I knew that I couldn't have anything with her, the pressure was off on both of us to perform. We could simply be ourselves instead.
When Bella and I drifted up to the rooms we noticed that Jasper and Alice were locked into an embrace on the couch. Bella ignored them and headed directly for her room to shower and change. I, hesitatingly, headed for mine as well. A few minutes after I entered the room Bella knocked on the door seeking entrance. I bid her to enter and she stood still slightly wet with her clean clothes in her hand. "Well Emmett and Rosalie were in our room so is it okay to shower here in yours?" She bit her lip and hesitated. "I might need a place to sleep as well, would that be okay too?"
I couldn't turn her down; I wanted her by me so I had to agree. Bella in the shower was probably the worst torture I could live through, though. In fact I wasn't even sure I could make it through with my entire mind intact. I waved her on anyway, like the madman that I apparently am. I closed my eyes and pictured her soaping her beautiful body. It was not helping my situation that she would soon be laying in the bed beside me. It made my thoughts go to a place that I had already resolved myself that I wouldn't allow. Something about Bella made me think those thoughts anyway.
This is a two part chapter, Bella and Edward's, so you will have two playlists!
Bella's playlist: Everything(Live in Studio)-Lifehouse, What Makes You Stay-Deana Carter, It Was-Chely Wright, Whataya Want From Me-Adam Lambert, Lift Me Up-Christina Aguilera
Edward's playlist:Storm-Lifehouse, Breathing-Lifehouse, Why We Said Goodbye-Tim McGraw, If I Can't Have Your Love-Bon Jovi