LYWYL-Chapter 18

Chapter 18-

Bella's POV

I couldn't believe that I let Alice talk me into this wedding thing so quickly. I couldn't do this at all, I mean there was too much to get done, wasn't there? I bit my thumbnail and leaned against the empty kitchen counter.

We had packed up one house, moved it to another, unpacked it, planned a wedding and carried on with our daily lives…all at the same time. I'm sure I needed medication because at any moment someone is going to say the words that send me flying over the edge of sanity.

The one calming force in all of this was Edward. He showed no fear, no hesitation, nothing but pure out and out happiness. His happiness often calmed my nerves and allowed me to get my small portion of the wedding under control.

In fact, most of my part was done. I had picked out both Eavan's dress and mine. I decided on the colors and well, that was it. That was all I had to do. Edward was in charge of his tux and to help Alice, Esme and Rosalie with the guest list. Everything else Alice was doing. We had final veto rights of course, but so far none had been necessary.

I began to sweep up the last of the mess in the kitchen and walked over to the trash to toss it out. It was time to leave the first house I had ever really enjoyed living in, the place that showed me how strong I was. It was the place that allowed not only me but Eavan as well to grow and find ourselves. It should have made me sad but it didn't. I wanted to move forward with Edward in every way possible. Don't get me wrong though I was more than happy to find out that Edward thought it was a good idea to keep the townhouse and rent it out instead of selling it. I loved that idea and we found a wonderful older couple that wanted to move in the day after we agreed to have all of our furniture out. So I rushed to get the house cleaned up for them to come and take the keys tomorrow morning.

Right after I handed over the keys, Eavan and I were to go to the Bridal shop for our final dress fittings. Edward, Charlie and Sue were all at home. During their wait for us to get back there, Edward and Charlie moved furniture, while Sue unpacked the kitchen stuff. Yesterday Alice, Rose, Esme and I tackled Eavan's room as well as her bathroom. We then moved on to our room, our bathroom and the guest room. Today Edward and Charlie were also supposed to put the last touches on my dark room. I converted a bedroom and a small walk in closet to my photography studio with my very own dark room. Edward got the other bedroom upstairs as his office, so we both were happy. Life was too good to spend time worrying about all the things you wished hadn't happened at the time.

I exchanged the keys for a big fat deposit and rent check and rushed off to the dress shop. My dress was a knee length dress with a beaded corset top and a fluffy, feathered skirt. It was not your traditional wedding dress but I didn't care. It called to me so I bought it. Besides when has either Edward or I been traditional in anything we've done.

Eavan on the other hand was as traditional as you could get. She would wear a red dress with flowers around the neck and waist line, with a large bow in the back, with bright red shoes and a big headband, also in bright red. Eavan had insisted on the red as our wedding colors. It wasn't a traditional August color but again, who are we for tradition? She would carry a basket of rose petals and drop them as she walked down the aisle. She wanted the entire fairy tale for this wedding and we both gladly accommodated her when we could. God, help her daddy when she got married, that's all I had to say about that little princess.

With both dresses fitted, bagged and ready for us to leave we made our way back to the car to head home. All of the other accessories were already purchased and locked away in my dark room. I had a hard time keeping Edward from seeing them. Not that he would ever intentionally peek at them, because he wasn't, but it was hard when you were moving in. Every single box we'd open would belong in the room that I had just recently moved all the wedding stuff to because the day before he'd needed to use the room it currently resided in. It was a never ending game of hide the wedding stuff. Glad that was over now that Charlie suggested the dark room since Edward would not need to be in there anymore.

When I arrived home, Edward pulled my hand and led me back out the kitchen door to his car, while Alice took the bags of stuff from me and proceeded to explain to Eavan that it was time to go and have some fun, just the bridesmaids. I was totally confused, since when do the bridesmaids have fun without the bride?

Every time I would ask where we were headed Edward would shush me and tell me that I would see when we got there. So I stopped asking. I do have to say that glee filled me when I realized what his destination was to be. It was a tattoo parlor. I had toyed with the idea of a new tattoo and I heard Emmett and Edward as they discussed some ideas for theirs as well. Apparently Edward had already made a decision on his addition. In fact, work had already been started. How I missed it I would never know but he decided that it was time to take off the 'Rot In Pieces' that he added below my name in a fit of rage years ago. He would cover it up with a scroll work of vines and large roses that would match the tattoo that he already had across his lower back. Two tiny ladybugs were added to the side of one of the roses as well, one for me and one for Eavan. He called us both his ladybugs. For Eavan it was actually shortened and he just simply called her 'bug' now. She loved it. He wanted to also add Eavan's name in fancy script along with a tribal lady bug to be placed over Edward's heart.

I decided to add a swan that looked like it was about to take off in flight with a long trail of hearts behind it. I thought it was the perfect symbol to show my newfound love for my father on my skin. It proved what I knew all along that I could make it out of this life I grew up in and find a real life one day. It was my proof that I had more in me than the rest of my family ever knew. I also added 'Love is Worth it' to match the fancy script that Edward would use to mark himself with Eavan's name. Because love is worth it, at least our love is.

When we left the tattoo parlor that afternoon, I had my swan and my reminder of the importance of our love completed. Edward had the vines and roses finished as well as the outline of his tribal ladybug tattoo done. The next visit he would get the lady bug finished and have Eavan's name added. The ink simply reminded us both daily that the struggles had a bigger meaning, it also helped us to remember what we had been through so we made sure we never went back there again.

The next morning, Edward and I went with Alice and made our final selections on the appetizers for our reception and for the linens that would go on the tables. She had done so well and narrowed down our options to a few ideas and we gave the final okay to which ones would stay. The cake, flowers, invitations, music, preacher and so many other details were all taken care of already. I couldn't wait till this weekend to just be married. I wanted to be Edward's wife after all of these years, I just wanted his name and that outward proof that he was mine and I was his.

The next afternoon I stood in our bedroom with my dress zipped up as I smoothed my hand over my stomach. I hoped that the action would smooth my butterflies deep within my body. It wasn't nerves that caused the flight but mere anticipation. The feeling doubled when Charlie rapped on my door and let himself into the bedroom with me. Everyone else left and gave us a few minutes of privacy. It really was for the best because we were due to start the ceremony in a few short minutes.

I was very skeptical and honestly really scared when he contacted me the first time. I had no idea what kind of relationship he thought he could bring to me after all these years when I didn't even know for sure who my father even was. I had anger and resentment built up towards him and Renee both. It took quite a few talks with Jasper and even Edward before I realized I was punishing him for a crime he never committed. He never knew about me. The blame was laid to rest on the small patch of ground above Renee's body in the cemetery. Because what is the real use in placing blame on a person who was long ago gone from me? I got nothing but more anger and more resentment which would ruin the rest of my life, so I let it go. I began to see that Charlie contacted me as soon as he found out and that was good enough for me. He promised that had he known all those years ago he would have done the same then. I choose to believe that and now we have a wonderful relationship.

It's funny really because so many things that he says or does are very similar to Edward. I guess the saying that a girl chooses a boy just like her daddy is true. Even if I chose way before I knew who my daddy was, it still is true. Once again, I just have to say that God really did look out for me all those years I thought that I had been abandoned by him.

"Hey, you look beautiful. Edward is lucky man." The crinkles around his eyes always showed when he was happy and if that were the case then today was certainly a good one for him. I couldn't help but smile back at him.

"We are both lucky." It was a simple and honest answer.

"I have something for you." His hand held out a simple gold box. Inside was a simple pearl bracelet. I looked from him to the bracelet several times; Charlie was a man of few words so I waited for an explanation from him. The emotion that danced around his eyes told me that he needed a minute or two to collect himself so he could explain. His hand reached up and took the bracelet from the box. "This was my mother's, she wore it on her wedding day." His fingers flitted across the tiny clasp and secured it in place. "I gave it to Sue when we got married. I had no one else." His voice broke and the emotions spilled over the barrier that his lower eyelashes provided. Tears spilled down his face and he made no motion to wipe them away, he stood unafraid of the emotion in front of me. I recognized the love in his eyes and threw myself into his arms. For the first time I knew the unconditional love that Edward and I gave Eavan. Even as a full grown adult that shit felt better than I could ever explain with mere words. I would never doubt that Charlie loved me, never.

When I stepped out of his embrace and we had both collected ourselves he continued to speak, "Sue, insisted that I give it to you and you can give it to Eavan for her wedding day, it's the way it should be." His voice cracked again as he spoke.

"I don't want to take it away from Sue though." I said as I moved to take it off of my wrist.

"No, it's yours. We both agree and it's the least I can do for you to give you a little piece of what you didn't have as a child. I want to give you roots to help ground you, what you should have had all along. I can't change the way things worked out, but please, let me do this for you. To show you…" His voice trailed off as he spoke.

"I would love to wear it and Eavan will wear it on her special day as well. We are honored." I hugged him again. Well I hugged him, he engulfed me. A small knock on the door alerted us to the fact that a yard full of people were waiting on us, we did have a schedule to keep. Charlie and I both gave a nervous yet satisfied laugh as we made to wipe the tears off of each other's face.

"Let's do this!" He said with false bravado.

Alice and Eavan joined us as we made our way down the hall and towards the back yard to Edward. He waited for me at the end of the longest aisle I will ever walk down. Seriously why did we make that thing so long?

As the music started, Eavan began her walk, tossing rose petals as she went. I watched Edward's face as he watched her. He had no idea I could see him through the window, the pride in his eyes made mine well up with tears again. Alice began her walk and Charlie moved us into place still just out of sight. I took a moment to wipe the tears away; I wanted a clear view of Edward as I walked down towards him.

The moment I turned that corner his eyes were on me. I could feel them as they seared into my skin as they wandered over my body. The lust was there but it was an undercurrent to the overwhelming love I felt radiate off of him. I felt Charlie tug my arm backwards to slow me down. I wanted to run to him and get this over with.

When our hands touch and everything else faded away. I only remember bits and pieces of the ceremony. I remember the way his smile increased when he said my name as he repeated his vows. I remember the way his tongue peeked out when he wet his lips just before he kissed me. I remember the way his voice turned husky when he promised to love, honor and cherish me. I remember the way his skin felt so warm on the inside of his thumb as he rubbed the inside of my wrist while we recited the words that the preacher spoke for us. The way his tux hung across his chest when he bent to pick up Eavan to kiss her before we walked back down the aisle as man and wife.

Should I remember more? Probably but I was too mesmerized by the fact that we finally stood in front of a preacher, to swear our love to each other. This would finally happen to us, for us.

The good thing about small weddings is that only the people that really matter were all here with us. It was a small intimate group, the few that supported us through our changes. The people that saw the potential in each of us and helped us achieve that potential.

We cut the cake and fed it to each other, and then we danced our first dance together as man and wife. I always teased him that he was so beautiful. It used to piss him off and he would spout off all of this shit about beauty for women and so on. Well when 'You are so Beautiful' by Joe Cocker began as our first dance, I almost fell over laughing. I loved it; we danced with Edward chin pressed to my forehead. He sang to me and I held on to him, part of me almost believed that this was a dream. My face ached from the constant smile that it wore today told me differently though.

After the reception, I changed into a simple pair of jean Capri's that pushed up my legs with a pale green silk camisole top. I drug my jean jacket over my shoulder because I knew that I would be chilled at this time of year once the sun went down. I threw on some simple jewelry and my boots that matched the shirt I wore exactly. I left my hair as I wore it for the wedding. I knew that Edward liked it down and long, anything I could do to make him happy. It was a simple, classy yet edgy look for me. Edward wore simple jeans; a long sleeved Henley that hugged his strong chest and a pair of black boots. His looks was simple but oh so sexy. I couldn't wait to get to our cabin to be with him, just him, not have to share him with all of these people around us.

We kissed Eavan goodbye, she would spend a few days each with Carlisle and Esme, Rose and Emmett and Jasper and Alice. She would be spoiled rotten by the time we got back home. Each of the couples had the potential to spoil her so to know that she would see all three in one week, dear Lord, help us both.

The car ride was full of quiet happiness, I think we were both so tired yet still amped up on our happiness. Our hands constantly touched each other; we couldn't stand to be separated now. We had been that way all day. Several times Edward stepped away to speak to people that he knew and my body would gravitate towards him after a minute or two of him being away from me.

We chose a cabin in the mountains to spend our honeymoon. It was close enough to the shops and sightseeing for our day time trips but far enough away that we would be alone if we chose to be.

As we drove down the long driveway the entire back half of the house was lit up. It was beautiful. Each room impressed me more. It was decorated as a cabin should be, rustic. There were wood beams along the ceiling in each room and a stone fireplace in the living room and our bedroom. It had hardwood floors from one end of the house to the others but rugs warmed the place up. It was spectacular and all ours for the next week.

Edward took our bags into the master bedroom and laid them out. We make quick work of unpacking; it was obvious we both had something else on our minds. Each other. I gathered my outfit I wanted to change into and took it into the master bathroom. Edward grabbed a simple pair of jeans and walked towards the door. "Babe, I'm going to go and shower in the hall bathroom, okay?" I nodded at him.

"It might take me a little while, I've kinda got a surprise for you." The sudden rush of doubt shocked me. I worried that Edward wouldn't like my surprise for him. Since his release he has been so sweet and loving while we had sex. Don't get me wrong I loved him that way, but tonight I wanted him to just fuck me, straight up against the wall, fuck me hard and black out when I come. I needed my raw, primitive Edward back every so often. I needed to show him that it was okay to be that person every so often. He had the freedom to let go and go on instinct, to trust himself and not assume that all parts of him back then were wrong. I liked some parts of the old Edward, really, really liked them. Hopefully after tonight he would know that without a doubt.

I showered and began to dress myself for Edward. I wrapped my hair up and donned a shocking red wig that reminded me of Rhianna's hair. It was a shortish bob that was longer in the front around my face. I knew it was different than my normal color or length but I thought it would be a nice change for us. I pulled the red lace bra on and hooked the straps. It barely held my nipples in. It was certainly not something I could wear every day. I pulled the faux leather tiny panties up and followed with the thigh high leg warmers. I slid the miniscule skirt in place and zipped it up, and then I pulled the black velvet and satin ankle boots on and tied them up. I adjusted the leg warmers over the top of the boots and then pulled my asymmetrical jacket on. I buttoned the top two buttons and stood back to look at myself. The jacket showed off my stomach just above the top edge of my tiny skirt. I knew that Edward would love that since it displayed part of my 'Edward' tattoo. The fact that he would see his name would win me points, for sure.

I adjusted the wig and began to put on my make-up. I showed Alice a picture of what I wanted and she helped me this afternoon start my make-up look. I had to darken the eyeliner around the outer edges of my eyes and apply the small red crystals as an accent. I then applied blood red lipstick and nail polish. Once I was fully dressed I stepped back to survey myself once again. I looked damn good and was ready to see Edward. I grabbed my iPod and left the room.

I found Edward down in the game room, playing pool. His back was to me and he was bent over the pool table to make a shot. He wore a faded, soft pair of jeans that barely hung on his hips. They were so loose that I tried to throw them away several times. He stopped me each time. I was thankful that he did, the way they revealed his skin to me was heavenly. He was obviously commando under those things. I loved it. My eyes racked up and down his sexy body several times before he realized I stood in the doorway and he turned to make his next shot. His eyes briefly glanced up at me as I walked in. You could tell the exact second that he noticed my attire because he stopped and dropped his cue on the pool table and began to make his way to me.

"Baby? My God, you look amazing. Is this for me?" His body was pressed up against mine and it did all sorts of yummy things to my girlie parts, already.

I slipped my index finger in my mouth and tried to look so innocent. "Why, this little outfit, it's just something I had lying around." His hand smoothed down the side of my jacket and immediately found its way under my tiny skirt. His groan followed his hand. I pushed away from him and made my way across the room to drop the iPod into the dock so I could play the song I wanted to dance to for him.

As the beat begins to pound through the room Edward leans against the pool table and crossed his arms and ankles to watch me. I felt alive and sexy, when I danced for him. I shook my ass as Rhianna started to sing

Come here, rude boy, can you get it up?

Come here, rude boy, is you big enough?

Edward arched his eyebrow at me while I swayed to the music. This song said all the things I wanted him to know, how I felt about him and what I wanted him to do to me.

Tonight I'm a let you take me higher

Tonight, baby, we could get it on, yeah, we could get it on, yeah

He reached for me and I smacked his hand away. He simply crossed his arms over his chest again and waited for me to continue.

I turned my back and arched my back so that my ass stuck out further than normal and he could see the tiny panties I wore underneath. More importantly, he could see all that those tiny panties didn't cover.

Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me

I threw my hands up into my red wig and tossed my head around. My hands drifted down towards the uncovered skin that my blazer offered. Edward's eyes dilated and I noticed that he was breathing harder than normal. So I turned my back again and popped the two buttons that held the blazer closed. When it slightly fell from my shoulders I heard Edward groan behind me.

Tonight I'm a give it to ya harder

Tonight I'm a turn ya body out

Relax let me do it how I wanna

If you got it I need it and I'm a put it down

I dropped down to the floor and bounced my ass for him to see. I pulled the zipper down and let the skirt drop when I stood back up in front of him. This left me in my black panties and bra. I left it up to him if he left the leg warmers on or off. I didn't really care right now, I just wanted Edward and I wanted him right the fuck now.

Like it?

Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want

Give to me baby, like boom, boom, boom

What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want

I crossed the room and turned my back when I reached Edward. I rubbed my ass all over his hard cock and to his credit he stood stock still and let me do my thing.

I like the way you touch me there

I like the way you pull my hair

Babe, if you don't feel it I ain't faking, no, no

I like when you tell me 'kiss you there'

I like when you tell me 'move it there'

So giddy up, time to get it up, you say you a rude boy so show me what you got now

Come here right now

I threw my hand back to grab his thigh and pull him closer to me so that he was ground against me when I moved. His hand grabbed my hair and pulled my head back closer to his mouth as he spoke.

"You want me to show you?"

I know a moan slipped from my lips, he understood, he always understood me. The song started all over again and I could feel the difference in Edward the second time through. His hands touched me rougher, his kiss was harder and his overall demeanor was what I had asked him for. I loved it!

"Get over here Bella." His tone was rough as he demanded this one thing from me. I moved instantly to his commanded spot. "Get on your knees." I dropped down and unbuttoned his jeans. His toned skin at his hips bones called to me and I made sure to kiss up and down the sexy spot. I pulled his hard cock out of his jeans and pulled it into my mouth. I licked it, kissed it and sucked it for all it was worth. I was pretty sure more of my moans could be heard throughout the room than Edwards. "God you are amazing." His large hands grabbed my head and held it still as he pushed in a few times. He went deep and held a steady rhythm but never too deep. Never too hard. Even in his rough mode as he demanded from me, he still made sure to take care with me.

His hips stilled and he pulled me to a standing position in front of him. Edward looked me up and down before he dove into my chest. Hot wet kisses were pressed to my chest along the edges of my bra and his tongue crept as far under as it would reach. I reached back and unhooked it for him. His hands and mouth replaced the fabric of the bra. His mouth kept time to the song that continued to play in the background. My hips were lifted and Edward placed me up on the pool table, his hand pressed in the middle of my chest to push me down onto the table. Flat, he wanted me laid out flat.

I threw my heels up and propped them on the edge of the pool table. They dropped open and it left my barely covered pussy open to his inspection. One of my hands drifted upwards to pinch and pull at my nipples while the other one dropped down into my panties.

"Fuck yeah, baby, slide them off so I can see you play with that pretty pussy for me." I lifted my hips and pulled them down. I didn't even take the time to pull them completely off, I just removed one foot from them and dropped my heels back to the table. This time both hands stayed below the belt. My hands tried to simulate the actions that Edward used to drive me so insane every time his mouth touched me. It was close but not as good.

Edward's finger came up to move mine around, he knew what I liked and when to do it so I allowed him to move me exactly where he wanted me. Just the touch of his hands alone caused the moisture to rush out of my body. "Look at that, baby, you are so fucking wet for me, aren't you?" I nodded. I don't think he really wanted an answer anyway. It was rhetorical question.

Both of his hands began to move around over me. Mine simply fell away and tried to grab the table to hold on for dear life. I lost track of which hand touched and which pushed in and out of me. I didn't really want to keep track, I just wanted to feel him work my body.

"Oh, fuck yes. Fuck me hard with those fingers of yours." I arched my back off of the table. His dark chuckle almost scared me, until I saw the lust that ran through his eyes. I tilted my head and leveled my gaze directly on his mossy green eyes and watched him as he watched me. His body played mine and he loved that he had that kind of control over me still. "Stop fucking playing around, get over here and put your cock in me." My control snapped, as I demanded more from him. One more second without him would push me past the point of pleasure to pure torture.

"Yes, ma'am." He pushed his jeans down and pulled me closer to the edge of the pool table. In one push he was fully seated inside of me. His heat seared through me all the way to my eyeballs. I would never get used to the feel of him deep inside of me. My orgasm began its descent upon me and all I could do was brace myself for its full force.

"That's it, Bella. Grip my cock, oh fuck yeah. Oh yeah, so good." The way he rambled meant that he was close as well. I threw me legs around his waist and began to flex my inner muscles which caused him to hit certain spots inside a little harder. It was too much to continue to have coherent thoughts while it happened. I saw the stars and the fireworks first then the white hot heat, finally the blackness took over. I could hear Edward as he yelled in the background as it mixed with all that went on inside my head.

I'm not sure how long we lay there on the table after we both calmed down from our orgasm. Edward's body was draped over mine and he must have come back to reality because he suddenly pulled up off of me. He buttoned his pants and pulled me up off of the table. He picked me up and carried me to our bed for the night. We could catch a few hours sleep and then try something else next. I was certain that was the exact plan that ran through Edward's mind as well.

When we reached our bed for the night, Edward pulled off my heels and leg warmers. He kissed the inside of my arches and dropped his pants. Our bodies knew exactly how to intertwine ourselves to sleep. It was instinctual. When my head came to rest on his chest right beside Eavan's tattoo, I sighed my content.

"You okay, baby?" His sleepy quiet voice sliced through the darkness.

"Yeah, I'm fine, more than fine." I murmured back to him.

"I'm sorry that was pretty rough down there." I threw my hand up over his mouth to stop the words that came from his mouth. I didn't want his apologies for something that I asked for. I sat up and looked down at him so that we could set this straight right now.

"Edward, I wanted everything that happened down there. I asked for it, I taunted you, so don't you dare apologize for it like it was a mistake." His face tightened at my words. "I'm serious Edward, I love that you treat me special and with so much love. But every so often a woman needs her man to go all cave man on her. Just pick her up, throw her ass on the bed and fucking pound into her. Okay, so don't hold back with me. We can be absolutely honest with each other and that includes the topic of sex as well. Okay?"

His arms slipped around me and twisted until I lay under him. "So you liked that did you?" He kissed my lips and I was instantly horny again.

"Yes, I did, very much so. I think the hottest night we have ever had was our first time together, up against the wall with our clothes barely off because it was just our pure passion and the heat we had between us."

"Yeah that was a good night, wasn't it?" He kissed me again. "Wanna try that later?" His eyebrows wiggled at me and I just giggled.

One Month later

"Bella that is the third time this week you've been sick. Are you sure you haven't caught the stomach bug that Eavan got last week?"

I didn't answer because my body chose that moment to expel its contents into our toilet. Edward wrung the wash cloth out and patted my head with it. When I was finished he carried me back to bed and stayed with me for the rest of the day.

The next day I felt fine, so that is why it took me another month to realize that I might have been pregnant and not just sick that week. I snuck off to the doctor's office and they confirmed what I had thought. I skipped home and smiled the whole way. When I reached the house it was too early for Edward or Eavan to be there. Especially since this was Jacob's regular day for therapy. Neither Edward nor Eavan ever wanted to hurry home on a Jacob day, so I had plenty of time to enact my plan. I called Esme, Rose and Alice and told each of them that they needed to come to dinner at our house tonight, no excuses, I had a surprise for Edward and they needed to be there. Thankfully all three of them agreed and didn't ask a single question. I rushed off to the store and bought something simple to put into a gift bag to surprise Edward with at dinner.

I ended up with any and everything that was blue. I was certain this child was a boy. I don't know how I knew I just did. I bought all kinds of Onesies with sayings on them, me and daddy love mommy, little brother, superman in training, I drink till I pass out, and lastly they made me white Onesie that says Team Cullen on it. I bought stuffed animals, a blue diaper bag and lots and lots of blue room accessories. I had no idea how to present all of this to Edward now but who cares? He would be thrilled no matter how I told him so I would figure all that out later.

I rushed to the market and bought all kinds of food to make for dinner. Anything that came to mind that was Edward's favorites then I wanted to make it for him. I loaded the car with all of my groceries and left for home again.

By the time everything was carried into the house and unloaded, I was exhausted. I went upstairs to change clothes and perhaps lay my head down for about twenty minutes. I check the clock on my nightstand and decided that I could actually sleep for thirty before I would need to start to cook for all of our dinner guests.

I woke with a start when Edward's warm hand touched the middle of my back. "Baby, we have several hungry people downstairs that say you promised them dinner? You okay?" I sat up and realized that the room was almost dark, like the sun is long gone dark. I over slept. I did the only thing I could do, I burst into tears. I had no idea how I would ever get this dinner made and everything done with Edward now home. He would know for sure. I jumped out of bed and ran into my closet. I pulled on a pair of jeans and a simple shirt to go and get dinner started.

Edward stopped me as I came out of the closet. "Bella, you are worrying me, are you sure you're alright?" I burst into tears again. One large sigh and a even larger flop onto the bench at the foot of our bed and I spilled my guts right then and there.

"No, I'm not okay. I invited everyone over for dinner to make it a surprise for you and it back fired on me. I fell asleep and now I have nothing ready for them, nothing. I have a gift to wrap and now that is not done either and to be honest I don't know how to get all that stuff into one bag anyway." His hand flew up and paused my speech.

"Wait, did you say a gift? For me?" I nodded each time he asked. "Why, it's not my birthday and it is certainly not our anniversary, so why a gift for me?"

"I just wanted to do a grand gesture and all since last time was a less than joyous occasion, I figured that you would like a big deal made out of it." I started to cry again.

"Shh, Bella, really this is not that important at all. Let's just send every one home and we can call a pizza, okay?"

"No, I don't want you to eat pizza when you find out you are going to be a daddy again." I yelled and Edward froze. Hand halfway to its destination, mouth open, eyes did not even dare to blink. He was just frozen. I froze as well; this was not how I wanted this night to go at all.

"Did you just say that I am going to be a daddy again? Are you…are you pregnant?" He asked with his hand still in mid air.

I just nodded. That action seemed to pull him out of his trance because he stepped towards me and pulled me into his arms. "Oh God, how I love you." He stepped back and looked at my stomach and back up at me, his eyes were full of tears. "Really?" I nodded again and he spun me around while kissed my neck.

A loud cry, whoop and scream of joy all combined ripped from Edward's mouth to slice through the silence of the rest of the house. All of our dinner guests came running to see what the problem was. They found us as we cried and kissed in the hall outside of our room. Eavan must have felt them as they ran down the hall because she came out of her room with a look of confusion.

Edward looked at me and then at them, his eyes asked the question his mind wanted to know. I nodded and kiss his cheek. I tried to step away but his grip on the back of my shirt wouldn't let me walk far. In fact I didn't get more than an arm's length away from him. Nine sets of eyes looked as us, they patiently waited for the reason behind Edward's cry. He motioned Eavan over first and pulled her close to him. I stepped between them and the rest of the crowd. As much as she has been through with us and our life she deserved to be the second person to know about our good news. Edward's finger signed the words and she looked up at me then engulfed us both in a hug.

Gran broke the silence with her plea. "Oh come on, some of us are old here."

Pop's agreed. "Yeah, tell us already."

"Bella's pregnant; we're going to have another baby." An explosion of sound took over the small hallway we occupied as we accepted congratulations from our family. I left Edward's arms as he accepted hugs from his parents and grandparents. I slipped into our room and gathered the stuff on the end of our bed so he could see it all. I opened the door again and pulled Edward in. His eyes opened again as he took in the blue color that covered everything.

"It's a boy?"

"I don't know for sure, I'm not far enough to have the ultrasound to tell yet but I just feel like it is." I suddenly felt sheepish now that I got his hopes up in case I was wrong. Esme stepped in and offered some comfort to me.

"I felt like both of these two were boys from day one, as soon as I found out I knew. I never bought a single thing that was pink, never picked out girl names. I just knew." She patted my arm.

"Guess we'll have to see, won't we?" Edward's smile was radiant. He was always a good looking man, never as much as when he smiled a smile of full joy. The sick days where he lied and I loved him anyway would never touch us again. The drugs, booze and infidelity would never touch us again. As hard as it seemed, I knew that his journey, that our journey together was worth it. Love was always worth it.